TMI: Still fucking itchy and getting pissed off about it. The doc said "try vitmain e oil". Nice. Well, you know what, I guess I will. Unfortunately, it's not just vaginal itch. My anus is itchy too, which is why I thought it was still a yeast issue (but it could be irritation from the constipation). Either way, something is still wrong, and I don't want to add fruit back into my diet until that feeling is gone so I know for sure that I'm not having a yeast flare-up. On the Vitamin C front, my urine has been very yellow lately, which I guess is a sign of excess, but my bowel movements are a mostly a 1 or 2 on the chart at the moment.
Sleep: Woke up a couple times last night. It's been cooler at night, so I keep the fan on for half the night, then wake up too cold, shut it off, and pull on a blanket. Then the cat started meowing at me till I let her on the bed to snuggle (cool enough for open doors since the AC doesn't have to be on). It's a seasonal transition. As soon as I adjust to the temperatures, I won't need the fan to fall asleep. It also provides white noise, which I find soothing, but again, I will adjust without it. I'll try without it this weekend, as long as it doesn't get too hot. I'm tempted to drink coffee today because my body is really slacking (my eyes feel like they're going to fall out of my head), but see mood/brain for why I won't. I'm surprised I'm sleeping this poorly however, since I'm taking magnesium citrate at night. I thought that was supposed to help.
Food: I finished off the peanut butter fudge bars my mom made. So tasty. So stomachache inducing. I am not allowed near sugar anymore. I apparently cannot resist myself. It's the same old "wait, what happened to the last 3 oreos?" dilemma (hint: I ate them). I wish I could sensibly indulge, but that's why nature has beautiful creations like avocados.
Mood/brain: The crazy brain energy thing continues, but I feel like it's getting worse. I'm full of anxious energy and I don't know what to do with it. I'm struggling not to snap at people at work and it's freaking me out. I'm having pretty intense mental battles with myself so I don't waste PTO and go home (I have only 3 days worth saved at the moment). I have therapy today and I feel really ANGRY about it. I don't want to go and whine for an hour! Maybe it will help release some of this energy though. I am now feeling like this qualifies as an anxiety attack and I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE AT ALL TODAY SUCKS SO HARD RIGHT NOW
Budget: I forgot that this month was one of those magical times of the year that I get paid 3x! So my budgeting was not absolutely horrid. I was tempted to use that "extra" money to treat myself, but no, it must be saved. I may buy the Hydro-C though and count it towards a September supplement expense. I'm trying really, really, really hard to be patient, but I suck at it.