Sleep: Absolute shite. It didn't take me too long to doze off, but I kept waking up. I was awake from at least 3-4 AM, when Boyfriend came to bed (he'd been hanging out with a friend at the apartment). I think I'll take Melatonin tonight. I'm pretty sure it's my anxiety that's the issue. I did pretty well with avoiding screens last night, but a bit of game-playing on my phone was running through my head as I tried to fall asleep.
Food: Dinner took at least an hour to make, not including the 30-45 minutes it took to cook the spaghetti squash (so tiny this time of year). I followed a random paleo meatball recipe I found online, but baked instead of seared then baked them. It called for a lot of cumin, and I think that's what made them taste "funny". Boyfriend did not like them and I felt hurt. Felt stupid for feeling hurt over it. Probably won't say anything about that. More leftovers for me! I had enough time this morning to cook up some burger patties that will either make lunch or dinner later this week. I think I'll make the curry tonight, but I'm worried it won't come out like I'm imagining. I'm also worried I'll totally fuck up the cauliflower rice in my blender, but I guess I can make it into mashed cauliflower if worst comes to worst.
Exercise: I did not do any extra biking, just enough to get to and from the grocery store. I had at least 30 lbs of groceries on my back for the ride back. My body was not up to the trip. I might try to do pull-ups on a broom over two chairs tonight, otherwise I will do a real biking session. I think I could get in 3 sessions this week, but don't want to neglect my strength exercises. I should do a kettlebell video.
Mood/brain: I took a Tyrosine this morning, after finding myself anxious in bed last night, second-guessing a lot of stupid things. The good thing is my concerns are pretty reasonable these days. I'm not worrying about money because I don't have to right now. I'm more worried about things like talking to Boyfriend about my feelings. I hope the Tyrosine helps. So far, I feel okay, but was kind of anxious this morning.
Symptoms: I am less itchy today than I was yesterday, which is a great improvement. I think all the garlic in my tomato sauce helped (my hands still smell like it, it's awesome). I've been taking the rest of my super strong probiotic at least once a day (ultimately, want to take it twice a day for at least a few weeks) and have another bottle on order. I'm not sure what to do about the rest of my fruit (a few oranges, an apple, a frozen banana). I don't want it to go to waste, but I'm not sure I should eat it at all at this point. I had an orange yesterday.