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    Quote Originally Posted by namelesswonder View Post
    According to videos on Zappos.com, Vibram is not pronounced vy-brim. Vib-rim is the proper pronunciation according to them. I've never heard it spoken before.
    I heard this the other day. Sounds funny to say it, like it's very British or something.
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    The rest of it would go towards the small loan I wanted to pay off this year. OR, the most super responsible option is to set it aside to go towards filling our oil tank for this winter, since I'm paying off my loans on-time, just not as faster as I'd like to.
    Ooooorrrrrr, you could sit on it for a while until you decide want its best use is. Because you know as soon as you spend it something will come up and you'll be all like I wish I wouldn't have spent my money on ____ because I really need ____.
    Just sayin', yo.
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    I slept just fine after I got Boyfriend to stop crushing me (glad he was sleeping well and on-time though!). I feel a bit tired today, but not outrageously so.
    Innuendo? Double entendre? I can't tell since I'm old now.
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    Happy belated birthday!

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    Looking witchy: AWESOME. That is secretly my goal for a lot of outfits, whether I realize it or not (you basically just made me realize this, that has been the driving factor behind most of my planned outfits for the past 10 years).

    Vib-rim totally sounds all posh British. I don't know the regional accents well enough to properly describe that.

    I will be sitting on the money (not literally, it's already deposited in my savings account) for a while and stress about it the whole time, probably. That's how I roll. I don't want to stress about it, but I feel like I can't function without worrying about SOMEthing.

    Lawl, not at all innuendo. Sometimes I am a "sensitive sleeper". Last night, my leg was bugging me (feeling all crooked) no matter how I lay and then Boyfriend decided his leg MUST be over my other leg despite me moving it multiple times. Finally I gave him a nudge and said I was going to sleep in the other room so we could both have some space to sprawl and he incoherently let me know we should just swap sides. He hugged the wall (pretty much literally) and I had the rest of the bed to get comfortable on and I was out pretty quickly after that. Man, he didn't used to be such a thrasher.
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    I'm finally starting to embrace my "I want to look witchy" days. For a while I was trying to look more "normal" which does not include long black skirts with black blouses. (Me, normal? Yeah, I know) But I'm beginning to care less and less what people think about how I look

    If I ever pronounce it that way, the r will be rolled. Because that's a requirement for being a snob. Vibrrrrrrim. *sticks pinky out and takes a sip of tea*
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    Vy-brim sounds sexier. Like vibrate. Yeah, baby, you know what's up.

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    Quote Originally Posted by namelesswonder View Post
    Vy-brim sounds sexier. Like vibrate. Yeah, baby, you know what's up.

    Ramblings, Ravings and Rants.: Wacky Wednesday: aka. title failure
    HEY BOOTER. I talk about periods a little in this one. Not much. I don't think you'll mind. Just don't read the link I mention in there. I thought I'd give you a heads up this time
    YES! YES! YES! Common courtesy is still ALIVE!!!! THANK YOU FOR RESTORING MY FAITH IN HUMANITY!!
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    I like you, you're lucky. I generally don't give a fuck about such disclaimers, despite being a fairly nice and considerate person (I would like to think).

    The work "aptly" is stuck in my head. It wants to be used. If it was a person, I'd want to punch it in the face. It sounds pretentious. I've totally used it.

    Ms. Dressage, do you have a rolly chair at work? My skirt keeps getting stuck under it. It's fun picking it up to walk on stairs though

    Ah Tyrosine! You are a true friend. My brain is kind of zipping around today, but in a very productive manner. I can multi-task successfully, which is HUGE for me. I needed this.
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    Quote Originally Posted by namelesswonder View Post
    When he was drunk and I was so angry and trapped and hurt, I said I wanted to hit him and he got in my face and told me to do it and told me he would hit me back. I don't think it's an exaggeration to say that I was terrified.
    His saying that he would hit a girl who hit him isn't per se worrisome: there are all sorts of situations where that might be warranted, although I must say that violence is always a last resort, and violence towards women (even aggressive and physically matched women) is a last last resort.

    But, drunk or not, to tell you to hit him, to egg you on, and then say he was going to hit you back, is something of a flag in my book. What's he trying to invite? The two of you hitting each other? Or is he trying to intimidate you with the mere threat of counterpunch? Neither is positive. If he needs puffed up by saying go ahead and hit me because I'ma hit you back, then something's wrong with that.

    And drunk is no excuse. I can get testy when I'm drunk, but it's not a violent thing. More likely I'll get all philosophical and bore your ass to death. The veritas the vino unleashes is the one that wants to come out, sometime.

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    My thought was "what the hell is he drinking? A mixture of rubbing alcohol and Listerine?" I've known lots of folks who were mean drunks, but not towards women. He's got a problem and it starts with getting drunk, so he needs to stop getting drunk. Problem solved.
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    Yesterday, we went SWIMMING! We're having a 2-3 day heat wave this week (yesterday was mid-90s, felt like over 100, same today, cooler tomorrow with thunderstorms, but still mid-80s). Come to think of it, I think we usually have a June heat wave, then things simmer down a bit until later in the summer. Hottest time is August, or at least it's supposed to be. I don't understand how discussing weather is "small talk" because I find it fascinating. I think I missed my scientific calling. I like the tangible sciences, like geology and meteorology (as opposed to something physics, and yes, chemistry, because there is too much math for me to understand the things). Anyway, the always-frigid pool was 68F, which is pretty good for that pool (always shaded, pretty much), and it felt wonderfully refreshing. But then Boyfriend and I were incredibly sleepy (chlorine maybe, or the temperature shock) and hungry again. He ordered a sammich and I ordered ice cream. Foodler is a blessing/curse for people like us. That is the first time we've ordered out this month and I think only the second time we've paid for food that wasn't groceries. +1 for budgeting.

    I have more ice cream for tonight (apparently 1 quart = 2 pints). Moose tracks with added full-size Reeses cups. Funny enough, the cookie bloat I got a few days ago subsided overnight. Carbing up at night seems to work well for me. I skipped lunch a couple of times this week. With something carb-y instead of a real meal, I seem to handle dinner just fine, but yesterday I had nothing and was hungry after dinner. Today, I have an orange keeping cozy in the fridge. It's going to be GLORIOUS.

    I considered not taking the Tyrosine this morning, but I think it's better that I continue for now. I can tell how it's helping me. I think a smaller dose would actually be better suited. Maybe I will take it every other day so it's maybe still in my system a little. I wonder if it's bad to empty half a capsule and swallow that small pocket of air that's left. I'm sure I swallow more air when I drink water than would be in that capsule. I have so much Tyrosine, it's not even worth keeping the half that I discard.

    I am really looking forward to going up to Maine. Nervous about the drive, as usual. Tonight, I need to swing by my parents' house to pick up my bathing suit, find the spare apartment key, and ask my dad to feed Fae Saturday AM, PM, and Sunday AM. I need to go to the ATM for tomorrow's therapy co-pay and toll/parking $ for the trip. As much as I would like to take photos on the beach, I think I'd rather focus on enjoying the walking and sunning and not having to carry anything. I am totally going to wear my wide-brimmed paper (looks like straw) hat, but I hope it doesn't get blown away.

    Today I am wearing an outfit like the one I wore to that wedding (photo on previous page, maybe), except the skirt is a stretchy black pencil skirt, I'm wearing a clear quartz pendant, and my shoes are comfortable black mary-jane wedges. I feel pretty sexy. I'm mostly expecting to get pounced when I get home today, since Boyfriend was too sleepy to get a response this morning. Yesterday, I felt fat and ugly. I have to keep reminding myself that improving my self-image is an ongoing process. I know I say a lot here that I seem to be fixed and then maybe the next day, I'm broken again. When something seems to be going right, I have a hard time figuring out if I can handle getting elated about it, or if I should be very very cautious. I'm not really capable of cautious optimism so the crash when I'm wrong is less painful. I think that is something I will always struggle with, being a passionate person.

    My inner thighs are still sore from the KB deadlifts I did the other day. Definitely need to add those to my regular work-out if I can only handle 20 with 15 lbs!
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