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    I feel bad that your dad thinks he's a screw up. Make sure you tell him that he's not.

    I think a project would be great for the two of you to get back to being you again. Maybe it'll relieve some of the tension that has built up between you two.
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    My dad would never admit that he screwed up, or that he was anything less than a perfect father. At least your dad's willing to try, yo.
    If I just said LOL, I lied. Do or do not. There is no try.

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    I am afraid to see what that video is, but maybe I will check it later.

    I cried on Boyfriend for a bit last night and finally feel like the tears are out of my system for now. It was very reassuring to have him tell me that sometimes the harsh truths need to be said in order to move past them (making my dad admit that he feels like a failure). It was also more of a recognition from him that what went down hurt me and he regretted it. I think his response was just right, this time, and that I was prepared to receive it.

    Boyfriend agreed to work on his sleep schedule if it will help me feel less upset. I can't explain why it makes me feel that way, but it makes me sad to wake up and know that he has spent another night awake. Maybe because I know the unnatural sleep schedule isn't good for his mood, and him staying up means he was feeling depressed. He said, "I'd even try sleeping pills if it will make you feel better." I'm not sure how to explain to him (Mr. smarty-pants bio major) that Melatonin isn't a "sleeping pill". He doesn't like reading links I send him unless it's job-related or funny so I'll have to educate myself on its function to share with him. Unfortunately I think Melatonin is much like many other "natural" supplements, meaning it's all anecdotal evidence and he really likes clinical trial evidence or peer-reviewed studies.

    Sleep was disrupted last night. We fell asleep too early (around 10) and woke up around 1 or 2 in the morning. Boyfriend had to leave so I could sleep, but is staying awake today for errands and a phone interview for a guard position at Macy's. It's unfortunately not very close to here so I'm worried about him getting the job and what that means for my commute. The scooter is not good in rainy weather and a snowy winter would be rather dangerous. At least that is a worry I can fairly put off until October or later. In the meantime, I can save up for some better gear (gloves, insulated pants for cold weather, new cover that doesn't have holes in it). Our driveway does not really have room for another car, not that I would have the money for one anyway.

    Dinner last night was delicious. I'm getting better at making burgers and it really is important to get the ground beef to room temperature so it cooks evenly. Boyfriend made a double-burger complete with a bun-half in the middle. He thinks it's "wrong" to have a burger without a bun. . I get to eat his untouched potatoes for lunch today though, so it works out.

    Since money is tight, I can happily avoid any treats for the rest of the month, including ones for Boyfriend. I'm hoping that he'll stick with slightly better food options like the frozen meatballs he picked up, instead of ramen, for lunch. This weekend, I'll make sure to get him some lunch meat and cheese, though he will insist on eating it with rolls. Last summer, when I started eating primal, I made meat & cheese roll-ups for lunch sometimes Very reminiscent of grade school lunches, though I'm not sure I actually ever ate that when I was that young. I'm hoping to keep the grocery bill a bit trimmer this month. Last month it was roughly $375 on essential food stuffs, plus some of Boyfriend's treats (cookie making supplies and/or dough), which is just under how much we spend on average (closer to $400).
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    Let me know if this doesn't work.

    My grandmother, when she kept a garden with fresh veggies & strawberries, was taller, and appropriately fat for a true Babushka. My dad, when he listened to his AM radio for French and Russian broadcasts, was thinner, not silver-haired, and sported a beard instead of just a handlebar 'stache. Me, when I was super-blonde.
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    I can't imagine only spending $400 on groceries. We spend $600 and then some. But, I have 4 persons in my home. I made my son two burgers last night (can you believe a 5 year old can eat two burgers??) and he asked if we had any buns. I said no, and he said "ok. I'll just eat it like this". He's such a sweet little man sometimes! lol

    I hope you're feeling better today.
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    Quote Originally Posted by namelesswonder View Post
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    My grandmother, when she kept a garden with fresh veggies & strawberries, was taller, and appropriately fat for a true Babushka. My dad, when he listened to his AM radio for French and Russian broadcasts, was thinner, not silver-haired, and sported a beard instead of just a handlebar 'stache. Me, when I was super-blonde.
    What a great picture! How old were you? About 6? super cute.
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    The photo is dated October 1992, so I was probably around 4 (back then, my family kept the camera dates pretty accurate, or maybe it was the printing facility that dated them). That photo actually comes from a little album that I put together when I was under 10 yrs old (favorite photos/memories from loose photos that were never put into albums, we have a lot of boxes of unsorted photos). I found it a couple years ago and scanned most of the pictures. I still want to finish that project. The pictures of my Didushka (grandpa) with my sister and me make me pretty happy. There aren't a lot of him with my brother, since my brother was not even 2 when my grandpa died.

    Groceries are pretty expensive around here, being near a city I suppose. We buy meat in bulk at BJ's so that helps a lot, considering how much we eat though it's definitely not high quality! Growing kids are ridiculous vacuums, I eat two burgers!
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    You were a cute kid, Tasha!

    What's your recipe for burgers, BTW?

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    IK! Me too!! My son is very active... like won't sit still active. lol He's always moving even if it's just to stand at the sand table have have a little "race" with his Hot Wheels. And if he's not moving, his mouth is. lol He's always got stories to tell and they are LOOOOONG!

    Right now he's going to a summer program where they play all day, and he's in swimming lessons. He's very active and our doctor loves it. But, he's also 65 lbs which is off the growth charts (but 95th for height, so dr isn't overly concerned, just said to be aware of his 'rank'). She said a paleo lifestyle would prevent any future weight problems (she's a paleo doctor. Love her). Working on him, but some things are tough b/c he doesn't like whole cuts of meat, only ground meats. Last night, he ate two burgers with a slice of cheese and a bowl and a half of grapes. Pretty primal, I think.

    But, damn is that kid active! he's hard to keep track of most days.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Finnegans Wake View Post
    What's your recipe for burgers, BTW?
    While meat is coming to room temp, add salt, pepper, and dashes of Worcestershire sauce (or small puddle in the middle of the meat). Sometimes I add oregano or "Italian seasoning", which apparently my grandmother has always done. It's an odd mix, but I like it. I also tend to add garlic to everything, and would add onion powder if I wasn't out. Mix gently, let sit until i'ts room temp. I alternate using butter or bacon grease as a medium for the pan and now I always use my larger (maybe 12"?) cast iron for the burgers. Heat it up, add the fat when it's almost smoking, plop the burgers on as balls and spread them out with hand or spatula (I use my hand and make a thumb indent in the middle to help cook more evenly, it rises up again anyway). 4-5 min per side, depending on the weight of the burger. Mine are probably always about 1/4 lb. That usually gets me about medium or medium-well. I would cover them with the heat off to finish them more, not sure how I'd get more rare without them being cool in the middle (I dislike that). If I have more than 1 lb to make at a time (rare), I'll mix in one egg. They hold together well without, and the eggs I get are probably jumbo so they don't really mix well and I end up with odd white areas in the burger if it's too much.

    Anyway, that's how I like them. And that's pretty much how I make steak too, though I'm still messing around with marinades and seasonings. Getting the pan heat just right took a while, also warming the meat in winter is difficult.

    I should write about my experiences of organized physical activity (gym classes, soccer, ballet) and incorporate a story about church camp. Yes, church camp. Little miss pretty-much-pagan was once Orthodox Christian and attended a camp for like-minded youngsters, ages 9-17, for a few years as a pre-teen. People are very surprised to learn about this, knowing me now. Something for the blog, maybe today. Thanks for the inspiration, Jenn!
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