Journey of Katemary page 20

[katemary]

B: large black coffee, 2 poached eggs and spinach
L: roast chicken breast with skin and green veg
D: steak with mushroom, onions and asparagus (last nights) with avocado and peas

[lambchop]

better again! good to hear!

who is telling porkies for dramatic attention? and whatever happened to Ireland, lol!

Eat more babe. more.

[katemary]

You know I was wondering whatever happened to Ireland too!

Man I am so stupid. I engage in stupid stuff for...I don't know why. Then I get mega upset about traditional rules of behaviour not applying. Self sabotage to the extreme. I actually had a day this week where something happened which could go either way and whilst my reaction was reasonable, I KNEW expressing it would lead to an outcome I wouldn't like, that I should let it slide. I didn't, and now and devastated. The same day something came up at work and I knew I should chill and not react and let someone know I was annoyed but it was like a sharp hot needle until I said what I had to say...by email to a client/friend. Bad move. There was a third example all within 24 hours. So since then I have wallowed in self hatred and hatred of the world for just not being fucking fair...I mean, I was entitled to those reactions...but I KNEW the repercussions of expressing my reaction. So, alcohol, self pity...

[katemary]

B: large black coffee
L: steamed cauliflower and broccolli with grilled salmon
D: steak and salad with avocado and fetta