hey! really? lets get drunk!
Hello, Katemary. I am catching up on your journal and wanted to say 'Lo and I hope you're better!
hey! really? lets get drunk!
Geez thanks guys! I'm okay. Thanks for the PMs too, its nice to have the empathy, support
I was just feeling down. You know it was stupid, someone was a bit dismissive of me, probably for reasons unrelated to me, so I felt bad, so drowned it in red wine, self loathing kicked in. hate myself for having no discipline. rinse. repeat.
Being overweight leads to self hate leads to self destructive behaviour and more self loathing.
And I keep thinking if I kept on track with my first primal attempt, I would be "normal" by now. Oh...sigh. It is such a long path and so easy to lose hope.
anyway I appreciate the good vibes and wish I had logged in earlier, may have pepped me up sooner.
and yes, Betorq, Walking Dead is sooooo awesome
Thanks for dropping by Betorq and KerryK
and for the other kind words and offers Amber, Daniel and lambus-chopus
Therapists over the world could abandon their posts and put up smiley faces on their doors and tell patients to just go away and be positive
Try go for a walk or listen to some upbeat music and dance - try something active before committing to wine and feeling bad. Just force yourself for 10 minutes, hun. Try it.
I cannot believe Walking Dead was on mainstream tv. Very awesome!
Get the negative talk, you know it is a cycle, turn it around! You know you are tough.
Thanks Honeybuns, wish it was that easy. Depression and self sabotage isn't really a choice. I will try hard though! A dance or walk is a good idea, thanks lambchops.
The Walking Dead is just awesomeballs, Daniel, so true. I love it sooo much. Such a good idea to put an apocalypse as a series, so much to fit in 90 mins.
Went to see Prometheus on weekend. WTF? It was visually amazing but so many unecessary elements. The angst and tension between the owner of the corp and Charlize character. why? pointless. in fact, both roles didn't need to exist. The android's ability to reverse engineer a language of aliens, a stretch. But the thing that annoyed me was the religious element, the 'I need to know their maker' carry on of the main character. wtf? can't you just be amazed to find life onanother planet with human DNA? Wouldn't it be enough to find evidence of that life, and a taste of what wiped it out. don't get me started on how they found the planet. Sigh...it could have been great.
B: large black coffee
L: chicken breast with skin plus roast veg
D: steak and a 'green salad' - lettuce, mint, peas, asparagus and avocado. a different salad for a change.
walked up stairs instead of lift to flat.
working up enthusiasm to go out for walk (is freezing) or do bw exercises.
Last edited by katemary; 08-06-2012 at 04:56 AM.
I did planks, push ups, some weights, squats.
B: large black coffee, 2 fried eggs and spinach leaves
L: chicken breast with tomato sauce and cheese (a quick parmesan chicky) pumpkin mash and brocollini.
D: veal boscaiola with asparagus and brocollini. yum. nice creamy sauce.
really want cherries and cream, hmmmm.
taking the stairs down and up to my flat today. I can feel the exercise last night in my arms and legs, letting dinner settle and then I should do some exercise.