Lauren Get's Down and Primal (; ~Summer Journal~ page

[g3tL@uren]

Starting a new journal, my old one was too messy for me.

This is my summer journal, i'm really determined to get my body in peak condition. I suffered from bulimia/anorexia for a short time and i have since upped my calorie intake considerably and i am waiting for my period to return. I am a 15year girl, i'm upsessed with being healthy( not in a bad way). I want to lower my BF% and look goood. I don't weigh myself because it triggers me but last time i checked i was 113, before i started eating more. At 5'2 ½ inches tall i would like my weight to be around 105, but that may not be possible, i wouldn't know. Haha i have a very small frame and almost all my fat is in my belly leaving me with skinny legs and a round midsection(Yuck!).

I plan on incorporating way more exercise in once school is out(three more weeks, YES) and feel free to post with advice,tips,tricks etc. And if i'm doing something wrong, TELL ME, i'd rather know and fix it, you won't hurt my feelings.

Summer Challenge

Starts: Saturday May 14th
Ends: Saturday August 20th

My Goals

• Listen to my hunger, don't just eat
• Do not eat until I am full, Keep my portions reasonable
• Don't go back and keep eating ( I have the tendency to binge )
• Eat over 1,200 calories but under 1,800 calories each day
• Eat no more than four times a day
• Keep carbs below 90g (except on Vacations)
• No Snacking!!
• No Binging, No Purging (In any form)
• Gym at least twice a week*
• Walk the dog everyday once School is out
• Be in bed by 11pm every night (Unless I'm with friends)
• Lift Heavy Things Once a week minimum (This is weight machines too for me)*
• Carb Refeeds on May 27th,June 10th,June 24th,July 8th, July 29th,August 12th. (180-220 Carbs these days)
• Get my measurement from 31.5' to 28' ( I Measure right below my belly button, weird but thats where i want to see the fat leave)

Foods I CAN Eat Everyday

• Meat and Poultry
• Fish (except Tilapia)
• Vegetables (Spinach,celery,romaine,iceberg,broccoli,cauliflow er,asparagus,cabbage, brussel sprouts, etc.)
• 1-2 Tablespoons Butter
• Blueberries
• Eggs
• Seasonings (For my food..duh)
• Bacon
• Oils
• Vinegars
• Coconut Milk
• Green Tea
• Strawberries
• Raspberries
• Fungi
• Walnuts,Macadamia nuts

Foods I Can Eat Every Other Day

• Whey Protein
• Nightshades (Tomatoes, bell peppers, etc)
• Half and Half
• Dark Chocolate (Must be 75% or higher)
• Carrots, onions and other carby vegetables
• Avocado
• Greek Yogurt
• 1 Tablespoon Honey
• Cheese
• Other nuts (pistachios,almonds,cashews etc.)

Foods I Can Eat Once Every Week*

• Seeds
• Sweet Potato,Yams,Pumpkin
• Potato (Fries,mashed,etc)
• Milk
• Apple,Banana,Peaches etc.(all other fruits)
• Cream
• Frozen Yogurt
• Rice
• Lara Bars
• Melons
• Dried Fruit
• Tilapia
• Snow peas,green beans
• Popchips
• Green Tea Frappuccino (My indulgence hehe)

Foods i CANNOT Eat, Except on Special Events

• Grains (Bread,pizza,pasta,chips,pastry,muffin,cake,browni e,brown rice, oatmeal etc.)
• Beans and legumes (peanuts, beans, edamame, soybean)
• Processed Foods (If i don't know an ingredient, i don't eat it)
• Artificial Sweeteners
• Juice, Soda, etc.
• Peanut Butter
• Candy
• Protein Bars
• Canola &Vegetable Oil
• Alcohol

* Week starts on Monday-Sunday

Layout of Days

Date

Goals: (specific to the Day)

Meal 1:

Meal 2:

Meal 3:

Meal 4:

(On Mondays) Measurement:

Exercise:

Assessment:

Calories/Ratios/Grams:

**I plan on editing each post throughout the day so things might change as i add food and exercise to it.

[g3tL@uren]

Day 0: May 13th 2011

Goals: Technically I haven't even started till tomorrow. + I'm sick. My goals are to keep carbs under 120g, eat 1,500ish calories, Wait till I'm hunger to eat My 2nd Meal

Meal 1: (Binged) Blueberries w/half & half, Costco Chicken Salad, Costco Rotisserie Chicken,1 Apple,½ Banana,½ Lara Chocolate Chip Brownie Bar,1 piece Ghiradelli 60% Dark chocolate Handful of Macadamia Nuts,almonds,cashews and raisins (1000 calories)
~Ate bad food, No more Lara Bars,cashews,almonds,banana,raisin,apple till Monday
No chocolate or Macadamia nuts tomorrow

Meal 2: A FRS Energy Drink, Barbacoa,Cheese,Guacamole,Fajita Veggies,Romaine Lettuce,Salsa(Green tomatillo) - I got chipotle (465 Calories)
~No more cheese until next week (Monday) No avacado,nightshades or onions tomorrow

Exercise: Been home sick all day

Assessment: I really feel sluggish, from sickness and lack of movement. I got around my calorie ratio, but i had highish carbs. No snacking today at least. But i did binge, and i didn't really feel hungry all day. My ratios are also not ideal, too much fat for how much carbs i ate + barely made it on protein grams.

Tomorrow i CANNOT eat onions,avacados,bell peppers,lara bars,macadamia almonds or cashews,chocolate,cheese,bananas or apples,and raisins

Calories/Ratios/Grams: ~1,503 Calories. Fat: 84grams,20.6 Saturated, 48%. Carbs:128.4grams,29.8g Fiber,71.6g Sugar, 32%. Protein: 80.2g, 20%.

[g3tL@uren]

Day 1: May 14th 2011

Goals: Listen to my hunger. Eat only what i am supposed to, no binging and no snacking!

Meal 1: Cabbage Soup, Costco Chicken Salad, 1 egg (~300 calories)

Meal 2: Had a 'bunless burger' (ground beef,lettuce,onion,cheese,thousand island dressing,pickle) with french fries

Meal 3: Macadamia Nuts,Chicken Salad, 4egg whites,strawberries,whey protein and half and half

Exercise: Two hours of tumbling,stunting,jumping and stretching

Assessment: I wasn't supposed to eat onions OR cheese OR Macadamia nuts. I'm very dissapointed in myself for not having the willpower to not eat them,but i kept my carbs low and my calories where in the highish range... I'm not sure if i ate to much fat, but i got my protein around the right amount, not a lot of meat in my house right now though. I didn't binge or snack (my dinner was over an hour though because i had people in my house). And i only ate when i was hungry for the most part so yay for me on that note. Tomorrow i WILL stick to my limitations and try my best to eat right

Tomorrow (and today) i CANNOT eat onions,half and half,whey protein,avacados,bell peppers,lara bars,macadamia almonds or cashews,chocolate,cheese,bananas or apples,and raisins

Calories/Ratios/Grams: ~1,790 calories. Fat: 115g,27.9 saturated,57%. Carbs: 82g,14.7g fiber,25.4g sugar, 18%. Protein: 114.4g, 25%.

[g3tL@uren]

Day 2:May 15th 2011

Goals: Listen to hunger, don't eat after 6:30pm, be in bed by 10pm, only eat two meals, no binging OR snacking!

Meal 1: (11am- it was over the course of an hour..) Radish Soup (radish,water,salt,garlic,green onions),dried anchovies,kimchi,2 slices bacon,geme(fried seaweed) ~670 calories

Meal 2: (Kind of binged..) Bulgogi,Fish cakes, watercress,mug bean sprouts,soy sauce,blueberries,strawberries and raspberries, veggies were fried in sesame oil.

Exercise: None

Assessment: I sucked today. I ate huge amounts of food in my two sittings( both over an hour long of eating)- i was cooking with my korean grandma-. i sincerely will do better tomorrow. I haven't exercised at all due to my schoolwork.thats all i have been doing. Plus i ate way too many carbs..
Tomorrow is monday and i will start my week on a good foot.

Tomorrow is a new week and i start fresh! I Can eat any of my foods from my allowed list

Calories/Rations/Grams: ~1,600 calories Fat: 79.5g, 20.4g saturated, 46%. Carbs: 92.7g(yikes),18,9g fiber,42.6g sugar, 24% Protein 117.1g,30%

[g3tL@uren]

Day 3: May 16th 2011

Goals: Keep my carbs under 10% of my total DV, No fish cakes!( flour..), No fruits. Only veggies,soup and meats for me. Only eat two meals (before and after school), no snacking whatsoever. be in bed by 10pm

Meal 1: Some radish soup, and cabbage soup but i threw it up( BY ACCIDENT my multivitamin made me nauseous, i need to cut those in half from now on…)

Meal 2: (Over the course of an hour… )Lots of radish soup, mung bean sprouts in sesame oil & stir fry sauce, kimchee, 1 stick gum

Exercise: Cheer, 30min elliptical,10min walking on treadmill, 10min light weights (abs,arms,legs)
Assessment: Pretty healthy eating day, only veggies to kick start my journey. I really need to get back on track none of my clothes are fitting and i can definitely see more fat on my body (eww) from eating so much lately. Tomorrow i'll add in some meats. Today i ate really low cal so don't go bashing me because i don't plan on doing this a lot, i just wasn't hungry and i only wanted to eat veggies for some reason...

I can eat everything on the list tomorrow

Calories/Rations/Grams: ~ 450 calories Fat: 13.1g, .8g saturated, 27% Carbs: 61.9g,13.2 fiber,39g sugar, 56% Protein: 19.9g, 18%

[tanyayogi]

Hey - suggestion: don't count your macronutrients so obsessively. That is going to hinder your recovery efforts!
Relax a bit. You're not fat by ANY stretch. I understand you wanna lose fat/inches, so do I. But live your life, enjoy it and break free from the ED mentality, that should be your NUMBER ONE priority right now. If you stress less, you'll be less likely to binge/beat yourself up. I had popcorn and key lime pie yesterday. I know I probably am not losing weight. But that's OK, I just move on now and set my priorities straight and I don't go run it off at the gym either!! Good luckkk

[g3tL@uren]

Hey - suggestion: don't count your macronutrients so obsessively. That is going to hinder your recovery efforts!
Relax a bit. You're not fat by ANY stretch. I understand you wanna lose fat/inches, so do I. But live your life, enjoy it and break free from the ED mentality, that should be your NUMBER ONE priority right now. If you stress less, you'll be less likely to binge/beat yourself up. I had popcorn and key lime pie yesterday. I know I probably am not losing weight. But that's OK, I just move on now and set my priorities straight and I don't go run it off at the gym either!! Good luckkk

I'm only counting right now to get an idea of how much i've been eating since i have gained so much fat on my body recently, quite unattractive.. I don't plan on keeping it up and i'm making sure i don't get obsessive! It's just a temporary thing haha. Thanks for the concern though

[tanyayogi]

I'm only counting right now to get an idea of how much i've been eating since i have gained so much fat on my body recently, quite unattractive.. I don't plan on keeping it up and i'm making sure i don't get obsessive! It's just a temporary thing haha. Thanks for the concern though

OK good, I did the same and that worked for me

[MalPaz]

by making so many rules/guidelines and expectancies here your setting yourself up for binging, 'disobeying' and unable to follow through with your goals.

all your goals are mental goals, problem one
there shouldnt be any food that is today, everyother day, once a week etc...again set up for a restrictive mentality

my advice, is to simply see primal for what it is. there is food and there is stuff that aint food, and never will be. dont put ANY FOOD OFF LIMITS. what i mean, mac nuts will exist everyday, as a possible food. you cant change this. mac nuts are food and they are available every single day. so, you CAN have them every single day. instead of figuring out what you cant have or need to restrict allow yourself to accept primal food and the possibility that every primal food will be available to you everyday. when it is never off limits, it loses its appeal and you lose your mental attachment to it.

its a hard 'idea' to grasp and take hold of but once you do you start to slowly come around to the notion that food is just food. it will always be there and mentally placing rules upon yourself(which is all a mental game) will not assist you in meeting your goals. leveling out your mindset toward food will allow you to achieve your goals

[g3tL@uren]

by making so many rules/guidelines and expectancies here your setting yourself up for binging, 'disobeying' and unable to follow through with your goals.

all your goals are mental goals, problem one
there shouldnt be any food that is today, everyother day, once a week etc...again set up for a restrictive mentality

my advice, is to simply see primal for what it is. there is food and there is stuff that aint food, and never will be. dont put ANY FOOD OFF LIMITS. what i mean, mac nuts will exist everyday, as a possible food. you cant change this. mac nuts are food and they are available every single day. so, you CAN have them every single day. instead of figuring out what you cant have or need to restrict allow yourself to accept primal food and the possibility that every primal food will be available to you everyday. when it is never off limits, it loses its appeal and you lose your mental attachment to it.

its a hard 'idea' to grasp and take hold of but once you do you start to slowly come around to the notion that food is just food. it will always be there and mentally placing rules upon yourself(which is all a mental game) will not assist you in meeting your goals. leveling out your mindset toward food will allow you to achieve your goals

I see what your saying, but i feel that this works better for me - not restricting anything and i've steadily gained over the past MONTH. i tried giving it time to 'level out' but all i can see is more fat on my body and i feel like its necessary to put 'rules' on myself, at least until i'm semi-happy with my body.