Nice to meet you too Jennachica!
Hello MDA Community!
This is one part confessional other part action plan. Living in a world where Primal eating is regarded as unconvential and the status-quo involves gradual weight-gain and socializing over alcohol and pizza is considered the 'norm', I've had my fair share of ups and downs this past year.
A little about me, I'm a 29 year old investment banker living in Toronto, ON. Female, 5'6", currently 142lbs. I have always been active, having been an internationally ranked equestrian as a junior, then a marathon runner (oh the starchy carb days), and an injury introduced me to bodybuilding and the world of competitive Fitness Modeling. Not to toot my own horn (too much), but I was darn good at it. Not only did the years of dieting for equestrian competitions and the cardio from running make the severe calorie restrictions and overtraining an ease for me, but the absolute highlight came when I won a World Championship for Fitness Models this past November. I THOUGHT I was on top of the world, but oh God was I wrong......
My relationship with food for my entire life has been one of deprivation followed by periods of severe binging, always with sugar (cookies, cakes, and bars of any format are the downfall). I am now at a point in my life where I cannot even be in the same room as anything with sugar, its depressing and has literally ruined my life.
Following winning the world champs, I almost immediately began a routine of severe binging and purging. By severe I mean that at some points it was so bad I couldn't leave my house for days because my throat glands were so swollen I looked like I had TWO double chins.....But the worst part (and I'm sure that many will agree with me) is the guilt, embarrassment and absolute self-hatred that ensues with a post-binge. Not only did I stop going to the gym (which has always been my safe-haven and place of power), but I locked myself in my house for days to avoid being seen. Friends have stopped calling (I've been too embarrassed to reach out to them for help), and the cycle does not seem to be stopping.
Last month, I had to take 3 days off of work after a three-day binge spree. As I lay on the floor of my bathroom, I finally decided TODAY is the last day of that life. My weight had ballooned up to 150lbs (having been 122 in November). I had been tampering in Primal/Paleo eating since December, never lasting more than 4-5 days before falling again to the sugar demons. Mind you, my work place of boredom, being in a career I do NOT enjoy, and the CONSTANT donuts, homemade cookies and large food courts did not help the matter. But even after just those 4-5 days I felt AMAZING, on-top-of-the-world amazing.
So finally I went to my doctor. She barely even recognized me, took my off work immediately, and set me up with a ED specialist. I also immediately ordered the Primal Blueprint. I firmly believe that these measures will change my life.
I am now DEDICATED completely to the Primal lifestyle. No more being ruled by sugar, no more cardio until my legs can't move anymmore, no more calorie restrictions, no more judging my body by some effed-up 'ideal' that involves starvation and constant exhaustion.
I've been Primal for almost a month, have lost (roughly) 8 lbs (probably would have been more if I haven't sugar-slipped 3 times..sigh...but an improvement!). But the biggest change has been my energy and outlook on life. My battle is not unique, but with the help of this community, my doctors, and my sheer willpower to survive, I WILL prevail!
TODAY is for me. I am going to make the committment to better my life, stop being so hard on myself, get out and play, and commit to the Primal lifestyle and become the strong, beautiful Primal woman that I am intended to be!
Hello Primal World, my name is Jennachica, nice to meet you!
Nice to meet you too Jennachica!
Welcome Jennachica. Wow, what you've been through. You can do it this time, I know. Come here regularly for support.
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Wow you must have an incredible amount of dedication when you set your mind to something! I hope your relationship with food will improve with primal eating
I wish you the best of luck, you can do it!
This is my first post and I have the issues with sugar also. I am new and have been off sugar 5 days.
Oh how you resonate with me! Just take it a day at a time, learn to trust the process. As someone that was ridiculously addicted to sugar what I found to really help was to do a complete clean sweep of your house and dispose of anything that is considered "contraband" At this point if you fall victim to the woes of sugar it holds you accountable because then you actually have to go to the store and buy it!
I've also found that limiting my fruit consumption really helps too, I've also found that if my body is craving fruit it is actually craving fat.
Stick with it lady, you can do it!
The meal replacement the is sold here is Primal Fuel and it has Sudralose in it. Is this sugar? I bought some and it is very expensive and I hate to throw it away.