My husband drove to Delaware early this morning to go say goodbye to his Aunt. He made sure that I was ok with this before he left. I am ok with it, but scared and lonely too. With my throat so sore and halfway closed up, I feel panicky. Anything that inhibits my breathing freaks me out. The good news is that there seems to be some improvement in the swelling even from this morning.
In truth, this whole situation has upset me. If I didn't have my husband yesterday, I never would have gotten to the Dr. and gotten the care I needed. It is so scary how our bodies can betray us. I feel weak and helpless at the moment and I hate it.
This is why it is essential that I not eat sugar or wheat today. Eating junk would just add to the crazy feelings. I did have a few bad things yesterday in addition to the ice cream. This morning my inner voice was demanding more junk, but I resisted.
Maybe tomorrow I can accomplish a few things around the house. My boys have been great, taking care of their brother, cleaning and washing dishes.