I don't think you should ever apologize for any content of a vent in your journal. If you need to get it out this is your space to vent it, crude or otherwise. No apologies necessary. Ever. Feeling a thing and working it out by talking through it on these 'pages' is not the same as doing... so no shame or guilt should be applicable.
As far as diet and weight loss... I know I've said this in other places before, but I think more women should consider slow loss a success.
And sometimes even consider a plateau or stall a success, particularly if it occurs in a time of stress. Because the scale isn't going UP, and you are setting a precedent with yourself and your body that you CAN maintain weight loss. An important lesson in itself IMO.
I know we would all like to wake up in two or three months and look like bikini models or at our HSIS(?) weight... but seriously, we didn't get to where we are in a short period of time. The reality is that we spent years of our lives getting here... and it is going to take some extra time to undo what we have done. Extra time to deal with the emotional aspects. Extra time to allow skin to regain elasticity. Extra time for our bodies to stop rebelling against us, because at a biological level once fat is stored it likes to STAY stored. It's a process that takes time.
There is a part of me that feels like many of the women that I see in many threads almost set themselves up for disappointment(and my heart goes out to them). Because I see them time after time being disappointed by "only" losing say 4 lbs in a month or some such, and that just isn't enough(remember 1-2lbs a week is considered healthy weight loss, more is not). Well. It's 4 lbs less! Relax. Stop chasing and worrying... it's less. And those pound will add up. They don't have to all add up at once. Especially if you know you are trying to deal with an emotional eating disorder on top of regular weight loss...
Slow is good.