I have my old journals from middle school, high school, and early college. I generally only wrote in them after high school when the gonig got tough and I needed an outlet, before I found healthy ways to release before my breaking point. I've read through some of the old journals. I still can't read some of my darker entries without a trigger event, especially the ones around my almost suicide attempt. I see patterns, there and here. Those are usually the kick in the ass I need to get going on fixing something else.