I have maybe 10 old handwritten journals, spanning anywhere around 15 years of my life so far. I read through a short one, once, and it was full of very depressing material. I was not in the right mindset to read it. I've read back through some old online journals (not here) from 9-10 years ago and felt enlightened for having read them. I'm not sure about any of the others. I think I'd like to see "where I came from", in terms of the way my depression progressed, but I'm also afraid of some of the more painful moments I might read about.