This afternoon after all the crazy "get the house ready for the girlfriend stuff" I sat on my front porch and read MDA while the kids watched scary movies. The sun was shining on my shoulders, lovely Jazz was playing in the background, and my husband was barbequeing in the yard. A fabulous Saturday.
longing2bfit Thank You very much. I hope I make some kind of difference in the MDA world.
Weigh in Report:
I stopped weighing daily 3 weeks ago. Now I wish I hadn't. By all the signs my body was giving me, I had lost weight. I was expecting to see 215 or less on the scale. My ankles and wrists feel and look thin, even my right leg looks almost normal. My wedding ring has been spinning and my face is so thin people are commenting on my weight loss again.
Wt. today: 225.8 I gained 2.5 lbs over the 3 weeks and am up a full 15 lbs up from my lowest Primal weight 6 months ago. Today is my 2 yr gym anniversary. My net loss in the last year is 5 lbs. I am also up 1-3 inches all over my body and I noticed last week that my pants are too tight. BF% is up too, so it is not muscle.
Why the gain?. 1) I binged an average of 2x a week for several hours. 2) I went back to iodine therapy which can cause temporary water gain while the body detoxes. 3) We had sausage for dinner last night :P
Good news! 1) The iodine therapy is working wonders. I am energetic, sleeping better, and my circulation is improving, which means less inflammation. I am not giving that up. 2) I learned a lot about the scale and how weighing daily affects my feelings and dieting behavior. I can now "hear" the ridiculous things that my mind is saying. 3) Keeping my carbs between 75-100 has "cured" my issues from back in February and I feel stronger. My gym workouts are getting more intense again.
Danger, Danger, Will Robinson! The first thought that entered my mind after "WTF?" was. "Might as well binge." I keenly felt the unfairness of it all in that moment. As I was getting my coffee, I was eyeing the pie and cookies we had on hand for the GF visit yesterday. I resisted that first intense desire. Today I am going to work all the facets of the 5 Whys? anti binge plan. If I survive binge free, then maybe I am really onto something.
I have yet to decide how often I will weigh from now on. I need to discuss this with my SPEED girls.
I would like to recommend this man to anyone who does not yet know him. His story begins here on MDA last July.
When Eating Healthy is Making You Fat! | Mark's Daily Apple
He has a blog and has just posted this:
5 books that will change your destiny | Being Primal
Dean's take on things is whole life change, not just the Paleo diet. He has culled fabulous information on life change form many places, but He has some great ideas of his own as well. His first book has just been published. I am anxiously awaiting my copy.
Really, if you are stuck in a rut, check Dean out.
I'm intrigued by the contradictions in your weigh in report.
You say all the indications were that you were losing weight, but can immediately list three things that caused your weight gain. Would daily weighing have stopped any of them?
Your weight and inches are up, yet everything is looking and feeling thinner- to you and others.
You learned how you react to daily weighing (or not), yet you wished you hadn't done it.
We humans sure are crazy critters.
I'll be very interested to hear what you decide about weighing- and how you decide it. Your piece from Dean Dwyer on the 5 whys was very useful and thought provoking.
Good job on not responding to the number with a binge.
My mind is still in a whirl over this whole thing. The wishing I hadn't waited so long to weigh was a gut reaction. The rest of the post was me trying to get some meaning out of a negative event and trying to avoid a binge.
I don't think weighing more would have changed anything. I am doing the iodine therapy to avoid cancer and the binge thing is a long term problem. After I tasted the sausage, I put one back and ate extra chicken, but I doubt that had much to do with the gain. If I had weighed more often, I might have been able to tweak some things or binge less. Who knows?
I certainly learned a lot from the not weighing, but I am pretty sure I will go back to 1x/week or 2x/month. It will be tough not to weigh tomorrow and the next day, and the next...
That's one of the best things about journaling: figure what the heck we are feeling and thinking by writing it down. I know I have had a couple of insights I am sure I wouldn't have had otherwise.
Right now I am weighing twice a month because I don't have a scale at home. I find being lazy(getting to the store in the morning before I have drunk a bunch of water and eaten breakfast) and cheap (25 cents a weigh!) has been a big help. If the scale was right there in the bathroom, it would be much harder. Oh, the sweet sirens' song. But when I do get a scale again, I'm going to do the daily weighing with a moving weekly average. Waiting a week or more, and having it be 'bad' is too disheartening. Even when I know why. That's a big downside of less frequent weighing for me. And, I guess, you, too.
I actually like the idea of doing a weekly average. When I weigh weekly/bi-weekly/monthly I always wonder if I lost that low point on the graph. It sort of drives me crazy. I don't think weighing daily would have changed my behaviors this time since I was on vaca and away most of the time, but now that I am on a regular schedule again it feels like if I wait too long I could have a run away and not know it until it is massive. This is definitely going to require some thought.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. It is about learning to dance in the rain."
My journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread36279.html
My "Program": doing my version of a 4:3 - 3 day fast diet with real food every day, with a little twist of anti-inflammatory mixed in.
You know I've struggled with this issue myself this week. Here's some thoughts I'm having (hope it's okay to post these in your journal since we're "discussing" the issue):
* Daily weighing makes me crazy. If it's a "good" number, it's a "good" day. If it's a "bad" number, it's a "bad" day. How seriously crazy is that?
* If it's a "bad" number, I get this mentality "might as well eat XYZ anyway, since the scale doesn't move in the right direction when I eat well anyway". This is not good.
* I do not want to weigh in daily for the rest of my life. Yes, I want to lose weight. Yes, I want it now. But, I want everything I do now to enable success - permanent weight loss. If I can't do it now without daily weigh-ins, how will I do then?
* I was much happier when I didn't weigh-in daily (see all the reasons above).
* Would daily weighing have changed the weight gain? I don't think so. I have other issues I'm currently working through (and, until I get those nailed down, I'm not likely to stop bouncing my weight around). And maybe that's the key for me...at least right now.
On the other hand...
* Not weighing daily...I was worried every day about how I was doing. It was almost as bad knowing the number...
* When I would eat in a sub-optimal fashion, I would tell myself it was okay, I still had plenty of time before I weighed again. To certain extent, this is true. But, it turned into the way I was eating everyday. Not so good.
* The tape measure moves slowly. I totally think it's the best signal of how I'm doing, but I'm a goal-oriented person. I need feedback. And sometimes the tape measure isn't moving fast enough for me to see it. It's somewhat the same with health. I need signals that I'm moving along the right track. [The solution to this might be having 3 goals I'm aiming for everyday and seeing if I can cross each 3 off each day...or something like that so that I can visually see progress toward goals. I don't know.]
* The scale has become a crutch, but I don't have to change every single habit in one fell swoop. I'm not sure it's so bad to use it now and then, when I get some other good habits ingrained, work on the scale habit.
Anyway, you know we'll support your decision no matter which way you decide to go. It had to be a rough morning. Hang in there. As I keep saying: We. Will. Get. There. Might not be fast or easy, but you will get to where you want to be.