Well, today I discovered something about myself and I'm not quite sure how to handle this new knowledge. At the end of today's conference one of my co team members complimented? me to a person from another team. She said "She was great, She kept us on task and moving" then she mimed cracking a whip. lol
I have always thought of myself as a shy,quiet person, but more and more I have been taking charge of situations. Today and tomorrow we are supposed to make 2 versions of a language test. When we were given our assignment a plan popped into my head which I suggested to my team and we followed it. My team finished most of our work today. I did keep us on task...but in a nice way.
So how do I reconcile my old vision of myself with this new me? I have to be careful that I balance my authoritativeness so that I am not seen as obnoxious. When I told my husband, he said that I have always been an excellent planner, but now I have the courage to stand up tell others.
I imagine some of this change occurred due to my near death experience. I don't like to waste time and I don't like B.S. The rest of it is just self confidence gained from feeling healthy and strong. It's all good I guess. I hope those people at the conference don't think I'm a b!$(#.