so, whole9 today, starting over, day 1.
eggs, bacon, broccoli; apple, orange; dinner? i'm not sure. i have this kale-like vegetable -- cavolo nero -- which is apparently very nutritious, which I will make into a warm salad with garlic, onion, mustard, and I think also some orange and nuts. I'm not sure which nuts -- walnuts, almonds, macadamias, and brazil are available. I'm not sure what meat we will have -- we have some steak and some chicken, i think.
i've been watching this show 'extreme makeover: weight loss edition" with chris powell. i really like the guy. this last one the man had severe food addiction, and is getting help. so it's a half-way ending. not happy, not tragedy thank goodness. the man admitted to being suicidal, and i was just heartbroken for him.
you know, it's a funny thing. there are people who consider me to be a "fat hater" because i advocate for health, and in that, there is often weightloss. within this, of course, i recognize that people will be different weights, and that our bodies are different, and sometimes, there are underlying reasons why people are holding onto their weight -- even though they are getting healthier overall.
i've had clients who have lost a small amount of weight, or no weight, but gotten much healthier in overall changing diet and movement. They hold onto the weight for different reasons -- largely emotional ones -- and I have to put out that I think that is ok. I really do.
This doesn't mean that I don't want these people to be emotionally healthy either, or that anyone who maintains the weight that they are maintaining are doing so because they have an emotional issue. I truly do not know every single underlying cause of obesity.
I know that food addiction is *real* and that it's hard to overcome. I have two friends who are food addicts -- in recovery -- and their paths to the process are very different. One is a compulsive eater, and she says that eating is like having to go up and tickle a dragon several times a day. It's not like you can abandon food. And she's careful, she doesn't eat any form of sugar, and possibly several other things too. My other friend realized that she "behaves like a crazy drunk" when she has any form of wheat, flour, or sugar in any form (including honey). She has never been overweight, and so you wouldn't consider her an addict per se. She also suspects that people with eating disorders like anorexia and bulemia are also forms of food addiction, and that if they were to "eat clean" (as opposed to the rehab that has them eat brownies and what not), their process would be much easier mentally as well as physically. She thinks that the chemicals in foods can really muck with the brain.
so, anyway, this recent one was about a food addict, and the poor man just broke my heart. i cannot imagine feeling as worthless as he felt, suicidal even, over food addiction. I can't imagine, either, the pain that brought him to that place, and the things that he struggles to not-feel by eating, and how it all compounds.
my heart really breaks because so often, people see people who are overweight just as this young man described himself -- pathetic, disgusting, worthless, deserving of ridicule. yes, even people here on the forum.
what i -- and i think many others -- forget is that it compounds the pain. that without total acceptance of the person, and a willingness to be open to whatever the situation may be, and whatever needs to be accepted. . . without allowing the person to live shamelessly. . . we really are only perpetuating the problem.
it's not about the governments policy regarding food supply. and, to an extent, it's not about food availablility -- those are real issues. but i think one of the greater issues is just how up-hill this climb is and feels.
largely because of the mountain of shame, which only increases when we all shame people over their weight.
anyway, i hope that when people are in my classes, they know that I do accept them as they are, that we will modify based on their needs, and that their success is measured by them -- not by me, and not by dress sizes.