Sarah, my one piece of advice to you, as a fellow Aspergian, is this: you must stop caring so much about what everyone else thinks of you. They aren't going to be kind. They just aren't. The way you and I tend to come across on forums is like we're hysterical, babyish, emotional maniacs if we don't exercise control. I do; you don't. You need to learn to control when and how you post, and if someone says something shitty to you, IGNORE IT. Their opinion vs. your self-control - which is more important to you?