Primal Journal for Michelle (username ruby) page 17

[ruby]

Back in the old days, a pound of fudge or a birthday cake was my drug of choice, after a large Papa Gino's pizza that is I don't miss those days! Leptin resistance is basically hell on earth. The hiding and throwing out evidence of a food is a big tip off too!

[Ayla2010]

Oh yes hiding the evidence, I was big on that.
Then I started going for a drive, so my children would sleep, and I could go through a drive through and binge while they were sleeping, then id get rid of the evidence before they woke up.
Crazy shit alright.

[MamaGrok]

No kidding, I used to long to eat in ssecret so I could just throw it down and no one would know. Hiding wrappers, eating in bathrooms, ridiculous.

I wonder what percentage of people have this binge eating behavior? I think it's more common than anyone realizes, and is so hidden b/c people think it's a character problem instead of the nutrition/medical problem that it really is.

I just watched a video about a girl who conquered her binge eaeting. She talks about buying tons of food at the store and eating it all inthe car in a place in the parking lot where no one could see her. Yep, BTDT. (Unfortunately, her solution is to "love yourself". Whatever. I always loved myself! I needed protein & fat!)

[ruby]

I think Leptin problems are widespread, epidemic! The hiding away to eat for me not only meant that no one would know I was eating (because I knew I shouldn't, but Leptin resistance was in control) but it was also because of a paranoia of having to share any - also Leptin gone wrong. Skipping breakfast, low fat, high grain is the cause of so much suffering. I was a slave to the local candy store. I used to send my husband out at 2am for Doritos etc, telling him bring back the snacks or don't come back lol!

The first thing I noticed when I went paleo 5/16/2010 was that in just 48 hours I didn't need much "willpower" - I was freed from cravings very quickly. I didn't know about the Leptin reset or even about Leptin until a year ago, but I coincidentally started paleo back then as basically one long, successful leptin reset. I think that's why it worked so fast and why I lost so quickly.

[MamaGrok]

So true. Every word.

[Ayla2010]

Def fat helps. I know I went overboard in the beginning of primal with it as I had tried to be low fat for so long (except when bingeing on crappy fats and sugars of course).

[Ayla2010]

I can almost cry when I realise I don't need to binge any more.

[ruby]

I know! It is so easy to take for granted sometimes. I got used to being normal within the first month of going primal and now I'm sensitive to even the slightest change; like a night with too little sleep and I start to feel like I have the munchies the following evening, I get right back on top of it.

[Ayla2010]

You are on fire Michelle! I am taking notes