From: The Bedrock Journal - ( Pebbles67) 2011
Happy New Year!
I have been thinking of starting this journal since I first started primal eating in September. Now you know that I am a terrible procrastinator. I don't think that bodes well for the success of this journal, but here I am anyway. My goal here is to have a place to put down my thoughts about the primal life as opposed to the insanity of life on the SAD. I hope that posting here will help keep me honest and help me analyze some of the things that cause me to go back to eating badly even though I know that I am killing myself. I intend to post at least once a week.
A little about me - I am a 43 year old wife and mother of three sons ages 6,12, and 15. I am also a high school Spanish teacher. I hope that didn't bring up bad memories for anyone. I know language teachers are sometimes the most hated. We have special ways of torturing students like conjugating verbs. You may want to check out Adam Sandler's "Beating of a high school Spanish teacher" just for a laugh.
I have been fat since age 8. I had been fed a high carbohydrate diet from the start, but that was the point that pictures show that my body could no longer fight the carb overload. Both of my parents were obese. My father was probably 450lbs when he passed away two years ago. My Mom has weighed over 300, but now she is eating primally and doing well. Let me be clear, I do not blame my parents for my food issues. I just wanted to set the background so that the reader will understand that I have a looooooong relationship with food. My parents had many hard things happen to them in their lives. They became used to coping with emotions, stress etc. by smothering bad feelings with food. Food was their and my drug of choice. I find myself incredibly grateful that they were not alchoholics or drug addicts, but the underlying behaviors are the same. It just takes longer to die. Food addiction is easier to hide and more acceptable in society.
I know that the primal way of life is the answer to all of the above. I have played around with every diet with some success, but never any permanence. This way of life fights the addiction to carbs, stabilizes my emotions and build my confidence with exercise. That said, I wish that I could honestly write that I have been faithful to primal since I started in late September, but I lost it in early November and just cleaned up my act three days ago. More on that another day.
As of Dec 29th I am Grain, Sugar and Dairy free again. I even had a primal NYE feast last night. I lift heavy things 2x a week at the gym and belly dance 1x a week for play. I am not sprinting yet.
I have lost 17 pounds, even with all the messing around. I am 5'10" inches tall and hope to lose 100 pounds total, while building muscle of course.
Friends, feel free to comment on anything that you wish. Your thoughts will help me in my journey, knowing that I am not alone in this fight. I will strive to be thick skinned and take criticism where its given, knowing full well that we are all here to help each other.
Note: I am now 48. My boys are 11, 18 and 20. My Mom Died of Ovarian cancer in Oct. 2011.