Stress is one of my biggest triggers for slipping off the primal wagon and subsequently binging or skipping workouts. One of my biggest stressors is being rushed. I feel rushed when my partner is trying to get me out the door when I feel like I've got a million tasks to do before I can leave, and also because my business means I have to get stuff done to a daily schedule. I have 3 theories as to why this produces a stressed mentality.
1) Rushing produces anxiety that I will forget something. If I'm in a hurry, I'm more likely to forget stuff or not get tasks done properly. I've always subconsciously set myself high standards and I worry that not getting stuff done at my own pace will compromise those standards
2) If I'm rushing about, my heart rate is raised naturally by an increase in activity. It's no secret that the mind can produce thoughts based on physiological feedback of the body...so when my body is in a stress-like state, my mind automatically wants to get on this train and makes me aware that there is something stressing me.
3) I have recently acknowledged that being rushed stresses me (possibly by one or both of the above mechanisms). This awareness is now manifesting in an anticipatory fear of being rushed which amplifies the whole cycle. Great.
Mmmm....that was pretty satisfying to write down. Hopefully starting to break this down will help me rationalise and tolerate these situations better. I can't necessarily avoid stressors, but I can do my best to stop it from getting to me so badly. For example, this morning I took 10 minutes after my lifting session to meditate in the sauna. i'm new to meditation but I find just trying to meditate helpful.
Can you tell I'm a Psychology graduate?!
Anyway, in other news this week, I am pleased to say that I have done a solid job of staying primal with my eating this week, with the exception of a few beans and peas. They aren't a staple in my diet but when I have them I always feel just fine so I will never be super strict with those. With the exception of soya - my mum had oestrogen receptive breast cancer 2 years ago I am cautious of the high levels of phytoestrogen in soya. I have even cut out my daily dark chocolate habit because it contains soya...it contained sugar too but it's been the soya that's made me get over it! I now get a chocolate fix by adding ground cacao to nut milk or my 'sweet and fat egg scramble' (I will log what that is in a future post!!!!).
Another thing I'm not as strict with is the quality/grass-fedness of my meat. I don't have meat everyday but when I do I have to make to with whatever we can afford. I have read somewhere that a lot of british farmers still follows a traditional protocol of letting animals graze and have a bit of free-range life, but I'm not sure how true that is. When I have the budget I will invest in more local produce for sure.
I have had 2 workouts which haven't been particularly strong (for me) but I did my best and that's what should count and I accept that. Definitely better than either a) pushing too far and injuring myself and b) beating myself up mentally for not doing 'better'.
A goal for the rest of the week - must try and get some outside time in later this week, even though it's starting to get a lot colder, and darker in the early evening!