Go to your local Farmer's Market and they can typical make it there on the spot. Completely worth it and the cost is minimal. Being able to watch first hand for some reaosn always makes me feel better.
Today is a new day. You will get out of it just what you put into it. If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. And supposing you have tried and failed again and again, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'Failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.