People believe that having a beautiful body will make you see a beautiful person in the mirror. They also think it will fix a lot of the problems in your life, make you feel comfortable in a bikini, make you feel carefree and happy, allow you to finally do the X you didn't feel comfortable doing or weren't capable of doing. They believe it's a beginning to a whole new life.
Nothing could be further from the truth. You are still you, you still see yourself in the mirror, your problems are the same, you still feel uncomfortable in a bikini, you don't feel carefree and happy, you're not as comfortable doing X as you expected and it's not really a whole new beginning and a whole new life. You may have a moment of triumph, but then you wake up the next morning and it's your same life. Plus it's really hard to hold onto the skinny. So you either blame it all on not skinny enough or can't hold on to the skinny or else you come to realize that the problems you had are all mostly psychological.
Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Highest squat: 167.5 x 2. Current Deadlift: 195 x 3