Whether or not your body is beautiful, having to live with ugly thoughts can kill you. It sounds like you are coming at this from an unhealthy angle. Got to apply the serenity crap to this, really, to everything. You do what you can do, and honestly DO it long enough to adapt and make new habits, and let the rest go to the wind. There's a difference between evaluating your physiology for health and functionality with a nod to aesthetics - and beating yourself up because you don't look like a 13-year old magazine model anymore. Until you control the thoughts that YOU are thinking, you will suffer their consequences. People's compliments and criticisms alike should mean ZILCH, nada, nothing, should elicit NO emotion or thoughts whatsoever. People are chaff, fodder, and crap lined up like so many rotting trees. They will all fade away, their words should never be given the power to make your life or thoughts a bad place to live. Only YOU should tell YOU how to feel.
Steak, eggs, potatoes - fruits, nuts, berries and forage. Coconut milk and potent herbs and spices. Tea instead of coffee now and teeny amounts of kelp daily. Let's see how this does! Not really had dairy much, and gut seems better for it.