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    A new dawn, a new day, a new life for me.

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    It feels good to be getting this journal started. It is for me - I know it will be really beneficial to get my feelings "on paper" as this journey progresses. It will also be amazing to look back on in the coming weeks. But maybe my story as it unfolds will resonate with others, so anyone is welcome to comment at any time! I just hope using metric measurements and NZ jargon won't confuse people too much!

    Age 35
    Height 168cm
    Starting weight 103.4kg 10/3/14.
    Start date started Primal eating 16/3/14 weighing 102.3kg
    Married with 2 daughters - 6 and 3.

    I started the primal journey on Sunday - today is day 3!! I am feeling good and I have not been suffering too much from the lack of grains. I think because I had already stopped eating bread a few months ago (yeast intolerance - self diagnosed ) it hasn't been too hard a transition. My usual breakfast of porridge has been replaced with eggs/bacon/salmon/hollandaise - geeez such a hardship!!

    My yo-yoing since high school is described below:

    Birth to 1994 average size
    1994 Age 16. Met boy
    1994-1999 fat
    July 1999 broke up
    July 1999-April 2000 single and average size. Down to 70kg.
    April 2000 Age 21. Met future husband
    April 2000-January 2004 fat
    2004 Wedding Year!! Followed WW points to get to average size. Down to 73 kg on wedding day 11/12/04.
    2005-2006 fat
    Early 2007 Hit 104kg. Wanted to have baby so joined Sureslim.
    May 2007 Down to 90kg - got pregnant with DD1.
    Feb 2008 Full term 108kg.
    2008-August 2010 fat. Up to 114kg when discovered I was pregnant with DD2
    April 2011 Full term 108kg ( must be my "fully pregnant" weight)
    Sept 2011 Started new "lifestyle change". Followed CW.

    April 2012 I was size NZ12-13, 80kg, and the fittest and slimmest I had ever been as an adult. My wedding dress was too big (even though I was heavier than on my wedding day), I was wearing size 13 jeans with no muffin top, I could run 8km at a time, I completed a sprint triathlon.......I was fabulous!!!

    Then my husband got sick, I got flattened by depression/anxiety, I stopped running, I stopped eating "well", I dropped out of my graduate diploma course, and here I am in March 2014 at over 100kg again.

    Sigh!

    Apart from being fat, I also have IBS type symptoms, PCOS symptoms (neither diagnosed), high cholesterol and am on anti-depressants. Really, my body is in a big friggin' mess.

    So here I am.

    2. Motivation (2).jpg Me on honeymoon. Dec 2002. Approx 73kg.

    237.jpg Me at my biggest. Dec 2008. Approx 114kg.

    IMG_7705.jpg Me at my fittest. May 2012. Approx 80kg.

    IMG_1671.JPG Me today. Blah! 101.6kg.

    I need this to be the tool for me to get back to health. I will put everything in to it, like I usually do on "health kicks" but this time I want to stay slim forever.

    This forum and journal will be my way of keeping accountable. I need to be honest about how I am doing, how this lifestyle is making me feel, and my health.

    I am meeting with my GP on Friday. We will go over my latest cholesterol tests and I am praying she will not insist I go on medication. Fingers crossed!!!
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    Good for you. Im looking forward to being on your journey with you and sharing in your sucesses along the way. I dont have to wish you luck as i lnew you can do this. We all can together.

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    I think a lot of people can stick with this because of the health reasons, more so than just losing weight. The weight thing is a benefit of course, but the main goal to convince yourself is the health aspect. For some reason it helps people understand it better or something.
    I found it due to a gluten allergy/intolerance thing. It has helped me immensely and it will help you too.
    I will follow along as I can.
    People too weak to follow their own dreams will always try to discourage others.

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    Wow, so lovely to get responses! Thanks so much. It means the world to me to have people in my corner x.

    Hearing other people's successes, especially improved health, is hugely motivating. This forum is AMAZING!! I think I am going to get very addicted to reading post and journals!!

    This afternoon Miss 3 and I walked the 400m to school to pick up Miss 6. A couple of awesome things happened...

    1) I saw a lady I hadn't seen for 2 years. The last time I saw her I had let her down (in my opinion).

    I was a student teacher and she was my associate and due to my husbands bad health and my poor mental health, I quit my teaching course, meaning all her hard work with me had been "a waste of time". I have spent many a night fretting and regretting how things ended - good old anxiety!

    Normally in this situation, I would totally avoid all eye contact and pretend I wasn't there. I even had a hat and sunglasses on so I could totally have gotten away with it! But today I took my sunglasses off and greeted her by name and we chatted for about 5 minutes. This seems like a small thing, but believe me...this is MAJOR to me! I even managed to reference our past relationship and she reassured me I did the right thing.

    Day 3 on the Primal lifestyle and I am pulling confidence out from goodness knows where!!! Crazy! One less thing from my past for me to (literally) lose sleep over.

    2) the other awesome, smile inducing thing was on the way home across the field Miss 6 started running ahead. And guess what.....? I RAN after her. Sprint style. Well, my sprint style anyway. The sound of Miss 3 giggling in the pushchair was all the encouragement I needed so I ran and stopped and ran and laughed and trotted and ran all the way home!

    How fabulous to be following a way of life that encourages play as exercise!!!

    My idea of exercise previously was to get fully decked out in sports bra, sneakers, HRM and struggle to run for a minimum of 5 kms. The fact that I can't do that anymore had been a huge trigger for depressive thoughts of late. When I thought about starting "from scratch" with running and building up my fitness again it seemed insurmountable - that coupled with the thought of losing weight again made me seriously think that dying was an easier option...

    Today in a 5 minute jaunt home with my delightful girls I came to the realisation that this new way of life doesn't mean any of that. I can have fun while exercise!!! I can include my family and laugh with them.

    HALLE-blimmin'-LUJAH!!!
    "To keep the body in good health is a duty...otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear" - Buddha.

    103.4kg - SW 10 March 14
    102.3kg - Primal SW 14 March 14
    101.2kg - CW
    65kg - Goal Weight

    10 Year Wedding Anniversary 11 December 2014. Bring on the hot wife .

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    Day 4

    I felt a bit nauseous this morning so only managed to eat some of my breakfast. As much as I loved the look and smell of the bacon, hollandaise, eggs and spinach, the reality of actually eating that at 7.30am was a bit much to handle!

    I could definitely go longer before eating. The only trouble would be cooking a hot breakfast at work. But on the weekends I already tend to eat much later in the day so it would be a natural transition to do 8/16 IF. I will have to look out for some easy, Primal friendly breakfast that I can make and take to work to eat later.

    I had a bit of a mare today. I got taken to a vegan cafe for a mid morning work meeting. I was so overwhelmed by the drinks choices! So many of the juice concoctions had too many different fruits in them or something I don't like (ginger), so I ordered a 'Soy Berry Smoothie'. I just wasn't thinking - I saw "soy", thought "yay no dairy" and went for it. When it arrived I asked the guy what was in it and was very gutted when he replied "banana, ice, soy milk and BERRY SYRUP!" WTF!! Berry syrup??? The one thing that enticed me to order the "Berry Smoothie" was the BERRIES!!??!! I am much too much of a wuss to complain or make a fuss so I drank it. Bleh! It was so sweet and afterwards I had a headache.

    Lesson learnt I guess, but I felt pretty foolish.

    I had taken a chicken, vege salad to have for lunch but was too full so didn't have any. Ah well, tomorrow's lunch is sorted...

    I have not been keen to get in to any exercise yet. I just feel like my body is going through enough, coping with mega diet changes. I kind of feel like it will be good to keep working out "in the bag" so to speak. That way if my losing slows down I will have that to introduce.

    Naughty me cannot keep off the scales at the moment. I weigh myself every morning and every night. Ridiculous!! The scales do keep showing a loss and I think I am using it as a check that this lifestyle is the right path to be on. Normally I am a 'weigh once a week' kind of gal, but I am obsessed with checking that the scales are budging downward. Maybe after the first week is over I will get over this and be a bit more sensible!

    Looking forward to a dinner of steak, eggs and veges. Such a hardship!

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    Day 5.

    OMG steak and fried eggs is pretty much the best combination ever.

    That is all.
    "To keep the body in good health is a duty...otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear" - Buddha.

    103.4kg - SW 10 March 14
    102.3kg - Primal SW 14 March 14
    101.2kg - CW
    65kg - Goal Weight

    10 Year Wedding Anniversary 11 December 2014. Bring on the hot wife .

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    Day 6.

    I am feeling a bit rubbish today. Sore throat, very flat mood wise, motivation for anything (work, socialising etc) out the window. I haven't had much of an appetite so had a light breakfast at 10.30 of chopped up almonds, coconut and apple.

    Had my GP appointment today. Cholesterol is still high.

    Total Cholesterol 6.0 mmol/L
    HDL 1.48 mmol/L
    LDL 4.2 mmol/L
    Chol/HDL ratio 4.1
    Trigs 0.80 mmol/L

    Not ideal. Due to my age and perfect blood pressure Dr isn't pushing statins *yet*. But she has given me a harsh word about my lifestyle and suggested I take a close look at my diet. One step ahead of ya, Doc.

    I actually mentioned I was eating Primal-esque and she was pretty supportive but does want me to do it supervised so I will go and see a nutritionist that I have seen before. When I last saw the nutritionist she made recommendations in line with CW way ofeating and I did have successes. But since then I have put all the weight back on! Really my success then was down to running 5kms at least 3 times a week and eating at deficit. Once I stopped running and started eating "normally" it those rolls came back with a vengeance.

    My GP also revealed I have IBS. Finally! I have suspected that for years but hadn't had it confirmed. I need to do some research on how Primal fits in to that. I did a quick online search and one list of food to avoid said I shouldn't eat stuff that I actually want to eat more of - brocolli, cauli, cabbage etc. I don't feel these are my triggers for bloating and painful gas though. I have trouble with yeast and I think grains. Since going Primal on Sunday I have had one incident of IBS symptoms - much better than my old way of life!

    We also talked about my moods and she renewed my anti-depressant prescription. She also suggested Vit B6 and EPO supplements to help with mood as depressive thoughts are certainly more prevalent pre-menstrual.

    And then to top it all off, she sent me for more bloods to check I don't have Coeliacs. I/we don't think I do, but she just wanted to check. So all in all we covered a lot and I feel a bit more on track. I must admit, until I had talked with her I was scared Primal was going to make my health worse (I know , so silly!) but because she seemed to validate the Primal way of eating, I'm happier. Now to deal with the nutritionist !

    I will have another GP check up in 3 months and *fingers crossed* I will astound her with my progress .

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    Day 8.

    Wow the first week of Primal is done and dusted. Weight today is 101.2kg so 1.1kg down in 7 days. Woo hoo. I have lost 2.2kg since Monday 10th March.

    Had a great day yesterday - or so I thought. Breakfast was eggs, spinach and hollandaise. I was meant to have salmon too but the cafe girl misheard me and I couldn't be arsed paying more $ and waiting for the salmon. Breakfast satiated me until afternoon tea and I just nibbled on some cheese, apple and cured meats.

    We had an evening get together - pot luck - so I took a platter of cheeses, veges, meats, berries, grapes, dips and crackers. I was very restrained and felt quite chuffed with myself as I only ate fruit, cheese, meats, veges etc. I didn't have coverage on my phone so wasn't able to check on my calories/macros but thought I was doing pretty well. I didn't have any pudding (someone had made pumpkin pie and I have never tried it (not very common in New Zealand!) but I resisted ).

    I logged all my food when we got home and was looking forward to a coffee to wind down, but I had gone waaaay over my calories. GODAMMIT those grapes!! They are so high in sugar and carbs!!

    I had a great week keeping carbs at around 75g or less (some days were 35g) then yesterday carbs were 102g. Sweet, innocent looking grapes!! Another lesson learnt - stick to the berries and keep far, far away from the grapes

    So today on the scales (urrrrghhhhh!! Why can't I stop weighing everyday??!!) I had put on 300gms. Of course, this made me feel miserable and very flat. I need to stick to Monday weigh ins. I started Primal on a Sunday but I started my weightloss challenge at work on a Monday so I will try to stick with that.

    I still have a sore throat and feel pretty "floppy". Is this still carb flu?? I hope that is the explanation for it. DH is a bit worried at how low my mood has been but I am hopeful I will come out the other side soon. My mood wasn't helped by my mum cancelling a shopping date we were supposed to have today (mum has a habit of getting hopes up, then flattening them). I am telling myself to go for a big walk today so after I do some house cleaning and gardening I will do that. Blast the music and clear out some cobwebs. Raaaaarrrr!!!!!!

    If I don't find something else to procrastinate over, that is!

    I managed a 16 hour fast last night. I just don't feel hungry in the morning. Broke the fast with bacon, eggs, spinach (sauteed in butter and garlic - mmmmmm) and avocado. Had a coffee made only with cream and some coconut oil too. 3 weeks ago I was very crap at eating veges. But now I love them - I buy a bag of salad greens and finish them instead of having them go manky in the fridge. What a change!! Hopefully this is the start of a long road of looking after this body of mine.

    Right, cleaning time it is. Poo!

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    Hi, reserge! In your photos you appear much taller than 1.68 cm . I wish I had started primal when I was your age. I am 48 and have been primal for almost 2 years. I have lost about 40 pounds and solved many health problems. Don't feel bad about weighing yourself, I was doing a lot of that. It's natural to want to see results. Best of luck to you!
    As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again.

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    Thanks for stopping by Jennifla!

    I wish I was taller - that would help solve by BMI problem! Ha ha. It's funny, I got measured by a nurse once and was told I was 1.71cm. So that was what I told everyone I was, if asked. Then I got measured again (correctly) and lost 3cms. Gutted!!!!

    Glad I am not the only one who weighs frequently. I just not happy with how it affects my moods when I see an increase, so will try and break the habit.

    Great job on your loss and on improving your health! I love hearing all the success stories. Hurray for Primal!!!
    "To keep the body in good health is a duty...otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear" - Buddha.

    103.4kg - SW 10 March 14
    102.3kg - Primal SW 14 March 14
    101.2kg - CW
    65kg - Goal Weight

    10 Year Wedding Anniversary 11 December 2014. Bring on the hot wife .

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