Hello there, any potential readers! I'm Maggie, welcome to my primal journal. :)
I named my journal steakin care of business because I've come to love steak a lot, where as as a child I was totally not a fan and it represents a new focus on nourishment and vitality. Also, I read that line on pinterest somewhere, thought it was clever, and I have no shame taking it for my own.
I'm a long time lurker venturing out into the big world of forums (this is all so confusing!) for the first time. I've totally felt like a voyeur though, as I've been reading others journals and honestly, getting secretly really invested in their success. The semester ended recently and I think now, with a little more free time, I can start keeping a journal here and participate in the forum.
I'm 23, I'm at a normal weight for basically the first time in my life after spending most of my teen years obese with depression and binge eating disorder. Low carbing and then primal/paleo for about a year brought me here. I still have some body fat I'd like to get rid of...I'm 5'8 and at about 160 the last time I weighed, but I'm ready to eat at maintenance and just focus on exercise to change body composition. All in all though, I'm okay with how I look and I appreciate how far I've come. My goal now is to continue this lifestyle and be my best self.
Maintenance is turning out to be more of a challenge than I thought, since I only really know how to gain weight and lose weight. Knowing when to stop " lose weight mode" and just " be healthy" was something I never considered being necessary, but a few weeks ago I started feeling really odd: fatigued, unable to sleep, dizzy, having difficulty concentrating, weak and just not right. My aunts are doctors and got me taking a multi vitamin, a b complex, and vitamin d. Additionally, I started eating fruits again. I feel like a whole new person! I learned very low carb is not sustainable for me in the long run. I had to get over a lot of weird food guilt and learn to not fear bananas and fruit in general.
I've been keeping a food dairy for about a month, I'm finding it incredibly helpful in pinpointing the reason behind an off-day, where I just don't feel right. The biggest things I've learned I need to do, in order to prevent binges and spells of not eating enough/feeling weak are 1) eat enough!!! and 2) sleep enough!!! Sounds so simple, but sometimes I have trouble with both of them. That's what this journal is for!
Breakfast: 2 eggs scrambled in butter, 2 slices bacon, half a cup sauerkraut, half a cup cucumbers, 2 cherry tomatoes
Snack: 1 banana
Lunch-ish: half an orange bell pepper, handful of pork rinds, 1/3 cup maybe frozen mixed berries, 20 g dark chocolate, bit of coconut flakes.
I didn't have much in my apartment at that point, had to make do with a random meal of..whatever I had until I got to the store. Def noticed I don't feel as full or satisfied with barely any protein.
Dinner: turkey cutlet, green beans, 2 small carrots, half a zucchini, half a red bell pepper
During the day I always drink a ton of water and tea, as well. Today's activity was walking a total of 4.5 miles while running errands in the city and carrying all my groceries around. I buy in bulk where I can and try to be smart with using food/freezing it, which means I end up carrying around quite a few kilos of vegetables, fruits and this time: 2 kg of bratwurst! Really excited, I love this store's wurst.
Well, this feels like a pretty good first post! Here's to new beginnings. :cool:
Also, sorry in advance for any newbie mistakes. I'm still learning how to use forums!
Kind of weird day today, probably because the new neighbors had a party last night (Fasching/Karneval is the weirdest holiday!!) and I didn't sleep much. I honestly don't think I'll feel really rested until I move into my new apartment on Saturday. Ah well, pullin' out all the stops tonight in order to sleep better: melatonin, chamomile, in bed with a book by 21:30.
Wasn't super hungry, didn't really eat a lot.
brunch: Soup out of vegetable stock, two eggs, and an orange bell pepper
snack: taste tested two meatballs
dinner: 5 meat balls, half a medium zucchini, half a cup sauerkraut, green beans
Like I said, weird day of eating. Work tomorrow, I'll be back on a normal schedule.
Movement: basic moves (squats, push ups, tricep dips, lunges, planks, etc) and 30 minutes of yoga.
Welcome Margalott and congratulations on your success so far. I think a journal will be great for helping you get to know yourself better, what makes you feel better and worse. Nice to meet you.
Annie's Primal Highlights
What Annie Did Next
Hi Annie! Thanks, I'm really excited to be here! I look forward to getting to know all you regulars.
Long day today!
Work, met with a friend and walked around the river (it's so warm!) and then ran by the new apartment to discuss some thing with the new roommates.
breakfast- half a tomato, half a cup cucumber, two fried eggs, two sad little thin slices of bacon
lunch: BAS with meatballs, mushrooms, spinach, tomatoes and cucumber. one apple
snack: a banana
dinner: half a cup sauerkraut, green beans, two wursts
today's movement: pedometer says 6.5 miles just during the course of my regular day. not having a car is pretty nice, sometimes.
I'm sort of nervous about my new apartment. It's a lot older than my current one and I'm afraid of being a spoiled American princess who needs a really nice, newly renovated place. It has what I need, the roommates seem really nice. As hard as it is to find a place here, I should feel lucky. A friend of mine is coming to visit and he'll help me get my room looking nice, too. So I need to just chill on that note. I guess, I feel like there's a lot of uncertainty in my life right now. Isn't everyone's life always like that? I'm gonna work on being more mindful and appreciative of what I have.
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Well you can certainly be appreciative of your good food. It sounds great. I hope you can soon make your apartment feel like home.
Annie's Primal Highlights
What Annie Did Next
Well...today was pretty awful. Started out alright, ended up riding in the ambulance with my roommate to the hospital. Don't want to get into specifics, but I spent my day there and ended up coming home and eating everything I could find, basically. Chocolate (two 100 g bars), popcorn, almond butter, even cereal (haven't had gluten in months!) and milk. So disappointed in myself. I have to be back at the hospital tomorrow to bring her things, she'll probably be there a couple weeks.
-I'm super vulnerable to binges when I'm tired and stressed
-Intermittent fasting is nothing for me!! I've learned this before, it's terrible. It's better for me to eat something non-primal, than try to hold out and end up bingeing at some point, like today.
I'm human, I make mistakes, I'm still learning. I won't automatically get fat again, the bloat that is already evident is just my body trying to deal with all I've consumed tonight. Tomorrow is a new day.
Positive steps I can take to move forward:
-drink lots of water!!!
-sleep as soon as I finish writing this!
-bring my roommate her stuff tomorrow, do what I need to do to do right by her right now
-work a few hours tomorrow
-come home, take care of myself--sleep, workout if possible, shower, laundry, pack!!
Daniel's coming Thursday, it'll be so nice to see him.
Bottom line: Binges happen. It was a rough day and I resorted to old habits, but that doesn't make me a monster. I'm still healthy, I still look good. I will show myself love tomorrow (and hereafter!) by nourishing it. I love myself and forgive myself. Tomorrow is a new day.
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ImageUploadedByMarks Daily Apple Forum1393385556.526991.jpgThis is just a test to see if I can post pictures here. I haven't tried yet, but I don't think my avatar shows up and it's probably because I'm still new here. It's the crane by the river, nothing too interesting just yet!