I think that mom has been super worried about me not eating "normal" foods. She didn't really need to cook for lunch today, but she INSISTED on cooking the 96% lean beef for me to eat. I kept saying "I'm fine... I can eat a kefir and some fruit" and she kept asking me...so I decided to let her cook for me, but insisted on NO OIL (since she doesn't have coconut oil or butter).
She made an amaaaaazing dish with bird peppers, soy sauce, onion, bell pepper. It was SO good. It was the kind of Chinese food I haven't had in a while.
Annnnnd tonight she's making lamb. I'm like 99% sure it's because she knows my favorite meat is lamb. I'm actually kind of full because I just had 1L vanilla bean kefir, and half a watermelon throughout the afternoon. I would probably eat a bit of her cooking for dinner just to show respect.
It's been too hard to NOT go HAM on all fruits at my house right now. There's so much abundance! So many types of fruits I don't bother to buy for myself because it's not on sale, or I can't carry it home (bigger melons, along with all of my other groceries), or too I'm afraid I can't eat it all by myself.
I'm not used to eating cooked meals 2x a day anymore. Lol. I've been eating fruits and dairy a lot for meals. It's nice having a mom cook for me... especially since my mom is probably the most reowned cook in the Austin Chinese community (she hosts cooking classes on dumpings etc at my house sometimes). HOwever, I'm TRYING to lean out. >.> It's hard to turn down food from Asian mothers though...
They're having organic corn on the cob, quinoa- rice porridge and lamb meat for dinner. WTF mom what are you trying to do to me??
I think she thinks I'm weird for not eating much else besides fruit, but my taste buds have gradually shifted from wanting tons of spice and etc. all the time to preferring the simplicity of having one type of fruit for a meal or a snack. It's hard to explain. I now know what fruitarans mean when they say their taste buds become really sensitive. The other day I just had a bowl of rice...by itself...and it was so...good. It was weird. I would have thought rice by itself to be boring before.
I'm getting my macros and my micros... I keep wanting to tell her. I'm not going to let myself run deficient on something. I'm not going vegan or VLC ever! I've learned my less about cutting out a macro or a micro.
I get "cravings" in waves. 4ish weeks ago I pretty much ate red meat every day or every other day. Nowadays I can't be bothered... but the two weeks of finals I realllly wanted starch. I kind of let my body have whatever it wants though... as long as it's not toxic or whatever. Now I'm back to just wanting fruits and dairy. I think it's because fruits are in such abundance right now! Mangoes and melons and berries are all on super sale weekly.
I'm trying to bring her along for my walks in the evening. I'm trying to teach her good habits like take walks, eat more fruit less junk, etc.
Also, it's really weird but my family is just REALLY critical of EVERYTHING. Today I giggled at a text + fb messages a few times (on fb I'm part of a group chat with some of my photog friends here...and they're posting Memes to it). My mom was like "why are you giggling? So idiotic." She doesn't mean anything bad by it...it's just how my family is. At 25 I've learned to finally let little things like that roll off my back...or body-criticisms, but my sister is too young to do so.
@ the bolded part: YES. I feel this way too. I'm not sure if it's because of ME, or because of OTHERS.
I have given up on "fitting in" or being "cool" (I'm too much of a geek for that), but I'm still trying to not ACTIVELY aim to be an outsider if that makes sense? Like, I don't want to isolate myself in my head.
This is why if I want more starches, even though it's technically not that Peaty, I just let myself have it. I try to consciously make peaty decisions most of the time, but if I REALLY want something...I'm having that thing, whatever it is.