Kymma, I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling with this. I can hear the desperation coming through - frustration, anger, disappointment. Does he know how you're feeling? are you scared to tell him cuz you are afraid it will make things worse?
I'm sure you're counselor tells you this - but remember to make "I" statements, not "you" statements. And make sure to tell him what you need in order to feel secure financially. And if you are truly thinking another failed job is going to force you to think strongly about divorce, then you owe it to him to share those feelings. He needs to know what is at stake and what consequences will come from his choices.
Breathe through it..............
1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
2. Eat to heal
3. Move to live
4. Embrace today
5. Live with intention
6. Respect my body
7. Cultivate joy
8. Find my passion
9. Meditate on peace in my soul