Hahaha! ok....... ready set go!
I'm having trouble getting my butt out the door to do some walking! I had to set it aside a couple months ago cuz I hit a wall with my fatigue level. I'm starting to think that now with the addition of the Armour, and several months on the adrenal support supplements that I need to give it a try again. I'm just dragging my feet cuz I know I'm starting at ground zero again. I had built up to almost 3 miles a day --------- then bam! the fatigue hit hard. So, I've just been lazy for 2 months. But today I'm going to start walking again. Right after I have some breakfast - of salmon! yum! I also need to mow the lawn!
So I went back and looked at my weight logs........ seems I lost down to the 190 in JANUARY! and after that I just played between 186 and 192 ---- and constant roller coaster! And my journals had a constant theme playing as well ---- rum and ice cream. I guess I have 2 addictions that I need to conquer! The ice cream is done -- since I threw out all my lactaid pills! Now, to tackle the rum monster. Sheesh - I sound like an alcoholic. I don't think I have a problem in that way..... I don't always order a drink when we eat out, and if I do its only one. And I don't need the rum at home - but if hubby wants it I have a hard time saying NO to it. So I guess maybe I do have a problem in that sense. I guess its time to make a no alcohol rule for me. I do have a family history of alcoholism. My dad, my mom, my mom's brother, my dad's brother. My mom says my grandad had a "problem" but I don't remember him being drunk - just taking a swig of his "cough medicine" aka whiskey, every night before bed. So, I suppose it would be in my best interest to cut it out all together. Hubby won't be happy with my choice - but its what is best for both of us. I suppose it is entirely possible that my "indulgences" of ice cream, rum, dark chocolate and almonds over the past 8 months is what has kept my weight at a steady "fat" level! I like to tell myself I don't eat "that much" of those things --- and I never have them all in a single day --- but added together over a week could very easily be my hurdle on the scales! So, I guess this means I'm getting down to the basics --- buckling down -- getting serious!!!! I'm looking at strict primal!
Today I woke up very early. I normally sleep until 8 - but this morning I was awake at 6:30. I'd had a disturbing dream about one of my step daughters. And then I couldn't stop thinking about it - I finally got out of bed at 7:15. I will be ready to go to bed early tonight!
I also have a headache today and I'm thinking it is sugar withdrawls. I had NO sugar yesterday...... except for the small amount of sugar in ranch dressing and ketchup. That can't amount to much. Probably less then 5 grams total. So, I'm pretty sure the headache is a withdrawl thing.
I reworked my weight chart this morning. I got rid of the months of stagnation! Kept my first entry with my starting weight of 206, then skipped ahead to today - Aug 15 - current weight 191. 15 pound loss since November - and all of it was the first 3 months of being primal. Makes me so mad at myself! I could have been at goal by now if I would have stayed away from those crap foods. Now my goal is reset to my next birthday. Oh well --- its all good. I'll get there. I've found my focus again.
So...... on another subject - my cat is losing hair on her back. She has 2 stripes forming on either side of her spine. And she acts like it is itching or something. I don't know what to do. I thought maybe it was her food - but she has had this brand before and it never bothered her. She likes to go over to the neighbors house and I'm wondering if they are feeding her something that is causing it? Or maybe she picked up a nasty parasite or something. Its not red or anything -- just bare skin. My beautiful black kitty is going to look mangie if I don't figure out what is wrong with her!
okay - time to go walking........... its beautiful cool this morning!
1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
2. Eat to heal
3. Move to live
4. Embrace today
5. Live with intention
6. Respect my body
7. Cultivate joy
8. Find my passion
9. Meditate on peace in my soul