I got up and had a couple fried eggs this morning, a handful of leftover veggies from dinner, a date roll and a glass of milk. Heading out to do more mixing of soil and planting. DH and I have been looking at his schedule and will try to get an appointment as soon as there is an opening in his and the naturopaths schedules. It is an hour long appointment for your first visit and it would be tough for the kids to sit in the waiting room and I don't really want them in the appointment with me either.
I got into bed feeling wiped out and then stared at the back of my eyelids until I got up and took some Melatonin. Slept through and woke up about 6am without an alarm. But still feel tired. I am dreading the price of all the tests etc that the doc is sure to want to do .... but I can't keep going like this either. I feel guilty needing to go to the doc - so much money. I feel as though I have failed in some way because I can't figure this out myself - silly I know, but it is there. Feels as though I am wasting our precious funds that are spoken for on so many levels. (I haven't been to a doctor for many years, and the last time I went it was because of a fall. ) I just have to trust that it will all work out for our good despite the difficulties and emotions.
Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
Primal low: 186 lbs
Current weight: 221.4 lbs
Goal weight: 140 lbs
"You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."