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You know that moment, when you're dreaming, and you actually realize you are dreaming and you can do whatever the hell you want, without consequence? That's the way I want to feel, but in real life....

Wow, this journal took off SO fast!

Om, I'll be a voluntary leaf-fanner! No slavery required.

It seems as though we all have cats! My bf has a cat names Viktor, and I have a cat names...

Beachbrat: I think that it is important to approach "falling off the wagon" as something that may happen from time to time, as a human being. We are tempted by things every day, but it will never...

And I see you growing and moving further away from your eating disorder each and every day! I am so happy for you, it's truly a beautiful thing.

Do you think that you became aware of low-level...

@Zach: thank you so much for showing your concern for me. It really helps to know that you've been in similar situations and that you got yourself out of the rut. I wish that u could brainwash myself...

Can't we all just get free pamphlets in the mail whenever we decide to go Primal? Then, whenever anyone asks why we eat the way that we do, we can just whip out the pamphlet! It'll be laminated, and...

Saturday, May 25

Sleep:
2am-10am, woke promptly to the alarm, feeling a little bit off. Took a nap from 12pm-3pm.

Supplements:
Took my spastic colon anti-anxiety pill today. It's called...

Hah, I know you're referring to the 2 tablespoons of raisins I regularly enter into my food log! But, I don't count them out, they're little pre-packaged lunchbox snacks! But I totally hear where...

Is my intake really that low carb? I usually count around 130-150ish per day, with some days going up to 180. Yeah, when I was my thinnest, I didn't touch fat/oils or anything with a 10-foot pole. I...

Well, YB. You've cursed me, I decided. You were so sick the other day, and it hopped all the way across the pond, and over to me! I never get sick or vomit, ever! But today, for some reason, I got...

Thanks for all of your advice! I may try to eat egg yolks, but they are intimidating to me. Sounds stupid! But I've just heard so much about the yolks being so calorically dense, I usually just eat...

I love apples, too, but I can literally be full from a meal, and just want to snack on an apple... and then get a hunger sensation when I know that I shouldn't be hungry at all! It only happens with...

Ah, YB, don't worry about not feeling strong some days. It can happen to everyone, especially since you were sick! I'm such a baby about being sick (since I never really get sick like that) I...

Wow, that's an amazing playground you've got there! Nice photos!

Zach: do you think that my anxiety stems from undereating? I never thought I'd need that many calories to function properly... I...

Friday, May 24

Sleep: 3:30am-12pm. I woke suddenly at 7am and realized I hadn't put the trash out, damnit. Otherwise, I slept pretty soundly.

Supplements: No fish oil. 2 Zinc tabs. No other...

Okay. My jaw literally dropped when you said 2200 calories for maintenance. Really? You know I'm only 5'3, right?!

I might go for the fruit and yogurt thing since it's all I've been craving....

Bold is totally in this year. :P

It must feel great to say that you've recovered and you're at a safe point in your life around foods. I think I am going to just try to eat what I want... but that...

Congratulations on learning your body's unique language and being able to communicate with it. I am so happy for you that you have gotten your issues with food under control. Thanks so much for the...

Wow, talk about Vit c overload, I bet you shit like a champion lmao.

How did you manage 1518g white sugar? Did you only drink soda the whole day? Did you turn into a hummingbird?

Thanks so much for your input. :D

1. I just upped my weights on lifting days, and exercised every day this week so far, so maybe that's why I'm sore, but how many cals would you personally...

Agh, I'm sorry. I don't want you to feel that you have to defend yourself or prove anything to me. I know you're trying to help me, but it's just so damn hard to let go of the "eating more = weighing...

Yeah, I really wish that I didn't feel so sore, otherwise I'd be in the gym today! However, since I feel like I got hit by a truck, I don't feel guilty today for giving myself a rest. I know that my...

Don't apologize -- literally, everyone I have a conversation with on here tells me that I need to consume more calories, it's not just you! You're not overstepping anything, really. Besides, I'd...

hey Zach, hope you're having a great week so far =) I have a few random questions and stuffs, hope I'm not bothering you!

1. I've been wondering -- If you have very sore muscles, and you eat a lot...

Storebought Nutella is horrible, and I hate the way they try to sell their product as a "healthy breakfast food," or whatever it is. However, a while ago I made my own "nutella" with hazelnuts, raw...