Passion Through Primal: Cierra's Journal
For a while now, I have been keeping an analog journal on and off. It helps me wind down at night and relax, and reflect on my day in a positive way. I always try to write things that I am thankful for. Overall, it is very beneficial to my mood.
However, it does not help me stay accountable for my venture into the primal lifestyle. I think starting a public journal in this forum will keep me a little more focused than I have been starting out with PB.
Now, to introduce myself. I am a 22 year old part time student current,y living in Pennsylvania. I moved here 4 years ago, after I graduated high school. Currently, I am taking the semester off for health reasons. I figured that a degree wouldn't do me any good if I was too sick to do anything with it.
For my entire life, I have suffered on and off from IBS. Doctors have prescribed me countless medications, I've had tests run and no one seems to know what's wrong with me. Doctors say that I am not allergic to any foods, but I don't really believe that to be true. So, in my search for food allergies, I started eliminating foods while doing research. Eventually, that led to a nearly vegan diet, with lots of oatmeal and tofu... Then, my fear of foods developed into anorexia, unfortunately. My phobia of foods and their effects on my body only escalated after an injury that prevented me from exercising for a few months. I'd been very athletic my whole life, and the idea of taking it easy just freaked me out. I believed I would get chubby over the course of my recovery, which led to full blown anorexia nervosa.
This lasted for nearly a year. I lost my mind -- and nearly 30 unnecessary pounds. I was weak, depressed, and in pain all the time. It turns out that when you don't nourish your body, eventually you just lose passion for everything. Lucky for me, though, I sought professional help. After an evaluation, and a few tests, my therapist revealed to me that at 85 pounds and 5% body fat, I was at severe risk of organ failure, osteoporosis, and cardiac arrest. This is not news that any 22 year old wants to hear... So I was determined to change.
That was in late November 2012. After consistently working to improve my body, today I am getting stronger every day. My fear of foods is completely gone, and I have changed my diet (well, working at changing it) 180 degrees. If I told myself a year ago that I would be able to eat bacon and eggs (the WHOLE egg) with avocado,I would not have believed myself. But I am doing it, this plan is working!
Today, standing proudly at 5'3, I am a healthy(er) 106 pounds and 11% body fat. I still have a bit of work to do but have recovered physically in record time, compared to others who have suffered from an eating disorder.
Today, I have the ability to run a 6 minute mile, and lift weights 2-3 times a week, when just a few months ago, I could hardly walk and do normal daily tasks.
Today, I am getting back in touch with the Earth. I have a passion to LIVE, a desire to be happy. And as I've discovered through my journey, being healthy is what makes me happy.