Yeah, Zach, my original screen name was my actual name, too. I couldn't think of anything else! But then I was like, oh gods this is dumb, and I got paranoid about people knowing me. But now I can talk about whatever I want without worryiiiing. ;D
And, Derp, why should you change your name?! Referring to you in sentences always makes them more hilarious, just 'cause Derp is a funny word :D suits you just fine!
Misabi: I don't think I'd do very well running a podcast. I can be quite... dry.
So, I'm just here for amusement? ;_; well, I don't have a problem with that.
My online alias has usually been Awaken everywhere else. I was thinking of changing it to that, but, despite not being entirely unique, I've sullied that name a lot with my rampant trolling. Derpamix is about as inconspicuous as it gets at least.
[B][U]Tuesday, July 2[/U][/B]
2am-10:30am. Felt pretty energized upon waking, actually.
Everything's normal, buut I was seriously thinking about starting up some Fennugreek extract! I really want to help my libido because it's really suffering, and with PaleoMom's testimonial that her boobs grew, that's always a plus! I looked it up, and it says that it'll help with menstrual cramping also. All the reviews seem pretty legit, and since it's an herb, what's the worst that could happen?!
Pumpin' Iron, fuck yeah!
I was watching a show today where some people completed a mud run as part of a weight loss challenge. While I was watching it, I had a really strong desire to complete a competition like that! I was also really motivated and felt really happy when the people reached their goals. It made me want to be a part of their lives, and to be someone that could help people in their journeys to getting a fulfilled life back. That show today just realllllly made me feel like my decision to try out personal training is really right for me, right now.
[B]Food:[/B] Weird food day ...
[U]B:[/U] coffee/almond milk/stevia. gelatin/rosewater/stevia. 1 large Asian pear, some raw coconut meat.
[U]L:[/U] 100g (raw) chicken breast, grilled with BBQ sauce. ~20g halloumi cheese. 150g riced cauliflower, a few baby carrots.
[U]S:[/U] 1 small banana.
[U]D:[/U] 3 squares dark chocolate w/ raspberries, 200g riced cauliflower (weird part coming!) cooked into a "rice pudding" type thing with cocoa powder and stevia. Threw a few marcona almonds in there too. Later, 1 slice prosciutto rolled up with 1 thin provolone slice, a few baby carrots, hot tea w/ almond milk.
[U]Drinks:[/U] Coffee, Slenderize Fuze, almond milk, water, sleepy tea.
[U]Cravings:[/U] Nothing, really. I had a slight craving for sushi, but that's only because we drove by my favorite sushi place and I was daydreamiiiiing. lol!
[U]Calories:[/U] ~1000. I feel as if I may have a bedtime snack, though. That's pretty low. :/
[U]Hair:[/U] Much healthier. I know I said it already but it feels sooooo much better. Now if only I could get it to be thicker ....
[U]Skin:[/U] Got some retin-a-micro .04% today. I'm going to start using it tonight. Oh god, I'm so glad I have insurance because I only paid $10, but the insurance thingy said it saved me $500!!!! Crazy! It's just a skin cream!
[U]Body:[/U] Feeling pretty good today. Strong, not bloated, not fat, not weak, even a little .... confident!
[U]Food Thoughts:[/U] Went to the farmer's market today, and grocery shopping. I was sad that the grocery store didn't have any 2% plain greek yogurt, so I had to buy 0%! I also bought more corn cakes, and some cocoa powder so that I can make gelatin chocolate milk and be cool like Zach :P At the farmer's market, I picked up 2 dry-aged filet mignons, and I'm looking forward to having those. I've never bought meat from a farmer's market. Needless to say, I got plenty of fruit, too: cherries, strawberries, 2 personal watermelons, bananas, and tomatoes. At the grocery store, I snagged up some smoked oysters really quickly because people were in the way. When I got home I read the label -- fucking cottonseed oil and 4g PUFA per serving!!! I immediately threw the box away and lamented my $2 loss. Other things I picked up that I normally don't: provolone cheese, chocolate flavored yogurt, and a carton of just egg whites.
[U]Love:[/U] I am worried for him, really. He doesn't ever feel motivated to do anything. He was moping around as he watched me lift weights at the gym, and just acted like he was suffering so much just by being there. He is supposed to come with me to motivate me and make sure I don't hurt myself/get the exercise down correctly, but I was constantly trying to perk him up all day. He is upset with me, I think, because we haven't had sex in a few days due to my unscheduled surprise menstrual cycle. However, even if I wasn't on my period, having him slogging around and pouting isn't really very attractive. He's really interested in me beginning to take libido-enhancing herbal supplements, and I'm hoping that it'll help with some issues, as well.
[I]Question of the Day:[/I]
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? At this point in your life, are you where you expected you'd be? Have you achieved more, or less, or are you in a completely different position than you ever could have imagined?
[QUOTE=Misabi;1241461]Bwahaha yeah, you guys should do a podcast ;-)[/QUOTE]
Zig and Zach :)
[QUOTE=YogaBare;1241625]Zig and Zach :)[/QUOTE]
In the un-paleo solution.. ;-)
[B][U]Wednesday, July 3[/U][/B]
2am-10:30am. No, I did not wake up to the hammering outside the house. Yes, I did wake up to you screaming, "Why are people hammering outside the house?! Do you hear that?!" -___-
Okay, well, my decreased libido has been so obnoxious lately, and then PaleoMom was talking about it, so I snagged some Fenugreek Extract today. I took a dropper full orally, and then, since I had it on hand, used two droplets for a massage on my chest to see if it'll do anything. It has a really maple-syrupy smell, but the taste it foul. I don't think that my bf likes the way that it smells. Also, I don't know how long it should take to increase libido (if it will) but it didn't really do anything today.
All other supplements were normal.
Weight lifting. yup
[U]B:[/U] Coffee/Almond Milk/Stevia. Gelatin/Almond milk/Cocoa powder/Stevia/Sugar. (Chocolate milk jello!)
[U]L:[/U] 1c 0% Greek Yogurt, 1 smallish chunk coconut meat, strawberries, cherries, corn cake thins, 1 with a thin slice of provolone cheese. Nibbled a bit of baked beans, a couple mouthfuls. Also I snuck 3 thin mint cookies! Didn't feel any negative effects from it though...
[U]S:[/U] 1 large Asian pear, 1/3 personal watermelon.
[U]D:[/U] 85g (raw) grassfed beef liver, cooked with bacon, onions, and mushrooms. I still don't like liver.
[U]S:[/U] 1c 0% greek yogurt, 15g cocoa powder, stevia, sugar. 2 corn cake thins, 6 marcona almonds. Sleepy tea, almond milk.
[U]Drinks:[/U] coffee, almond milk, Slenderize Fuze, green tea, sleepy tea.
[U]Cravings:[/U] None that I can think of, actually!
[U]Hair:[/U] Nice. I think I'm going to do a hair mask soon so that it feels super extra good. I wish it was fuller!
[U]Skin:[/U] No new zits, seems the ones I do have are clearing up. I also wish that I had somewhere to lay out in the sun, I want to get some color this summer!
[U]Body:[/U] I feel pretty good. No soreness, minimal bloating, a little tired and stiff, but I did just lift weights and run around alllll day!
[U]Energy:[/U] Excellent. I was kind of antsy today because I wanted to go go go, but I suppose that's good. I got a bit of cleaning in today, and I usually can never be bothered with that!
Today was a really boring day. Woke up, cleaned, watched tv, got on the computer, made food, got supplements, worked out, visited with bf's friends for a bit (not really my friends), came home, made food, computer, tv. It wasn't a horrible day, but it was really electronically-oriented, which is just the way the bf likes it I think. It's a shame, too, because it was a really nice day outside. I dunno what we could have done otherwise, but anything besides 4 hours of Dragonball GT and Halo Wars. In other news, I'm really looking forward to seeing what my new supp will do for me. I wanted to get some other libido boosters while I was there, but I held back because I wanted to make sure I knew exactly which results were coming from which supplement. If this Fenugreek doesn't work, I feel like I might get some Gingko extract or Damiana extract. I was also looking into Saw Palmetto to rub on my bewbs to see if it'd do anything to them. I'm not really displeased with my breast size, just kind of curious to see if it'd work, I guess!
I'm tired, but I can't really go to sleep yet. My eye has been twitching all day for no reason, and while my boyfriend was chatting online with someone on Facebook, I got a really weird, jealous feeling. Usually, I don't feel jealous at all and I really don't care what he does or says to others, online or otherwise. But, tonight, I dunno. He wasn't really doing anything unusual, so I can't put my finger on what made me feel this way. Hopefully the new supplement I'm taking doesn't make me feel extra sensitive toward dumb shit like that, or something weird. We'll see, though. I really just don't even know how to deal with jealousy since I don't ever experience it (anymore.) When I used to feel like this in the beginning of the relationship, I never handled it very well, and don't really feel like I'm any better equipped to deal with it now. Do I ask him, or talk to him about it? I think it would just start an unnecessary argument since he literally did nothing, at all.
How do you deal with jealousy, if you ever feel that way? :/
Are you actually physically attracted to your bf? Honest question. It just sounds so funny that you are like "my day sucked, my bf is boring, trying some herbs to boost libido". Maybe it has nothing to do with libido and everything to do with your life?
Maybe you were jealous because he seemed to be enjoying himself, doing his computer thang, while you had a meh day and didn't get to spend time in nature, like you wanted?
Also, that chocolate jello sounds amazballs :p
[QUOTE=Zach;1242577]Are you actually physically attracted to your bf? Honest question. It just sounds so funny that you are like "my day sucked, my bf is boring, trying some herbs to boost libido". Maybe it has nothing to do with libido and everything to do with your life?
I was thinking the same thing...