Disordered Eating Support Thread
I thought I'd start a thread for those of us suffering at MDA who are primal (or want to be primal) but are suffering from some kind of disordered eating. This might be old patterns of an ED, something which has started recently, or for those of us in relapse (like me).
Let's classify disordered eating as having a diagnosed eating disorder, or undiagnosed problems with food. They might be undereating, compulsive overeating, binge eating, anorexia, bulimia, compulisve excersising after food, orthorexia, obsessive calorie counting or any other behaviours with food that leave us feeling overwhelmed, bewildered and desperate.
This thread could be a place to share our progress and experience or to get support on a tough day.
A little about me, I've been eating 95% primal for over a year. I'm a recovering anorexic and came to MDA to see if food could help me with my food issues. I also secretly hoped that I could eat loads of bacon and still lose weight...which didn't happen. After a few months I felt well enough to gain some weight, but a few weeks ago swtiched into binge eating and continued to gain. I am now in relapse again, restricting by IFing daily and avoiding foods I normally eat and enjoy. I've lost weight again, but I know it's not the answer. I have realised that a primal/paleo diet is not going to cure me of psychological and mental health issues. On that note, I see a therapist and psychiatrist regularly and my weight and mental state are monitored. I take medication, I go to OA, I read these forums.
I have made progress in the last 12 months. I don't count calories anymore, I eat a normal lunch and dinner of highly nutritious food, but I could probably do with eating a bit more of it. Binging scares me and I wish I could stop it. Restricting is scary too as I don't know where it's going to take me.
Recently I've been trying to eat a bit more, an extra egg, some bacon, some potato to help keep binges at bay. It's working, but early days. I've been slogging this out now for some time.
I'm a healthy weight, but probably at the low end of it.
Any others who want to share their journey?