Thanks for coming by! Your journal is terrific and so many nice people there, too.
Went to the food co-op today (we have lots of those here in Maine) and found they have just about everything I could ever want for a primal life - almond flour, coconut flour, just about any coconut product you can name. There is also a gluten-free bakery if I feel like I can't live without a brownie or cupcake or something, although there is plenty of other stuff to avoid in those. Do they have to use canola oil? Why do they do that? But just knowing it's there provides a kind of safety net. I'm definitely not ready to add any baked goods, primal or not, that is way down the road.
All of a sudden today for reason I got worried that I won't lose any weight and I will weigh this amount for the rest of my life. That was a really, really depressing thought, even though I feel ten times better than I did nine days ago. I want to feel good and look good too. I haven't put my weight in here yet -
Current Size - 12
Goal Size - 6 or 8
AND to be able to just fit into at least one of the swimming suits I already own. I don't have any illusions about looking good in it, just want to be able to put it on without cutting off the circulation to my legs.
Saw a documentary about a whale today - called - wait for it - The Whale. A really sad story. We have an awful lot to learn about our fellow creatures. Tomorrow I think I am going to see The Separation - it looks terrific but I may want to open an artery in my wrist afterwards.
Thinking about dinner now -
Leftovers for dinner - pork and sweet potato livened up with coconut.
Oh, and I'm 5'5".
Now for a glass of wine and Wagner's [I]Ring Cycle.[/I]
Sleeping very well - maybe too well! I do like to sleep.
I've been experimenting with IF and not doing very well! Maybe I need to just get down with primal eating before I start to make it more complicated. Not that anything is complicated, but I'm going through this massive change in eating and one thing at a time is the way to go. And I'm really wondering how I will do when I go back to work tomorrow. It is relatively easy when I am in my nice safe little world here and have total control. When I get back to the crushing stress of the hospital with the junk all over I will need to keep my focus.
Shared some pork with tubby cat. I hope he will slim down a little too, now that I'm not feeding him pizza and bread.
I've just found your thread through Primal4Fifty ... I have enjoyed reading it soo much.
I am 56, a part time primary school teacher, living in the south of England with my two girls 17 & 20 and my husband. I have been primal for just over three months now and as you really reaping the benefits. The weight loss has slowed recently, but I haven't really got into the exercise thing yet (apart from walking) as winter has returned and it's enough to cope with everything else in life.
I do hope you keep it up and I will continue to read your blog as it has made me laugh. Thank you! :D
Hello ragwort, and thank you! I love it when people stop by and say nice things! I feel like I have so much to give and receive from people here and that is really something for me because I am a pretty hard-core loner, although I can be quite social at times. Everyone here has such great experience and is so willing help.
Had kind of a funny day. Woke up after six hours of sleep, not enough but I couldn't drop back off. Played around on the computer for awhile, had a cup of green tea and faded away badly. Went back to sleep about 9 AM and got a very good two hours. That is really not unusual for me, given that I work a rather unusual night shift schedule but I was worried it was diet-related. I hope that is normal for the early stages - to worry and question. No cravings though, and when I woke up I did some errands and went to see 'The Separation' - a really sad and tragic film. The movie theater is over a bookstore! I could not resist buying [I]The Paleo Diet[/I] by Loren Cordain. Even though I can get all the info I need on the internet, I just got sucked in. His writing is very accessible and given my avid interest it was practically a given that I would buy it.
I went to the food co-op where they had slow-cooked pasture-raised pork. Let me tell you, it is about the finest thing you can put in your mouth. They had some cooked grass-fed beef too. Ai-yi-yi. As delicious as it is, it is VERY filling and I can't eat that much. Washed it down with some chopped greens and a pear. Yep, this diet is really hard.
But...while I was eating the cafe I noticed someone staring at me...one thing led to another and there I was being accused of killing animals. I responded that yes, animals died and I am very thankful to them. And did he think that his vegan fake soy pizza thing was cruelty free? Did he know about how harmful to the environment the food processing industry is? Oh, and did he DRIVE to the co-op? My meal supported local ethical farmers that I know personally and I am proud of it. Actually I have no problem with him being vegan, but that fake hypocritical sanctimonious attitude makes me insane. I was going to say something negative about his likely sexual prowess, but I won't ;)
Anyway, there are a couple more things on my mind but I will put them down later - on clearing clutter and on finding a man when you are a smart, funny, independent lady over 50. I will state right now that 'smart' 'funny' and 'independent' used in this context are pejorative terms - but I have some chores to do -
Siobhan you are seriously funny. I loved your epiphany with the cat and the goat.
I haven't read every entry, but your starting point is pretty much where I am after losing almost 60 pounds!
Seriously, would you really want a man who didn't appreciate funny, smart and independent? Admittedly, that does take a special kind of guy. Was talking to a young woman of my acquaintance the other day who was raving about eHarmony. She's the smart, independent type too and was rather despairing of finding a man who met her exacting standards. But she found one. They've been dating for a year now, and unlike previous men in her life, she wants this one to last and fully expects it to. She says they fit together incredibly well. I was so happy for her.
Hi Judg, thanks for stopping by! I am glad I can make people laugh once in a while. Hey, you and I can share clothes!
Nope, don't want a man who doesn't appreciate funny, smart, and independent - which is why I don't have one. I tried eHarmony and met three great guys - all of them married. The third one was a charm, so to speak...but I'm glad it worked out for your friend. I think eHarmony attracts a lot of married people because no browsing is allowed - you have to be matched and don't see a picture until you are well down the path. The guys all told me it was okay with their wives if they 'dated' for various reasons - all of them lame IMHO. And it was definitely not okay with ME. I tried a site that one of my co-workers used to meet her guy but I ended up blocking five guys a day until it dawned on me that this was not going to work. Oh well.
I made chicken soup for dinner, very simple - homemade stock, onions, carrots, celery, cauliflower, chicken. For some reason it was ridiculously delicious. Which is good, because there is lot of it and I will be eating it for awhile.
Feeling so much better - no back pain, no wrist pain, no knee pain, lots more energy - has made me rethink my old, retired dream of having a small homestead. When I moved to Maine, I thought I would have a small property with some animals, maybe fiber animals like alpaca or cashmere goats. Some chickens and a garden. But then I rethought that dream when the reality of the amount of work scared me. Now I am thinking...hmmm...maybe I can do this...
Food today -
Strawberries, banana, coconut, and kefir in blender - seriously delicious
Black tea with milk
Handful of pistacios
Chicken soup - onions, celery, carrots, cauliflower, broth, chicken
4 oz white wine
Sleep, sleep, blessed sleep. Tonight I am back at work for three nights in a row. Even though I have been off for seven days or so, I am completely unmotivated to go back. I really need to think about trying to find another job - not an easy thing here in mid-coast Maine. The security of a healthcare job is a huge plus, although we have been having layoffs at work. So far administrative staff, no clinicians. But at the rate we are going, anything could happen. The problem is we give away so much. Now, I wouldn't have it any other way - everyone should have decent medical care. But such a large proportion of people here have no insurance and no way to pay - this is only the tip of the iceberg. But hey, I don't want to get into any kind of a healthcare debate. I come here to get away from those types of problems. But that brings me around to thinking about what other job I might be able to get that pays the same as I make now. Really, I am very fortunate to be able to live like I do, with my little house in the woods, my pets, the ocean just down the street, good food, seeing movies, concerts, and plays all of the time. This past week I have seen three movies and one play, eaten like a queen, spent quality time with friends. Maybe I should just not rock the boat.
So far have had black tea with milk and now a cup of green tea (plain). I am glad I never have put sugar in my beverages. Not really hungry so will put off brekkie.
Tubby cat has weirdly formed feet - extra toes on some feet and not enough toes on others. In addition, his claws grow at funny angles, and need trimming or they catch on the carpet and it is sad to see him walking across it with one foot always sticking. He has the weirdest feet I have ever seen on a cat, but they are not unattractive. He walks with his feet turned out like a ballet dancer and he is the best mouser I have ever seen. Lightning fast and the mouse is dead immediately, no playing around. Then he does kind of a little war dance - working off excess energy, I suppose. My friend found him in her driveway 2 1/2 years ago, almost dead, covered in ticks, weighing maybe 3 lbs, completely dehydrated. My beloved cat that you see as my avatar had died a few weeks previously, and I wasn't ready for another cat but when she asked me to take him I couldn't say no. He has been quite a companion. I've never had a cat that makes me laugh so much. He plays by himself for hours at a time, running around and around, throwing his toys up in the air. He doesn't seem to need any interaction from me, although he likes to play with his friend Slim Cat.
Well, I had better start my day -
Just journalling away this morning. I sat down on the sunny window seat in my kitchen and both my cats came over to see what was what - they love sitting in the windowseat. The cardinal couple was outside at the feeder. I think female cardinals are more beautiful than the males, I love those olive tones and the bright orange beak. The goldfinches are golding up, I had better put out some thistle for them. What a great hour I spent there, with the sun streaming in, the cats next to me and outside all green and growing and filled with birds and animals.
I grew up in Southern California and now this is my eighth New England spring - I will never get used to the violence of it. Everything just explodes. One day all is brown and dormant, and then the forsythia appears like aliens dropped in overnight. Then the fruit trees flower and everything else follows. Meanwhile on the ground the crocuses, daffodils, and tulips take turns. Spectacular. I feel so connected to nature here.
Okay, I'm getting all airy-fairy and didn't mean to. So I will report than I had an omelet muffin and chopped up a bunch of veg for later.
I'm all over the place here today - sorry - but -
I realized that I haven't had a hot flash since Easter Sunday, when I started my primal journey. I started getting hot flashes in November, right after my period which turned out to be probably the last period of my life. They weren't terrible but mostly annoying as occasionally it was bad enough for a drop of sweat to form on my temple and trickle down the side of my face - not great when one is standing in line at the grocery store or sitting in church. Occasionally I would wake up all sweaty, which was also pretty annoying, but not horrible. But then they started to trickle off until it would happen maybe once a day - very manageable. But now they are gone and I don't miss them.
Now for the bad - my adult acne, which I was very good at hiding but hated passionately, seems to have disappeared. But I have a rash on the side of my face, right below my right eye almost to the hairline. At first I thought it was an insect bite as it was horribly itchy, but this morning it definitely looks rashy. Of course, it could be an insect bite, or it could be diet-related, or it could be...who knows.