Whew... 40? Yikes! My grandmother died of stroke, my mother had several, each progressively worse and lots of TIAs. I've had high blood pressure all of my life so they're coming for me next! This is among the reasons I am becoming healthy. To avoid that particular fate.
It is a difficult line to walk, for you, for all of us really. To have found something that has worked, really worked in our lives to make us healthier, and to see so many people who might benefit from the same thing, if we could just articulate it effectively, or if they would only listen.
I am hoping that in a year or so, when I am at my ideal weight that I can talk to people with enough confidence, unabashedly about what worked for me and how it might help them.
Just got my own jerky into the oven for an all day dry-out. Good thing I came to your journal so early: it helped remind me that I was supposed to be jerkying today!
How wonderful that you are (and have realized-even more important in my books) that you are normal weight now. I haven't been that since I was eighteen (when I thought I was fat!). When I finally make it back to normal weight, I hope I can recognize and enjoy it, and not still view myself the old way.
[QUOTE=Siobhan;963901]Fast is over! I had some broth that I gourmet-ed up with some butter, parsley, and seasonings. Pretty good. I thought I would start out with something like that to let my tummy know to start working again. Waited a little bit and then had some squash casserole and turkey. Maybe I should work some longer fasts into my life. I should probably fast at work more often, just eat one meal a day when I am in my working cycle. I have had that idea before but didn't work at it.
Realized that I'm not fat anymore. I'm not skinny and not at my goal weight, but I'm not fat. It was odd to realize that I am a normal sized person now. I don't look like I did when I was thinner and younger, say four or five years ago. Shapes change as we get older! (Stating the obvious here.)
One of my co-workers who is only 40 has had a small stroke. She is fine, but that is a bit of a wake-up call. She has a terribly unhealthy lifestyle, overweight, cigarettes, Red Bull, stress, stress, stress. She was telling me all about how she is on the South Beach diet but never asked me how I lost weight or mentioned that I appear to have lost weight. Funny because I've lost 30 pounds since April. Since she is facing some serious health issues you might think she would be curious. Oh well. I have no idea how other people think.[/QUOTE]
You probably stopped being fat a while ago, but it sure feels good when we realize it, doesn't it? It hit me last March, when I had just bought my first size medium. I was still plenty plump, but I no longer felt that people looked at me with pity or contempt. It was ground-shaking. I realized that I had felt for years like I was deformed, and that I was visible in a bad way because of it. Feeling normal just about bowled me over.
People are so fixated on losing quickly that they think of slower weight loss as inferior. Your coworker perhaps thinks she's in too much of a hurry to consult somebody who wasn't in a hurry. Foolish, but what can you do? Or maybe she isn't impressed by somebody losing weight until she's seen that you know how to keep it off. I've seen enough yoyo dieters that I'm a little in that camp.
One of my relatives died far too young from lung cancer. She was a nurse and a smoker. Her husband and son still smoke like chimneys. I know it's a vicious addiction, but you'd think that would do it.
Had choir practice tonight. Was so tired! And my voice was tired. But it went okay. We sing such beautiful songs!
I made the primal panang that won Mark's contest. It was okay but oddly bland. I felt like I added boatloads of hot sauce and fish sauce, but it just needs more. More something. Am I losing my taste buds? Lots and lots of sauce. I ate lots of fish but still had a lot of sauce. Will put it over some other kind of meat.
I watched a couple of the fitness videos and liked them a lot. There is one especially that I picked up some hammer moves from. Should probably vote for that one. I don't have time to watch them all.
I'm having this really strange interest in clothing and having fun deciding what to wear. Never, ever was like that before, even in young, thin, affluent days. Never really thought much it before but now I'm mixing and matching and unmatching (I like to wear stuff like green and purple together.)
Well, I am really tired. Going to get some sleep as soon as the fish settles.
We're going to sing "Moon River" in church on Sunday in honor of Andy Williams, who died this week. It happens to be just about my favorite song. I'm ridiculously excited about singing it. I didn't imagine how fun it is to sing with a lot of other people who 'get it' - you know, are serious about having fun with music and singing well. Serious and fun at the same time. And the result is really nice. It's kind of amazing when people come up to me in the grocery store and tell me how much they enjoyed the music at church on Sunday, and to realize I had a tiny little part of bringing joy to other people with music. It also inspires me to do the best I can with the limited vocal gifts I possess.
Fasting this AM but did have tea.
How awesome to feel 'normal' - and having fun with your clothes! Sounds really nice to me ... There is something so cool about being part of a choir - I don't have much of a voice but can hold a tune and just love the feeling of being part of something bigger and more beautiful than me on my own! So glad you are enjoying it ... great stress reliever and very grokkish if you think about it. People have always loved getting together and making music together!
That is so true and so sad that we have really gotten away from that aspect of socialization in our modern world. I'll bet a few people have read the essay, "The Original Affluent Society" by Marshal Sahlins. From the evidence we have, paleolithic society was very, very social. People worked together, played together, gathered together, hunted together. They didn't sit in their little cubicles looking at Facebook and trying to convince themselves they actually have 'friends.'
Thoughts on swimming:
Today I was doing my laps in a pretty crowded pool - all the lanes were being shared. That actually makes me happy because I love to see people having a good time in the water and using the pool to its fullest capacity. I was swimming, having a great time, when the lifeguard asked me to make room for a slower swimmer by moving into a fast lane. I said, "Sure, but I'm...you know...not fast." She said, "You don't have to be fast, just a good swimmer." Okay!
So, I'm sitting at the edge of a fast lane adjusting my goggles when this guy comes over, drops his gear and asks if I mind sharing a lane with him. He happens to be this drop-dead gorgeous guy who looks sort of like Ryan Lochte. Swims like him too. Uh...sure...I'll share...
You are wonderfully priceless. Don't know who Ryan Lochte is, but I have a very vivid imagination:-)
He's an Olympic swimmer and Seriously Hot!
More swimming thoughts:
Today I wore a suit I bought several years ago but have never worn. It is still a bit snug, but I just couldn't wait to wear it. As I was swimming, I realized it is much lower cut in the front than my boring black tank. In fact I was bit worried that I was hanging out. Luckily that was not the case, but there was a lot of cleavage. I kept checking to make sure I was still covered. But I really like the suit. Then when I was sitting in the sauna, I realized that if one fills out the top of one's bathing suit nicely, and one shows a bit of that, it just might distract other people's eyes from traveling to less-than-optimum bits.