I'm in a bit of a funk today. I just want to curl up on the couch and watch old movies on the hallmark channel or something! I think maybe its just a seasonal mood swing - as the weather gets cold and the world around me seems to be dying I tend to get a bit blue. I hate this time of year.
But -I need to walk. I'm going to walk to a park that has a path all the way around it and goes down to the river. Its a pretty walk - not too many trees though - the park is mostly open grass area for playing soccer and stuff. I've taken a bike ride there, and walked with hubby but never walked alone.
I also need to get the leaf blower out and do some clean up again. Dang tree's just keep making a mess of my driveway and lawn!!! The Catalpa tree is losing its leaves quite early this year. Normally they are still falling when we are putting out the Christmas decorations - but its practically bare already! I've been expecting this winter to be a very harsh and cold one - hope I'm wrong, but we are due for a good cold and nasty winter.
Dinner tonight will be beanless chili. It came out really good. I need to remember to take an antacid before I eat cuz tomato based dishes send my tummy into fits of pain! I supposed that means I should avoid nightshades huh?
[COLOR="#FF0000"]Personal marital TMI coming next - skip if you don't care to know the intricacies of my marriage![/COLOR]
I had a "talk" with hubby this morning at about 5 am - after he wanted a morning quicky (didn't get it). One of those talks that a man and wife need to have every now and again because most husbands are just basically bone-heads and need to be reminded that a little tenderness and romance now and then won't kill him. Have you seen Mrs. Doubtfire - where "she" is telling Miranda that Mr. Doubtfire's idea of foreplay was to say, "Effie, brace yourself!" ........... well, sometimes I feel like I'm married to Mr. Doubtfire. The romance has been missing for far too long! And I can only take so much groping and pawing before I'm ready to start slapping his hands!!! I think my "girls" are his security blanket at night - if he doesn't have ahold of one I wonder if he's dead! So -- I had to be mean and tell him he isn't meeting my needs and my emotional gas tank is totally empty!!!! Why don't men see this for themselves so we don't have to get all pitiful and needy and cry and be a complaining bag of mush! I hate having to go there and have that conversation. When I was married to the ex I would have to go there about every 6 months - and then he would accuse me of being "critical"! So I have a huge fear of bringing up the subject with hubby. We've been married for 11 years now, and I may have brought it up once or twice so far - not that it didn't need to be brought up more often - but I'm scared to bring it up cuz I don't want to be accused of being "critical"!!! To be totally honest - I think part of my libido problem is due to hubby's lack of attending to my needs for tenderness and romance. Things weren't like this in the early years........ he used to be very aware of my needs. I think he's just gotten lazy. Mind you - I'm not talking about bedroom needs........ I'm talking about everything. I hope I'm not making him sound like an ass........... cuz he really isn't. He's a wonderful man........ he's just forgot that a nice long hug or a hand on my cheek (face) is a very loving gesture. He'd rather grab my other cheeks - or go for the girls as my hands are wrist deep in meatloaf mix so I can't wriggle away! There's just no BALANCE between the typical sexual touches - and the gentle, loving touches. Its like 95% sexual. AND I'M SICK OF IT! Its getting so I flinch when I see him reaching my direction. Why is it men want their wives to be sexual vixens and ready at a moments notice............. but they don't think about being our Romeo? If he wants a porn queen he better learn to be a romance king!
He said he understood what I was saying........... now lets see if he can put it into practice.
OKAY ---- end of marital rant.
On that note........... I'm heading out for my walk. Then tackling the leaf issue. Tomorrow is my free friday! :) I might just stay in my jammies all day and watch movies. Maybe I should make a run to Red Box and get a good selection of chick flicks. ;)
I understand. Just once I would like for things to get fixed without having to ask! If my house is in order, I get coffee in bed occasionally, and a foot rub I'm much more likely to be in the mood. ;)
Yup........ fixing things is another issue! The towel bar (mine) in our masterbath was broken and on the floor for a month before he finally fixed it.
don't get me wrong - I love this man like a bear loves honey........ but he can make me crazy for sure!
I walked 2 miles in just 30 minutes. My pace is increasing :) I love feeling the hamstring muscles working as I'm walking! :) I'm getting stronger - and I'm loving it! but it is getting pretty cold and I need to remember to take my scarf! My UnderAll bottoms wouldn't be a bad idea either.
I didn't weight this morning.......... just couldn't face another bad number. But I don't feel quite so puffy and bloated today so maybe its beginning to pass. I sure hope so.
Most men have some trouble getting that. The occasional talk is needed.
So you're liking stevia, are you? I like it if there's fruit or cream involved, and it's not too bad in Judg Fudg. If you like it in straight tea, so much the better. It won't set you up for diabetes, and there are no weird chemicals involved.
Judg - we're cross posting! :)
Yes, the stevia is working nicely in my tea. :) It tastes just like real sugar.
That should help you a lot. A little bowl of frozen blueberries with stevia and cream tastes just as good to me as a bowl of ice cream. It tastes decadent, but it isn't. Best of both worlds.
well - its not completely primal......... but close-ish :) I'm baking a cornbread made with almond flour and honey instead of wheat flour and sugar. The corn meal technically is not primal......... but, what else goes with chili - but cornbread??? I'm anxious to see how it turns out! :)
[QUOTE=tomi;1006443]well - its not completely primal......... but close-ish :) I'm baking a cornbread made with almond flour and honey instead of wheat flour and sugar. The corn meal technically is not primal......... but, what else goes with chili - but cornbread??? I'm anxious to see how it turns out! :)[/QUOTE]
I'd like to know also. Could use it in stuffing next week, if you share........:D
I used the recipe off the cornmeal box and just changed out almond meal/flour for reg. flour - and honey for sugar. :) Its almost done so I will tell you in ............. minutes..... tick tock.... tick tock....
ooops - forgot to finish this and click "post"!
Yes, the cornbread turned out wonderful! I ate a peice that was way too big!! actually didn't finish it.
up at 12:30 am. For some reason I keep waking up...........
Well, looks like my son may have found a house! :) He's expecting a counter-offer tomorrow. Its awesome - has a 3 bedroom/2 bath main house, plus a guest house with a renter already in it. Just the guest house rent would cover 1/2 his mortgage payment - and they have already asked if he is willing to let the current tennant stay. He can rent out the other 2 rooms in the mainhouse and probably have more than his mortgage covered. :) Smart kid! :) IF this goes through I could be helping him move before Christmas! :) Yeah!
Beanless chili is doing a number on my tummy - maybe thats why I'm not sleeping. It is a killer chili! :) better go back to bed. I'm so looking forward to having a totally stay home day tomorrow --- well, except hubby says we may have to deliver a boat to Grants Pass so could be leaving tomorrow evening. Its a 6 hour drive! So, spend the night in Eugene or someplace most likely I guess??? Tomorrow is step daughter #1's birthday - hubby hasn't mentioned anything about it so I'm guessing they celebrated the day they all went to the football game??????? I'll send her a happy birthday text and fb note - thats all she's getting from me. She didn't even acknowledge mine in July - neither step daughter did. Typical.