The holidays are federally recognized holidays - days the banks and post offices will be closed. The two mandatory days off are days when the General is closing down the offices. All personnel are required to take the day off. Military will get the day off free of charge, but civilians like myself will have to burn a day of vacation, which is fine because they're days I would have taken off anyway (day after Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve).
And dang it, if I can't nail my colonel and his deputy to their chairs, we aren't going to be able to go over the calendars for the next 4 weeks, which they both want to do, and I'm going to end up coming back to work after I donate blood, which I don't want to do. I have high aspirations of maybe doing my grocery shopping this afternoon so I don't have to dink with it this weekend... Maybe I should just call the blood center and reschedule for like 1:30 instead of 12:30 and then we can do the stupid calendar at 11:30... we can't do it next week b/c the Colonel is in DC all until Thursday.
Ok... rescheduled blood appointment for 1:00, the latest they'll go on Fridays at the blood center. I just gave up a half hour of leave for these people... they better be able to do calendars at 11:30 or I'm leaving at 12:30, whether we're done or not. grrrr...
Nothing much to say, just stopping by to say hi and happy Friday! I hope you're able to get through the calendar stuff and get out of there!
Not sure if I'm disappointed or intrigued... I tried ice cream and dew again tonight. Couldn't even get through half of it and decided that was enough. Not sure what was unappealing to me, but for the first time in my life, I have not wanted to finish it.
And I'm not sure what is causing the problem, but I have this constant need to clear my throat in the morning and in the evenings b/c it always feels phlegmy... ideas?
Allergies or dairy, but my first guess is allergies since it's only morning & evening.
Sounds like allergies. Check to see which allergens are high right now in your area.
Oh congratulations! Not being able to finish your float is a red letter day! :) Nice to see addictions eroding away.
I don't think that'll be my last... I'm sure I'll try again when that craving strikes, but yesterday was a good sign that my days of dew floats are coming to an end.
In a similar vein, I'd been adding far less sweetener to coffee while on vacation. Today I put in my normal amount and was appalled by its sweetness. Things are a-changin'.
Buzz off Irene. I'm in no mood.
Beware the Brain dump
Lot of stuff weighing on my brain right now. Need time to digest it before I write about it.
Cold as hell today. It's 46 degrees outside and since the air hasn't been turned off at work yet, it feels like 36 in here. I could really go for a hot mug of something warm to drink. But, I don't like coffee and I don't feel like going upstairs and paying a buck for hot water to make tea with. Might have to rejoin the water club so I can get some hot water for like $5 a month... Need a mug. I think iced tea season is about over.
Got a lot of cleaning done this weekend. Since we weren't racing this weekend and Brad was working on Saturday, I took that opportunity to start cleaning. Brady and I fought about who should do what in the living room and it turned ugly. He was crying, I was yelling. It wasn't pretty at all. I feel so terrible. Why do I lose my patience with him so quickly??? It's just like when I was growing up fighting with my parents all the time. I hated it and my childhood sucked as a result. I don't want the same for him. I must work on my patience with him.
But, despite the tears and anger this weekend, I managed to get this much stuff done:
picked up, dusted and vacuumed the living room
picked up and vacuumed our bedroom where they watch tv
cleaned 3 ceiling fans
cleaned kitchen, swept, mopped twice
cleaned upper and lower cabinet faces
folded lots of laundry
went through most of kids clothes - one basket left which I believe is all Makenna's and all too small.
Brad made a snide comment about a diaper I'd left in Makenna's room and that set off a new episode of the blame game. I mentioned that I picked up about 8 diapers out of Brady's room (he still wets the bed, so he wears a Huggies GoodNights to bed each night and apparently changes it in the middle of the night b/c I collected a pile of them and put them in the trash last night). Brad's response was "I wonder who he gets that from" insinuating that his leaving things around is learned from me. I told him that I think we're both guilty of doing the same thing - case in point, he leaves his socks and underwear all over the place. He denied this, so I said "if you're so good at putting your stuff away, how bout you put your clothes away that are folded in the basket in the dining room". He did. For the first time in MONTHS! He normally lives out of his laundry basket in the dining room. I folded more clothes later so it'll be interesting to see if they remain there or if he puts them away this afternoon.
He's having a bit of an issue with his dad. Friday night Brad REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to go racing and asked his dad if they could. His dad said they didn't have the money to race and that they were going out for dinner. Brad was really upset by this and called me questioning how they could go out to dinner but his dad said they couldn't afford a $25 pit pass for his dad to go racing. So, he didn't talk to his dad all weekend. This morning his dad texted him inquiring if he was upset and he explained to his dad why he was upset. His dad said that MIL got a check and they used that to go out for dinner and explained that it costs them more than $25 to go racing b/c they have to put fuel in the race car, fuel in the truck, pit pass for FIL and admission ticket for MIL plus the food she eats at the track. Brad is still upset b/c he said there was a payout check from racing last weekend that could have been used for this weekend. I asked him if he's upset b/c his dad said there was no money when he thinks there was or if he's upset because he feels like his dad doesn't want to race as much as he does... I haven't heard back from him yet.
But, I think it's the latter. And I think this because I don't think Brad's depression is well controlled. I read something somewhere that people with depression will seek thrills (endorphin rushes) through dangerous activities (of which there's no denying racing is) and sex. They will get down, angry and sometimes suicidal if they can't get their "fix". Brad gets down easily, and gets pissy easily, more so when we're not racing weekly. I hope he doesn't get suicidal.
Luckily, he started taking his medication again last week. I don't blame FIL for wanting to take a week off. Brad is really good at agreeing to take some time off of racing (like at the end of the season to gear up for a big special or something - like is planned for 2 weeks out from now) and then when the weekend comes, talking his dad into racing, whether there is money or not. He's been diagnosed as bipolar once before, but we ignored the diagnosis b/c his dad and sister were also both diagnosed as bipolar by the same doctor and his sister's diagnosis was later overturned by another psychologist. I don't know if bipolar is the right diagnosis, but I definitely think something is going on there. And then there's the sex thing... it's like he can't get enough. It's kind of annoying how he thinks he needs it every single effing day! Seriously! Take a damn break!
And then there is what I read in Primal Body Primal Mind this weekend. I was adamantly against him using testosterone supplements from the get-go, but learned this weekend that low testosterone is often a symptom, not a condition and should be treated as a symptom and not just supplemented b/c it won't work long term and will cause more harm than good. I need to get him at a good time and have him read that section of the book. The book, if I am paraphrasing properly, says that his low testosterone is caused by a screwed up leptin which has screwed up so many other hormone systems. That's the short version b/c I don't have the book with me so I can't quote it properly, but the gist of it is that his testosterone is screwed up b/c he's eating poorly and needs to take the time to fix his leptin so other things can function properly, he loses weight, thus loses belly fat that over produces estrogen, which limits his body's way of producing testosterone, or something similar to that. It said that while having low testosterone is not good for him, supplementing with bioidentical hormone therapies is worse. I'll have to re-read it and make sure I've got that right. it also said that this whole leptin thing can cause depression and anxiety.
Anyhow, that's what's bothering me that I didn't want to talk about at first... but I did, so there you have it. And I really think that if he doesn't face the problems and fix them instead of just medicating them, it's never going to get better and it's going to make for a long miserable life with each other. Both of us, and our kids, deserve better than that.
He did, however, go to the Myotech Sleep Center to see about getting a mouth piece for his sleep apnea. They have asked him to have a new sleep study done and start using his cpap again. Hopefully he'll use it and it'll help with more than just his sleep.
Anyhow, sorry to download on everyone, but sometimes you have to dump the load and go through it to see if it's worth carrying around anymore...