Feeling slender this morning
First, my honey told me I looked good. Compliments from him are few and far between, so that felt great. And when I put on my pants, purchased new(well, thrift store new) in February, they were charmingly loose. I have four days of good eating under my belt after being sick, and I am feeling in fine fettle.
This was yesterday:
Up at 6:15
10:30 8oz porkchop
2T green salsa
2 eggs fried in
1:30 4 sausages
1 1/2C romaine
4:15 1 1/2 meatballs (had to test!)
6:20 13 meatballs in
low-carb french bbq sauce
2C Siobhan's zuccini thing
9:00 1C chocolate whipped cream
Water: 9 glasses
Bed at 11:00
I was not hungry at 9:00 - I just wanted something sweet. But I took the time to make a low-sugar treat, and sat down to eat it, and didn't just shovel a handful of chocolate chips into my mouth. So, I'll count that as a win.
And, a nice long walk with my honey. Longer than he wanted (I forgot his knee was bothering him) but we got trapped in the land of cul-de-sacs, so it was a good hour before we got back. And it is nice to just have time on our own, with nothing to do but talk.
I love it when the hunger and meals just flow together. I am not feeling like I am thinking about it, working at it. I'm just doing it. Eating when I am hungry or have a desire for a treat, and not thinking about it in between. And not going crazy for more and MORE after a treat. Instead, feeling satisfied, and thinking how delicious it was.
I was very hungry before dinner yesterday, while I was out running around with Littlest, but it was an "I'm looking forward to dinner, let's hurry to get home" hunger, not "I can't stand it, let me buy a bag of chips and shovel them in" hunger.
Life is good.
Up very early this morning
Not on purpose. The dogs got me up, and while I was in the bathroom I woke up the rest of the way, to the point where lying back down again is futile. Given the choice between journals, or dishes...well, here I am.
Here's what went down yesterday:
Up at 6:00
9:15 7 meatballs in
french barbeque sauce(?gC-forgot to figure it)
2C Siobhan's zuccini thing
3:30 jicama slices
spinach-cream cheese dip
1/2C cinnamon-splenda pecans
6:00 1 1/2 ground lamb patties
1C cucumber-yogurt raita
2 falafel (12gC)
1 square dark chocolate (7gC)
Water: 10 glasses
Bed at 10:00
About 11:00 I had some extreme frustration due to the sink backing up and futile attempts to get the outflow cover off so I could snake the pipe. Mindless eating was calling. But I resisted. I made a huge pan of cinnamon-splenda pecans for my retreat this weekend, and did paperwork.
In the evening, I had some abdominal pressure from gas, which I am certain came from the falafel. But it was worth it. Very yummy, and just right with the lamb and raita. Definitely a 20% moment.
I've been putting aside a serving of our meals in the freezer for the last couple of days, so that I'll be ready with a selection of good food for my retreat this weekend. I meant to put away some of the zuccini, but it got gobbled up too quickly. The dogs looked very sad to see the lamb be boxed up. I've got some curry in there, and meatballs, and tomorrow I'm mixing up chicken salad. I'll also be bringing crudites and a cheese plate, so I think I will be set up to eat well. I know there will be chocolate galore, but as long as I can balance it with plenty of protein, I'm not going to stress about that.
I'm planning my monthly fast for just after the retreat, and I am actually looking forward to it. I never expected that. But it feels like it will be a rest. This interests me, that my attitude toward fasting is evolving this way, and so quickly. Two times, and I am not thinking, 'can I do it,' 'this will be hard', but rather, 'this will be a nice break'. I know that after retreat I will really be in a sewing mood, so I am planning to use my non-eating time to get a lot done on various quilt projects. I'm thinking that my goal will be for three days after I hit the point of being hungry.
But right now, I am enjoying planning the meals for today. I'm coming for you, sweet potatoes!