What happens when I go away for two days, spend tons of time in the sun, breathe lots of fresh air, swim, and eat nothing but pastured pork, coconut oil, blueberries, cantaloupe, 2 strawberries, & at the very end, grassfed beef with natural spices?
I gain 4.5lb. :P
Bloat bloat bloat. The beef definitely seemed to contribute, but I have to wonder if the pork over time did, too. :(
Woke up at "only" 148 this morning. Felt very disturbed & tired this evening. I've been having very vivid & bothersome dreams lately, and inefficient sleep, and wonder if getting back on l-tryp will help.
Just ran out of GABA & l-tyro. I don't think I need them as much.
I dreamed about ice cream & tater tots two nights ago and, sure enough, had cravings last night. That's why I ate the beef .. I had already had a ton of pork & fat, and needed desperately to eat something delicious, adn the only thing that wasn't horribly off-elimination-diet-plan was the already-cooked beef.
Nothing but pork & blueberries & the same beef today (ran out of pork temporarily).
Alright, after three weeks on the elimination diet, I learned that I think my problem really may be eating too much protein/fat at once. I think my digestion just may not be able to handle the BAB, but of course, I desperately needed the BAB to save me from BED.
Notice I said "needed" - the amino acids seemed to kick in finally. I'm not sure if it just took a month or two, or if it was finally increasing the DPA + DLPA (2 of each 3x/day), or if it was adding the Essential Aminos (3 3x/day) (I'm pretty sure this did something big), but I am on the border of not caring what I eat anymore. I keep accidentally upping the fruit (whole fruit), and definitely still overeat if I get my hands on dried pineapple or other (mostly tart) fruit (but oddly, not raisins), but I don't even like the TJ's peppermint patties that are just choc, pepp oil, & honey!
I think I *need* something in the GABA/l-tryp combo for solid sleep, and I think I figured out why. Check this out, from a description of sleep problems in some with hypermobility syndrome:
[COLOR=#333333][FONT=lucida grande]"If they are able to fall asleep, they may continue to make too much adrenaline overnight, giving them a shallow, dream-filled sleep, so that they wake feeling unrefreshed."
That describes my sleep issues to a T. Haven't I been saying this all along, that I feel I spend too much time in the dream state and don't get enough of the deep sleep? It says that the adrenaline comes from the body trying to compensate for (daytime?) fatigue (caused by other things?). Certainly that would make sense in my case.
With the GABA/l-tryp combo, I was sleeping solidly every night, and waking after 8hrs sometimes (instead of 9-10, unrested). I ran out of l-tryp, my sleep went downhill after a week or so, got more. Ran out of GABA, got more, tried one, got a big headache, decided to hold off. I've been out about two weeks now and just last night I woke at 5am after 6hrs of sleep and couldn't get back to sleep (in the middle of a cycle of wake/dream/wake/dream/wake/dream where I couldn't tell which part I was in but for the fact that I knew I wasn't naked in a field). The solution to adrenaline is to mop it up with beta blockers(?) I guess Valium stuff, and I think GABA should fit the bill nicely. So I'll try it again soon.
I'm very surprised I haven't collapsed yet after getting only 6hrs last night. I got sleepy late morning, but didn't succumb. Better than last week (when dried fruit gave me 5lb of bloat/water) when I got wiped out by sleepiness mid-day twice, giving me an unwanted hour and a half nap.
Got a new doc last week and thin khe might be a keeper. Nice medium between allopathic and voodoo doctor. Neither/nor. He Rx'd more Naturethroid, down to 1.5/day (not sure he's right about this) and DSF Herbal, which is an adrenal support combo that appears to have ... amino acids in it! in addition to herbs. Tastes awful! It says to take 1/day and he has me on 2 on rising and 2 at noon! After two days, I made it through today without yelling or headaches. I kept almost flinching, expecting a headache when my boys would cross me, and ... it didn't come. I didn't get worked up. I didn't just *want* to stay calm; I *did* stay calm. (90% of the time, much better than the last few years.) Could it be ...?
Was 145.25 last week, but now 150 again. Thanks, bloat. :P Size 8s still fit, though, so not sure what's up with that.[/FONT][/COLOR]
Alright, still doing pretty well. I think the AA's are doing some major work here, and the DSF, too.
I was pondering today why so many timelessly famous composers were depressed, and the fact that I noticed a few months ago that singing (and listening to fabulous music of all types) is a major lift for me, and the fact that I read something about a connection between opera singing and poor health (but it seemed like a negative connection?) ... I wonder if music really does boost endorphins significantly enough to help, as I posited a few months ago? Do I sing b/c I desperately need the lift, just like I binge b/c (unbeknownst to me) my brain desperately needs the hit? Do they do the same thing? Can I assume that music does it in a safer, healthier way?
Popped another music video on youtube tonight. Take 4 minutes to watch it and leave me a comment to let me know what you think! I had fun doing it. [url=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fMWbPO2fUw&feature=em-upload_owner]Someone Like You Cover Adele - YouTube[/url] Especially when my 11yo stomped in b/c he was made about his math. :)
I had a bit of a binge-y period yesterday with GF cake (just a 1/3 of a slice), & some totally paleo trail mix. I really didn't have too much, but felt like I could have just kept eating and eating if I wasn't already full from dinner. I'm out of DLPA, but taking DPA still, not sure what's triggering that.
Had sushi last night and then detox overnight (waking up sweating 2hrs too early and unable to get back to sleep). Must have been soy sauce (wheat) in the sauce, although the waitress claimed none. I hate getting poisoned.
Energy & mood are staying fairly strong, although one week ago, I had a total breakdown - massive migraine (never had one in my life) + emotional chaos. Dunno why, other than stress from an abusive HOA. I ate maple-pecan clusters (soaked, organic, etc.) that day (a whole tiny bag), but it was only less than 20g carbs ... can't see how that could have caused the headache, but when I ate the same later in the week again, I did get a small headache ... Odd.
I think hypermobility is an accurate Dx for me; I never realized that not everyone can touch thumbs to forearms or bend pinky beyond 90 degrees or put palms on the floor if they stretch enough. Might explain my hobby of cracking every joint I have and harmlessly dislocating and relocating my shoulders and hips on command.
I would like to work really hard this week on bloating. It was going down, but got much worse last night. I am down to 5oz protein every morning and trying hard not to have too much to eat for lunch & dinner, especially meat & fruit, whcih I can easily eat to oblivion. I seem to be doing okay with whole fruit most of the time (for once), although cherries seem to give me a bit of stomach discomfort sometimes, maybe when I've just had too much of a meal?
I'm still at 145.5-148 and can't lose anything, despite daily DIM and Calc d-gluc and saw palmetto. I don't have any idea what to do to get rid of this weight. It's not coming off like it easily did before the DHEA 20lb-in-two-months weight gain fiasco.
So anyway, I want to keep track of my meals and how I feel this week and see if I can pin down anything with the bloating.
Oh, and what the frak, I broke out in hives two weeks ago! Never in my life have I had hives! Still can't figure out why; I ate nothing unusual that day and did nothing unusual!
You probably have already considered this, but estrogen crashes can cause nasty migraines, night sweats and weight gain/ no loss issues. Just a thought. Peri-menopause symptoms usually start in your later 30s, early 40s. Wonky hormones are very frustrating as they fluctuate.
Bkfst: beef tongue, beef broth, pork sausage
Lunch: bit of ground beef, pork sausage, bratwurst. Don't have much of an appetite. ~2oz mixed cherry-cranberry juice.
Dinner: andouille + bell peppers + salad. 2oz cran-cherry
Yes, estrogen is definitely behind the weight gain. My DHEA supp seems to have converted to estrogen and given me 24/7 PMS, including bloating, weight gain, mood swings, headaches, fatigue, the works. Got off the DHEA and onto some estrogen-sponges and lost some, but still battling the rest.
I do not believe that it is natural to have a decade of misery preceding menopause, so if I am having peri-menopausal "symptoms," something is still wrong. I've asked my doc to help me decide whether BHRT might be a part of my healing regimen, and we'll be looking at that at my next visit.
The night sweats, for me, are always due to being poisoned by something, usually bad oils. They're rare and always always come the night after eating something I shouldn't have.
I had tons of gas last night, like the kind I haven't had in many, many years. Was it the dried fruit and nuts I ate? Didn't feel like *that* much of it, and it's never had that effect on me before...?
147 yesterday, 146 today. Up and down and up and down. No rhyme or reason.j
POISON IVY!!! Itchitchitchitchitchitch
I nearly had a nervous breakdown confronting my abusive HOA last week. Not good. I have never yelled at a stranger in my life, but when someone stood in my very nicely maintained yard, told me it was "rough," and then accused me of lying about putting down 100 bags of mulch last spring ... I lost it.
My sympathies....I swore off HOA neighborhoods 20 years ago. Way too stressful!
Insomnia strikes again. Is it the DSF Herbal or maybe the GABA? I cannot afford to be up for 2hrs in the middle of the night when I cannot function without 9-9.5hrs sleep. Getting up at 10:30am cannot keep happening!