this lady makes me want to run out and do pull ups on a tree
even tho my back is fricken killing me right now
[url=http://www.stumptuous.com/a-couple-good-reasons-and-one-bad-one-to-drag-your-crippled-ass-to-the-gym]A Couple Good Reasons (and One Bad One) to Drag Your Crippled Ass to the Gym :: stumptuous.com[/url]
the title had me intrigued, but this sold me
[quote]And for the record: I use words like “crippled” a lot – this bothers some people. If you’re one of those people, I’m sorry.
Also: CRIPPLED! CRIPPLED! CRIPPLED! CRIPPLED! CRIPPLED![/quote]
welp, more farm trek walking made everything hurt and stiffen up times ten
so i've taken a muscle relaxer and a pain pill because i was tired of toughing it out because earlier pill wasn't cutting it
so if i start wandering around naked, it's because i'm high again and real life doesn't feel real again and i'm sorry for what you may see as i'm not bikini season ready yet
i got outside things :o outside things are for sale already :o
wisteria vine? check
sweet little curly-cue hangable fern? check
more fertilizer? check
small outdoor solar lights? check
do they change colors? i think so
these things and the growing seasons make me feel alive in a way that few things do
i have my eye on you too, outdoorsy wicker chair. when i get done doing what i gotta do, you're mine. which will probably be a month from now. renovating and cleaning take time and money. but i got my eye on you. i will have you. or a reasonable facsimile thereof
also, an aunt's small dog was holding his toy in his mouth for security while occasionally woofing around it at me. he's a bamf.
i was gonna re-plot a rose and the lavenders, but i got hit by the lazies and stiffnies and sorenessies so i haven't done that yet.
the new dirt is half frozen anyways
and gay panda's tooth brush in a cake reminded me or a grown adult's food caked tooth brush. it was gross. but she was grown and crazy, so i guess brushing your teeth while eating was normal in her world
it looked like corn bread
the branding has begun, but i kinda like it in this case
[url=http://www.theprimalhome.com]The Primal Home[/url]
nothing you can't find anywhere or make yourself, but the little hippie in my medulla oblongata is pleased
and pills are working. i am tired and noodly.
several days spent eating without worrying or bashing myself on the nutrient content has been much needed. the not self bashing, i mean.
it's nice. and that part can relax while the rest of me rides the emotions rollercoaster. i've been numb, angry, sad, tired and all of the above for a while now. but i've still been going to bed mostly on time and waking up not feeling like death, so hooray
and i don't think it's safe to burn leaves while the wind is blowing. i could be wrong, but i mean, you know, i don't think it is.
but leaf burning is another perk of being rural. i like it. you should try it some time.
I once burned a pizza box in a driveway (with lighter fluid) and the wind picked up. Cue layers of corrugated cardboard scattering everywhere.
and when that happens when you're surrounded by trees that still have dead leaves, the prayer you say is 'ohhh crap' ;)
eckhart tolle is an awkward turtle
and i am full of mom food
i did more farm trekking
i felt safe with my aunt's german shepherd trotting with me (so many coyotes and giant man killing cats). and he felt safe climbing into my car, front and back, to sniff around. thanks muddy-pawed pup
my gramma's bird is a weird turtle. i got him out and clucked with him, and made kissy noises with him, and then he and i communed with each other via forehead to forehead contact. no, i don't know what he was thinking, but it was sweet so i stayed with him like that for a while and i had a feeling i wasn't understanding the looks and noises he was giving me
maybe it was 'let's put an egg in that nest'
in which case.. wow, that's really nice of you to say but i don't like you like that. but we can still be friends?
i'm tired. and i'm disappointed that mister tolle didn't directly answer the question of 'what's the purpose of mental illness'. because it'd be kinda nice to know. my niece was joking about a teacher she doesn't like with us, and said '(insert mental illness facility) didn't even want her'
well.. they wanted me. and they had me. and i didn't like it. but i didn't say anything and neither did my parents. but it was still awkward and somewhat painful.
so i'm kind of disappointed by mister tolle. there is no real purpose to it except for funny stories at parties.
what the f, how could i forget this
i... am... so... tired..........
and why was i not in formed that papayas are disgusting to look at and disgusting to taste. WHY DO THE SEED BITS SQUISH. WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE TINY THINGS ARE GROWING INSIDE.
i wonder if i can take the bowl full of spooned flesh to the store with the receipt and say 'i want a refund'
'what is this?'
AND WHY IS MY NOSE TRYING TO DRIP ON MY FACE
boneless ribs have taken the place of roast because the ribs and a bunch of steaks were on 'about to rot' sale, so om nom? nom nom nom? they are thick, son.
i'm tired. i don't want to do anything. i don't want to yard work, i don't want to clean, i don't want to social, i just want to go to sleep and wake up with the food magically not be a thick black crust in the pan
[QUOTE=bloodorchid;1083823]AND WHY IS MY NOSE TRYING TO DRIP ON MY FACE
i just want to go to sleep and wake up with the food magically not be a thick black crust in the pan[/QUOTE]
1. Nose runs on face because it can't run on your back.....
2. Carbon is primal.... go with it..... besides Sweet Baby Rays can make a BRICK taste good!