i'm glad you didn't OD to death, robert downey jr
so sometimes i need to take hydros so i can get comfortable enough to sleep. i am officially in reality now as far as my conditions go. i don't like it though.
i'm in 3 grieving steps at once. anger, depression & whatever else
but i guess i can be that person. crippled physically and mentally, and i probably won't get the hot ass i want. at least not without lots of pill popping
unless leg press machines might work. at this point i won't even assume.
but breakfast/lunch was steak and cabbage and cheesey broccoli and annie's mac and white cheese with bacon crumbled in it because why the hell not. why the hell not.
i'm too tired for this
Oh, bloodorchid, I'm sorry. :( Bodies can be such frustrating things, and insult to injury is that we're stuck in them.
there will come a day when people can remove their heads and place them on other bodies, just like on futurama
damn you, wildgorillaman. your incessant updates of round succulent muscly lady buttcheeks has given me renewed hope
i've been awake for 24 hours. copious amounts of caffeine helped in this endeavor.
there was even coffee.
i couldn't fall asleep last night so i went foraging in the far recesses of google play and downloaded some more handy apps. that took a while. then when i thought maybe i could fall asleep, it was too close for mail time, and i had a package due today
so that got here, and i yayed when i opened it, for the items i bought were hippieful and smellsome. i am going to be the best smelling after shower vanilla greaseball ever. vanilla and [i]monoi oil[/i]
so i was awake more after that so i internetted a while, then sat out in the sun reading a while, soaking up some rays and making vitamin d a while, which reminds me i haven't taken my vitamins today a while. and yeah, i'm getting loopy now.
but there are audiobooks on youtube! stephen king, even! i can keep myself occupied with king and poe while doing my hamster wheel routine
but i think i might need a nap first. and maybe a pill. still sore.
when i choose to show 'everything' on my youtube subscription list, it shows random makeup and humor vids. when i click 'highlights' it shows all workout vids hahaha
yes i know, universe. i chose this, i want this.
i downloaded a sleep tracker app so i could get a graph view of how terrible my sleep is
my nails are friggen hard as rocks. i bet i could crawl up and down walls like the licker on resident evil *crunch crunch crunch RAPTOR SHRIEK tongue flobbling everywhere*
for some reason i bought a jar of turkey gravy when i went grocery getting. i was hungry when i went shopping, and now i look at it and think '...why?'. and annie's mac, though made with rice flower, hits my pcos like wheat. and of course i spelled it flower instead of flour. of course.
and so is this. thank you again, youtube
are you giving me the sexy eye? because it is persuasive
i. am. determined! to watch. the walking dead. before i lay down for bedtime.
was well enough to visitate relatives today finally. but i slept yesterday, then this morning to this afternoon, and i'm ready for more sleep. but dammit i will do some form of exercise before i sleep! i'll even do one of the videos from that annoying lady on youtube if i have to! and i won't even log it on fitocracy if it means i can yawn my butt into covers
i've been making it a point to walk more the last few days. that must count for something :p
i got told i looked smaller again. i don't know what's disappearing from where, the scale hasn't changed. but cool, cool
steak and diced up potatoes and some shrimp for supper, veggies and MUHEAT for lunch. we did pretty okay.