I am in some kind of funk. I started to feel worse and worse last night. Incredibly anxious, irritable, sad. I slept in the fluffy bed because Hulky stayed up a little later playing video games and I couldn't stop thinking about the laundry he wasn't picking up from my parents' house. I thought I slept well, aside from getting a bit stuffed up from allergies, but I woke up and felt exhausted and depressed. My gut wasn't happy with me yesterday and I went to the bathroom too many times. Maybe it was too much halvah. I know too much almond butter tends to have that effect on me.
I had hardboiled eggs for breakfast this morning. Was too lazy to put salt on them, which was regretful. I'll definitely boil some eggs over the weekend to prepare for biking next week. I might be able to bike on Friday this week, but the forecast hasn't looked good. I'm glad to have a day of rest after yesterday, my legs were tired on the stairs this morning, but that might have more to do with my apparent poor sleep than exercise.
Hulky drove me in to work and will pick me up tonight. His work schedule is 10 hrs, 10 hrs, 6 hrs, 6 hrs, 8 hrs, for the week. Too bad Friday isn't a shorter day! He'll be hanging out with me for my last 1/2 hr of work. I hope I can look sufficiently busy while he's here. We'll have to do this again tomorrow because of the rain. On longer days, I'll drop him off and pick him up, instead, since I'll have more time from the end of my day till his shift is over.
My knee hurts a bit more today than yesterday. I didn't even look at it this morning, but I suspect it's from the scabs & fresh skin getting pulled/broken when I bend my leg. I want to be able to squat! I can tell my shoulders are getting pulled forward from the cycling & sitting at the computer all day.
A co-worker is moving to CA soon to a new office in Costa Mesa. I'm pretty jealous.
I keep getting cravings for coffee this week. I might have some decaf with a bit of half and half. I think I just want something warm and...savory? Not sweet. Hot chocolate just makes me think of getting a stomach ache or phlegmy throat.
Hulky is scaring me right now. He emailed me to say he was leaving work an hour ago to come to my office. It only takes 20-30 minutes to get here, and there's no traffic. He left his phone at home today. I don't know what to do.
Maybe he stopped someplace or didn't actually leave yet? Maybe someone stopped him on the way out to talk to him? Or maybe something happened on his way out that he had to address (work related) and he hasn't been able to contact you?
Try not to panic. There are a million different possible reasons why he's not there yet. Maybe he got a flat in the car, even...
Please, don't panic.
Hope all is ok with Hulky.
Everything is okay. He got to my work, but then decided to go open an account for us at the credit union in my work's town. He got back right around when my shift ended, so it was a good idea :). Excited to have a joint account!
And then he took me out for Mexican food and I had an AMAZING steak. I definitely ate the beans.
Love Mexican food, great dinner. That kind of thing happens from time to time and causes me anxiety too. Where is he, where is he. I usually start worrying about 10pm. By 11 I'm phoning police, hospitals, Highway patrol, etc. Then he comes in and reminds me that he told me where he was going the that he'd be late, the day before. Oh Yeah!
Hulky didn't tell me he was going anywhere except here, so it was worrying! I am becoming his personal reminder/calendar. I kept reminding him to pay the excise tax on the car (due today) and will no longer let him forget his phone. His memory is so much better when he's active. He said he's going to look into getting involved with an adult soccer league. I can't wait to go to a game :).
I've got a ham bone, or will this evening when I clean the leftover ham that my mom gave me from Pascha. What should I do with it? I've never worked with a ham bone before. I'll Google for paleo ham bone recipes later. Soup, I'm sure, will be the answer.
The cut of meat is not great. There's a lot of stringy tissue and fat in the piece. I don't mind it that much, but there's not much actual protein! Hulky is carefully picking around the "gross" bits. I have some pieces with slices of swiss cheese for lunch today. I might break into it soon because I'm pretty hungry. I had my 3 eggs for breakfast this morning, but that is proving to not be enough food. I want cantaloupe! That is on the grocery list for this weekend. I still need to make yogurt for my dad.
I still haven't gotten around to getting Zantac and this morning, I didn't leave myself enough time to use the neti pot, so my throat is extra sore from post nasal drip. I hope I am healthy enough to avoid a sinus infection. Unfortunately, since I need to run errands tonight (Zantac, Allegra, cat food, eggs, dear Whatever I hope this comes in under $70), I can't go to a friend's house for a post-Pascha party. I missed it last year too because I didn't have transportation. I hate missing out on free food :p. I can't risk not getting back before the stores close (pet store closes at 9 PM, though Whole Foods and CVS are open till 10 PM).
I took 200mg of 5-HTP last night on a whim and was groggy this morning. I'll go back to 150 and if my odd moods continue, maybe I'll try 100. I don't feel a boost after taking it in the evening like I used to, so I think the dose might be too high. My libido has vanished again and I think it's mostly due to stress, but I am curious if my progesterone is still low. I haven't been taking Vitex.
Right now, tomorrow's forecast is for thunderstorms, but only 20% chance of precipitation. I want to ride my bike, but I'm scared!
I'm worrying about budget again. I want to go ahead and place my Vitacost order, but I have a new bill from the doctor's office that I didn't expect for about $57. Debt can wait, right? I want my health back.