I haven't read a lot of your older posts but have you ever considered SAD - seasonal affected disorder? I feel myself descending into the abyss these days too. I was on antidepressants in the winter until a forward thinking doctor suggested sitting infron of a SAD lite in the morning. NO more pills for me. It worked great. I had to do it from midish Sept to late March in Canada where it is really dark a lot in the winter.. I am in Houston now and my doc wondered if I may not need it here. This is my first fall and although it may be more related to not eating wheaty carbs for the first time in my life I am feeling very blue and anxious. If this doesn't go away I will try the light again.
Just a thought as I read your post today:)
NK - thanks, I will keep you in mind. Helps to know someone is out there and willing to listen. I rarely take people up on their offers, not sure why. Reaching out is hard, I guess.
Snoops - Don't feel like you have to read all this :) Oh I know I have/had SAD. My Vitamin D levels are much better than they used to be, and I can definitely feel when they're not right. It's possible, due to my recent digestive issues, I'm not absorbing the D I've been supplementing. I should probably get those levels re-checked this month or next, so I know what dose is good for maintenance throughout the winter. I took 10,000 IU every day for several months and finally got in the mid-50s (ng/dl? something like that), which my doctor said was good enough, but I would rather it be higher, since I'm prone to deficiency. I've never looked into getting those lamps because it's a big investment up front. Anyway, I considered myself cured this year, since I was no longer getting "rainy day blues", but that issue may be resurfacing. I'll up my Vitamin D supplementation to 10k/day for the next week or so, just to make sure I'm covered.
 Also, took another dose of Tryptophan and I'm feeling a little better. That is less than 500mg for the day (finishing off the odd dosage bottle I had). Next bottle is 500mg/capsule, so one should be enough, unless I need more in the afternoon. We shall see.
I think I have time for a stroll to oggle Hallowe'en stuff at the party store today.
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Last night's dinner:
Note the 4 minute timer for the second side of the steak, and my awesome, glass, looks-like-a-diner-coffee-pot tea kettle. And you'll note that I had some applesauce last night, and BURNED MY TONGUE SO BADLY OMG. Otherwise I totally would have made more this morning. Also, I only have one type of apple now (not sure which)...not sure how good that'll taste, but there's always sugar! I wonder how molasses would taste in applesauce. Perhaps it is best to wait a day so I'm only having a few servings a fruit per week, to start with.
Mood is better today. Took 500mg of Tryptophan and the DLPA this morning. Hot DAMN my legs have been alternating being a bitch and a half since yesterday. I feel a muscle above the back of my knee tweaking (extends about halfway up to my butt), and it hurts when I walk. Right now, it's the left leg, but my right leg has been hurting too. WHAT DID I DOOOO??? Stretching my hamstrings feels like a different muscle, but I will keep stretching when I can. I want to go to Whole Foods tonight, but I am having a hard time finding the will to bike there. If I find the motivation, I hope my leggings keep me comfortable, since even though the temps have said up to 80F this week, it's been pretty cool (YAY!). Hmm...should I also splurge on some apple cider (if it's local)?
Because Boyfriend has been sick, I don't think he'll get the oils changed in the car, which means I can't go up to Maine this weekend. I wish my dad's car worked, so I could borrow one of my parents' cars, but it's been out of commission for at least a year now, no engine in it currently. The mid-coast bus schedule used to have a lot more times available for the trip, but I also don't want to make my grandmother drive anywhere (to pick me up). So I guess the canning supplies will have to wait. Too bad, I really would like to go up soon. I can't go 2 weekends from now because my mom needs me to take care of the dog on the 23rd. I can't go 3 weekends from now because I have a chiropractor appointment. So it looks like I'll have to wait till October, and just pray that the apples aren't all gone by then.
I'm still doing the no-poo (no SHAMpoo, though the other understanding of that is still true) experiment. I have only washed my hair with conventional shampoo a few times this year. Hard to believe! I use Head & Shoulders to make sure I get all the bleach out of my hair when I'm touching up my roots. A milder shampoo would probably be better to use (I used to love Johnson & Johnson's No Tears Baby Shampoo), but my scalp doesn't seem to freak out about it. My hair feels REALLY good for the first week to week and a half after bleaching, I guess that's because I've stripped out everything and my scalp is good at regulating oil now. But it builds up, since my water is hard, and baking soda never seemed to work well for me. I'm considering trying to use it again, but boiling the water beforehand (for 10 minutes, apparently), and adding the baking soda while it's cooling. This morning, I used one of the sampler shampoo bars I bought several months ago. It left my hair kind of dry feeling at the ends, but I felt like it helped spread the sebum and break up some of the build-up on my scalp. I haven't decided if I want to try using it again tomorrow, to make sure I have a really nice clean base to work with (restarting my efforts to find a good cleaning method for my head), or wait a day. I need to put my boar bristle brush back in my work backpack, since my hair usually finishes drying when I'm at work, and could probably use a good brushing at that point (I only comb when wet to get the part right).
If I get more coconut oil, I can use it for candy experiments (making fudge), cooking (only if I get refined), AND my hair.
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I wonder if applesauce and/or yogurt would make decent videos. Well, applesauce has some actual activity that could be documented (chopping & stirring), but yogurt would be trickier since part of the process needs to happen pretty quickly and I can't carry a camera around while I do it, or do it all in front of a camera (unless I set up a table right by the stove as a kind of counter). I get very nervous in front of the camera, but it might still be fun to do.
Hahahaha oh dear. I don't think it would go over well if I started emailing that to people at work, but it's SO TEMPTING.
If you have a rolling pin, bat, pole or stick it can help to roll muscles. Sometimes it's painful but it can help release tightness. An idea.
I do have a rolling pin. I'll give that a shot. No idea what I did, maybe it's just my body fighting against the chiropractic adjustment from last weekend.
It's a size too small (4 instead of 6, I keep forgetting), but I've been lusting after this dress for a few years now. I used to ogle it at Macy's on my way to the bus stop after a shift at Sony Style. Now it's at TJ Maxx for 50% off (now $60).
Thoughts? Does it make my hips look as square as I think they do? Damn my small bust, makes everything look too hippy. It's not quite as eggplanty as the photo looks (it's not black, which Boyfriend insists it is).
Whatever the color...it's sexy. Seriously, I think it compliments your figure very nicely. But I'm a guy; what do I know?