Must hydrate today. It is hot and I did some crying at therapy. I can feel the dryness in my head. My PaleoPax monthly tasting box arrived. It has some fancy fish in it that I might give to the cat. She's not eating much, even when we put the food and water in the AC.
I am very worn out right now, in all ways possible. I want to have something to talk about, but the only things I am capable of thinking of will make me upset right now. No blog post today, too fried. I went for a hug from Boyfriend after therapy, but I was too upset to say anything. I probably confused him with my fairly silent, sullen, and brief visit.
Boyfriend seems to be able to manage doing things for me right now, but not for himself. Doing things for himself is the only way he'll recover from this depression. I am trying to figure out how to ask him to help me with that nightmare last Friday night, what I [i]need[/i] so he can help me, and hopefully eventually help himself. Because I'm not doing so well with it on my own and he's all I've got.
Wait- he scared you and you're concerned about him being confused? Psh- he can stay confused until you've done what you need to unconfuse yourself. He'll get over it. Or not. You are your concern right now.
He's not all you've got. Ok, so I'm kinda far away, but we have a couch that could handle a surfer for a while if that's something you need. I know he's important, and I know you want to work this out, and I WANT you to work it out if you can- but don't forget that no matter what the situation, there is ALWAYS another option. Sometimes it's better, sometimes it's worse, but it's always there.
I've got access to a swampy area and no one would ask questions.
His mom would probably ask questions =P
I should really stay for another hour an a half until I can reasonably leave. I should *technically* stay for another 2 1/2 hrs so I'm not lying on my timesheet (which I already submitted). Even if going home means talking at Boyfriend and crying, I would rather do that than be here right now. Hunting desperately for internet things to distract myself with, as I have only one more task I can think of to keep me busy for the next 15 min or so.
[QUOTE=namelesswonder;877250]His mom would probably ask questions =P
I said a swamp, it's rather large.
Honey, if you need someone else in a "same kinda crazy" way, we have a futon, 2 sleeper sofa, an air matress and 250 counties in Texas for the 206 bones in the human body. (254 counties, technically, but I know 4 I'm not putting them in.)
"How's [Boyfriend] doing?"
"Is he going to come over to see the kids [nephews and niece] anytime soon?"
[QUOTE=namelesswonder;877267]"How's [Boyfriend] doing?"[/QUOTE]
No habla english.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough day. I hope it gets brighter for you.
[QUOTE=naiadknight;877265]Honey, if you need someone else in a "same kinda crazy" way, we have a futon, 2 sleeper sofa, an air matress and 250 counties in Texas for the 206 bones in the human body. (254 counties, technically, but I know 4 I'm not putting them in.)[/QUOTE]
Texas scares me a bit, though actually I should be afraid of Arizona now. Have a history with a dude that lived in Dayton (how I WISH I could forget the name, but I remembered it a couple of years ago and now I can't forget). I mostly came to terms with him in my head last year, but I still avoid thinking about it when I can.
That's a weird story for the ol' journal sometime.
Anyway, thanks for the well-wishes as always. I am being driven slightly crazy by the 3rd computer to kind of crash this week, but at least it kept me busy for a bit longer.