[QUOTE=Pebbles67;1304097]Things that I am celebrating today...
Wt. 216.2 again, after a party.
This is my lowest back to school weight in my entire 20 yr career.
I am a mere 6 lbs from my lowest primal weight.
I made 1 week binge free even with all of the emotional upheaval.
I went to a party yesterday without my husband and felt comfortable. I had zero social anxiety due to Aspergers. I was also able to teach my kids how to pretend to be an extrovert even if it isn't in your nature. Oh and I looked Hot!
I put aside my hurt, called the Director and accepted the background role. He was very happy. The next hurdle will be Mon night, the first cast meeting.
***All of the above circles back to the truth that when I eat clean Primal, everything is easier even when I am facing stressful situations.[/QUOTE]
This is AWESOME!!! :)
I've been playing around with some macros and supplements the last few weeks and have made some discoveries and decisions.
I upped l-tyrosine and 5htp to 3000 and 300mg respectively. I took 1500 l-t in the morning with 200 5htp and other aminos. I took the second dose of aminos in the afternoon, but I was taking the last 100mg 5htp at about 9pm . I definitely felt better with the higher doses, but my sleep was suffering. As an experiment, I decided to take my meds and the second dose of 5htp no later than 6pm. Now I am sleeping well again. I was always afraid to take 5htp during the day due to the possible sleepiness, but it is fine.
I've been attempting to do ADF again with clean low carb Primal. The thing is that I think my body is telling me to feed it. My DDs have been extremely hard. I have ended up overeating on the last three. Yesterday I ended up in a full blown binge. I felt exhausted and emotionally down yesterday afternoon. Today, post carb binge, my mood was elevated. I am temporarily dropping any kind of fasting. I am going to aim for 20% below my TDEE, 1900 cals. I will eat at least 100 grams of carb. I will aim to get 135 grams of protein or one g for each pound of LBM. The rest of my calories will come from fat, around 100 grams. I will track on MFP.
I will do this "feed myself" experiment for 30 days starting tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to binge less and keep emotions in a more stable place. I hate to think that there is no hope; that just because I am a middle aged, peri menopausal woman I have to keep suffering with the hormonal upheaval and binging. It may be absolutely true, but if I stop trying, I'll just end up back at 280lbs again.
I think this sounds like a good plan, Paula. Cheers from me!
I'm dropping the VLC thing too. I'm not even monitoring much anymore. I eat cashews and usually some small bit of veggie for dinner - usually potato or squash since it doesn't seem to cause the gastric issues. Low carb isn't helping me lose weight so why bother?
I'm just holding my own until I can see the doc about the bio-identical hormones. I'm sitting steady at 185 for the past 2 weeks. UGH!
I be this will make a huge difference. You seem to do best when eating clean and minimally adding in any other restrictions, especially given how much you do (exercise, work, rehearsals, etc)
Ugh, doubled over in pain from bloating and gas this am. Luckily it got better before school. Yes, I did eat badly last night, but this has been coming for a few days. I had the sulphur burps on Tuesday and indigestion the last 2 days. I have not officially started with the new food plan.
First back up singers rehearsal last night. Some of the harmonies are tough. I'd like to say that I am past the hard feelings about not being the lead, but it still hurts and I'm still kind of pissed. It doesn't help that it is PMS week. It will be fine as long as I post my true feelings here so that I don't give them away there.
Today is my first payday. I am happy to report that with my husband's new job, we will both be getting full time paychecks. I am feeling better about money for the first time in years. Time to implement some Dave Ramsey stuff.
Sorry about the icky feeling. I've just gotten over that myself after almost 2 weeks of very terrible eating.
How very awesome about the paychecks:)
Glad we're here to listen and help you vent. It's good to get it out instead of keeping it in. Hang in there.
I recommend ginger tea!
Good to hear about the financial stuff easing.
what they said, congrats on the paychecks! So sorry about the tummy. Glad you are able to find a "safe" place to vent.
I recommend Ginger Kombucha! :)
So exciting to hear that there is some relief financially -- yeah for 2 paychecks!
Its okay to be disappointed about losing out on the lead. Its something you really wanted, and were almost promised. Its normal to be let down and have XYZ feelings about it. Sing with all heart and enjoy it to the max! :)