Man, it sucks having too much month left over at the end of the money. And watching the gas gauge creep ever leftward, when you HAVE to get somewhere: ugh! That's when I get really glad that I can walk or bike for my errands. I know you live too far out for that, though. Good luck. At least your boys had some cash to loan you!
How did the preview go?
I had to borrow money from my sons last night and it did not feel good. I hope we can make the gas money last or I may have to take a day off from work.
I just recieved the following email from my husband...
"You need to start taking care of yourself, you look like you've gained
weight and are looking stressed out, you are no good to me if you get
really sick or die, sorry but me and boys need you and we are selfish,
and love you. you must start the gym again I know the play is
important to you but to me it's not as important as you are."
This shows me 2 things A) He loves me and is worried
B) He is a clueless male who does not realize that he shouldn't point out that his wife looks bad. lol
See???? He IS the shit (I mean this in a good way);)
My husband sent me a further explanation after my response "Darn, I thought I looked good this morning"...
"It's not that you didn't look good this morning, honestly, I could
barely focus this morning lol
No it's from the previous 2 weeks, I'm just concerned.
Also I got a phone call this morning from Mr. Long, it seems that
Billy saw him yesterday because one of his teachers was concerned and
Billy told him about feeling depressed and thought about suicide but
that his parents knew and he was in therapy. I had a long conversion with
him and reassured him that we knew and were on it..."
So you can see that we are still communicating but are dealing with serious stuff.
oh wow! Take care sista! While I do not know ANYTHING about marriage, I would have to assume that as long as communication lines are open, all will be well. As for Billy, hang in there. We are blessed with these children for a reason as I have some similar issues here with dd and can relate, some.
Even imperfect communication is better than no communication. Although I admit my first urge would be to smack the hubs if he said it looked like I was gaining weight! Hang in there.
Man, what a long week. I am not in good shape mentally, emotionally or physically so I am grateful for the weekend.
I have been very tired in the afternoons and that makes me bingey. I am going to add a protein shake back in the AM. I don't think that I am getting enough otherwise.
I am very tearful tonight, In fact I had quite a sobbing jag in my car on the way home from the gym...but I gave myself a pep talk and made a list of things I need to do to make things better.
Dont forget to make a column on that list about what is already good. There is plenty if you think about it. Focus on some positive chicka :)
I agree that a gratitude list (perhaps daily or weekly?) would be good.
I am curious: you mentioned getting off the Prozac. I believe you are one of the folks around here who had read The Mood Cure and tried 5-HTP. Correct me if I'm wrong. Did you feel any different on 5-HTP? If you have read it before, I would suggest a re-read or a scan of the symptoms list for the different types of depression. If you haven't, I suggest it! :)