You sound like a victim, not a conqueror. This will get you nowhere. If you want to attack stress you have to attack it. Your words sound weak, like whimpering cries for help. You are the only person who can help you. Slay your demons instead of parading them around. It also sounds like you spend a lot of time sitting around thinking about yourself. Get out, have fun, do stuff. Then eat a LOT of good food. Relax.
Steak, eggs, potatoes - fruits, nuts, berries and forage. Coconut milk and potent herbs and spices. Tea instead of coffee now and teeny amounts of kelp daily. Let's see how this does! Not really had dairy much, and gut seems better for it.