This pretend life is, and always has been, total crap. I play the games to get good food and a place to live. But I'm not grateful to be employed, it makes me angry that I'm expected to perform an odd function in exchange for the right to obtain goods. Western civilization is completely bass-ackwards, it creates lifestyles out of the thin margin of surplus goods and profits which only a few can mathematically enjoy to any degree, but sets a high standard of life for all the slaves down here at the bottom. We're forced to try and try and try and create a make believe life that we never get to live because the house just sits here empty with nobody in it while we work out butts off and try too hard to impress our overlords in hopes we won't get fired the next time there's a big layoff. I knew it was a stupid game in junior high. I refused to play it for many years. But I couldn't get laid being all obese and greasy and drunk, etc., so I cleaned up and met my wife, and to this day we enjoy a life of relative celibacy - a sort of slap in the face, a "here's what you get for even trying to do this the right way". Whoever the cruel puppetmaster is, there is no love in him. He wants to see us hurting, lost and dying - no matter how honest or crooked we are. Go ahead and keep doing the right thing. It will bite you again and again and laugh while you bleed. All that becoming strong and overcoming opposition nonsense is what the rich people sell us so we can be eternally subservient. "Be grateful master gives you crumbs." and "Yes, that hurts, but you'll soon develop insensitive, dead callouses there and then you can carry me around on these poles all day long without stopping while I throw darts into your back for fun." come to mind. WHAT ARE WE DOING?! WHY ARE WE STILL PRETENDING THIS IS REAL?!
Steak, eggs, potatoes - fruits, nuts, berries and forage. Coconut milk and potent herbs and spices. Tea instead of coffee now and teeny amounts of kelp daily. Let's see how this does! Not really had dairy much, and gut seems better for it.