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  • #76
    Originally posted by Castle View Post
    Jena, one thing which might be worth a try if you're having sleep issues is Melatonin before bed. It's naturally occurring and over the counter at drug stores. I used to have medicine-induced insomnia, and taking Melatonin fixed that. I've also had trouble sleeping the past few days, and it helped with that too.

    Lack of sleep can be a very hard thing to go through. Just know that it doesn't last forever, and that you're doing great.
    Thanks, but I'm not doing great. Today was a disaster. I stopped taking the Wellbutrin after what happened last night. It wasn't just insomnia. I was freaking out tearing my apartment apart looking for something. I think I was looking for Xanax. I hyperventilated and got really dizzy my joints and muscles were all stiff, my throat was closing up. Eventually I calmed down a little after downing half a bottle of wine, taking 4 benedryl, and a melatonin and fell asleep. I got 2 hours of sleep. The third night I didn't sleep. I had to go to work because I called in yesterday. I was a wreck. My coworker came up behind me and touched my shoulder and I got so startled that screamed jumped out of my chair. Everyone just stared at me. And as much as I tried to fight it, I just started bawling. I left and went to the bathroom. And when my boss was in a meeting my coworkers told me to just go home, that they would explain it to her. I really hope I don't get in trouble. This anxiety is unbearable and the insomnia and and anxiety are just feeding off each other. I have emailed my doctor twice and called her, no one has gotten back to me. They are going to have to give me something to relax me. The nurse just called me and told me that my doctor is out of town and she can't prescribe me anything unless I come in and see one of the other doctors. And the one I am seeing does not like to prescribe anything. Wish me luck.

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    • #77
      If you can get to an ER, they may give you something to calm you down. It would just be short term. Is there a walk-in clinic you could go to?
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      • #78
        I canceled my doctor's appt. I remembered that I have a deductible on my insurance that I haven't met and I no longer have a co-pay. I'm 90% sure that the doctor I would have to see wouldn't give me anything anyway, and I'm not paying $70 that I don't have just to get turned down. The only clinic is the Family Health Center... I know they won't give me anything. I'm not a patient for one (its like a normal office for low/no income people) and they get non stop pill heads in there trying to score stuff... so they're pretty strict. Last time I went to the ER it cost me $1500 that still isn't paid off. God I hate this town. Sorry I know I am being super negative right now, but I feel hopeless. I know if I could just sleep for 5 or six hours I would be sooooo much better. I guess I will just lay here with my eyes closed and hope for the best. Thanks for the support.

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        • #79
          Jena love - go to your doctors office. Do not wait for her/them to reply. They will dismiss any voice or email in deference to the person standing in front of them.

          You are not at work; your job right now is to take care of yourself. Take advantage of these couple hours, go to your docs and demand to get help asap. Even if it means sitting there all day. I'm not familiar w/ Wellbutrin and it's taper or no-taper but they need to see you in person and maybe you can ask about these hormone tests while there.

          Big. Freaking. Hug. To. You.

          “you aren't what you eat - you are what you don't poop.” Wavy Gravy

          Today I am Fillyjonk. Tommorow I will be Snufkin.

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          • #80
            sorry. just saw your note about deductible.

            What would be worse, having another night (or day) like you had OR a $70 bill? Can you ask them to bill you, which will give you a little time to sort out where to get the cash but still get you in the door? Then, when the bill comes maybe you'll have had a chance to either save up the $ or if needed, borrow from a friend or family?

            If the doc says they can't help you, tell them to direct you to someone who can. Get a name.

            “you aren't what you eat - you are what you don't poop.” Wavy Gravy

            Today I am Fillyjonk. Tommorow I will be Snufkin.

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            • #81
              Originally posted by spk View Post
              sorry. just saw your note about deductible.

              What would be worse, having another night (or day) like you had OR a $70 bill? Can you ask them to bill you, which will give you a little time to sort out where to get the cash but still get you in the door? Then, when the bill comes maybe you'll have had a chance to either save up the $ or if needed, borrow from a friend or family?

              If the doc says they can't help you, tell them to direct you to someone who can. Get a name.
              I didn't go. I was so anxious the thought of sitting in that waiting room was terrifying.

              Good news! I was able to sleep. I've been sleeping for about 5 hours and feel tired enough to keep sleeping. I think that horrible medicine is finally getting out. That was a true nightmare. I was really scaring myself, hearing things, having really bad thoughts, etc... I am pretty sure the anxiety will be better tomorrow after some more sleep. Thanks for all the hugs and support. It's the only thing that got me through.

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              • #82
                So pleased to hear you slept and are feeling a little better. Sending calming, restful thoughts your way.
                I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                • #83
                  Originally posted by badgergirl View Post
                  So pleased to hear you slept and are feeling a little better. Sending calming, restful thoughts your way.
                  Thank you. I am somewhat anxious, but think I should be able to sleep soon. Tomorrow should be a better day

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                  • #84
                    I'll be thinking of you. Deep breaths.
                    I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                    • #85
                      Originally posted by Jena View Post
                      Good news! I was able to sleep. I've been sleeping for about 5 hours and feel tired enough to keep sleeping.
                      Phew - that's so great. So glad for you! I'll second what badgergrl said and send you a big, relaxing breath. Wishing you a good day tomorrow

                      “you aren't what you eat - you are what you don't poop.” Wavy Gravy

                      Today I am Fillyjonk. Tommorow I will be Snufkin.

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                      • #86
                        Well I was able to sleep for almost 8 hours. I did wake up quite a bit, but only for a minute or two at a time. I went to work and stayed all day. My boss was super nice and understanding about me leaving when I came in today. I was very anxious at work all day, but I made it through. After work I broke down and got some Xanax. I don't like to take it and I am really not supposed to (long story) but and I didn't exactly get it from my doctor, but I am desperate. I mean what am I supposed to do. The inside of my mouth is bleeding from biting it all day, my finger is all swollen from biting it and I rock back and forth in my chair like a crazy person... not to mention I barely got anything done. I still don't feel normal. I wish I never would've taken stupid Wellbutrin. What if it permanently messed me up? When my uncle took it to quit smoking he went nuts... he still is not quite the same (I thought he took chantix, but he said it was bupropion) and he hasn't taken it in months! I don't know, I'm sure I will get past this, but it's hard and I'm scared. Thanks for being so nice to me

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                        • #87
                          Keep doing what you can that is within your control - good food, rest, water - and just keep riding out the bits that aren't. We're cheering for you.
                          I like badgers, books and booze, more or less in that order.

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                          • #88
                            My brain isn't able to use the dopamine/serotonin that my body produces, so I am on Wellbutrin. It has been an absolute LIFESAVER for me. I borked my receptors using crystal meth, and then menopause almost killed me dead. I walk 5 miles every day (not a stroll, I get. it. done.) and that helps me PRODUCE the good chemicals, and then the Wellbutrin helps my brain receptors actually USE those chemicals.

                            Some people may not respond to some chemicals the way some other people respond to chemicals. It depends on a person's unique chemical soup and history. In other words, 'your mileage may vary'.

                            A blanket statement calling for abandonment of all SSRI meds is irresponsible. And sounds like it came from the Tom Cruise School Of Quackery.

                            HOWEVER, Jena, if it made YOU worse I totally support your decision to seek other means of relief from your symptoms. You completely have my sympathy, I know how debilitation anxiety and depression can be.
                            Last edited by Casey; 09-12-2013, 03:49 PM. Reason: because I had more to say, like always...
                            I could see that, if not actually disgruntled, he was far from being gruntled. ~P. G. Wodehouse

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                            • #89
                              I have also used Wellbutrin successfully (and have been off it for years) and its definitely not for everyone. If you have any level of anxiety it can cause panic attacks. I do know that it is NOT a drug that is dangerous to stop suddenly (unlike things like Effexor that you have to taper off). So by all means don't take it if it makes you feel this way, and no worries about long term damage or withdrawals. I hope you are feeling somewhat better and that you find a plan that works.

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                              • #90
                                Originally posted by heregoesnothing View Post
                                I have also used Wellbutrin successfully (and have been off it for years) and its definitely not for everyone. If you have any level of anxiety it can cause panic attacks. I do know that it is NOT a drug that is dangerous to stop suddenly (unlike things like Effexor that you have to taper off). So by all means don't take it if it makes you feel this way, and no worries about long term damage or withdrawals. I hope you are feeling somewhat better and that you find a plan that works.
                                Yeah, the messed up think is that my doctor knows I suffer from a panic attack disorder and still gave it to me telling me that it would help suppress anxiety... she's going to hear it next time I see her! Oh well, lesson learned I guess, but I am still not feeling normal.

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