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    Hey yall it's been a while since I last visited. More like 2 months. In that time I have FAILED! I slowly began not living the primal lifestyle and went back to SAD and all that comes with it. Can't really say what caused it but I did switch shifts during that time. I don't know how much swithcing shifts (from days to graves) can affect your eating, excercise, etc. Most of this time I was eating 50% primal until last week. I had to travel to Seattle for one week for work. I was living out of a suitcase in a hotel and was given per diem. Which translate to eating out 3 x a day. I had all the usual suspects, BBQ, pizza, burgers (buns) candy and peanuts! Funny I was able to keep breakfast mostly primal but after that the day went to hell fast. I swear my instructor for the course was like a dope dealer with the candy. Once he got you hooked it was over lol. Once I came back home I said screw it and throughout this past weekend I did not resist the temptations and I am embarrassed by what I ate. Of course after the pigout weekend in came clarity and I promised myself I would drag my sorry ass back to the gym and resume primal. Coming here is the first order of business to confess my "sins" and for some added motivation. After work I am heading for a long walk before bed then it's lift heavy tomorrow. Boy I feel like a fat slob and my uniform and equipment is fitting kinda snug. All of this after I had been primal for almost six months straight, being overwhelmed by comments from ppl who was noticing how lean I was getting and touting primal to anyone who would listen (or forced to listen). I am such a hypocrite! I don't think I'll be a stranger to MDA and primal again.

    All time high weight 262 lbs
    Primal since Spring 2012
    Start PB Weight: 240 lbs ish
    Current Weight: 220lbs ish
    Goal Weight:190-200 lbs
    All on a 6ft. 1/2 inch frame.

    I can't wait to meet my abs for the first time in my life. We gotta lot of catching up to do.

    I love this way of eating and hope to be able to help others.

  • #2
    Break your paragraphs up.

    But don't sweat it, my friend, we all fail sometimes. We're humans, I am reminded of what Art DeVany, or Obama, once said:

    "There is no failure, only feedback"


    • #3
      Why confess? This isn't a religion. Suggest you focus on your self confidence and discipline (in all aspects).

      Starting Date: Dec 18, 2010
      Starting Weight: 294 pounds
      Current Weight: 235 pounds
      Goal Weight: 195 pounds


      • #4
        Don't worry many of us have stopped and restarted leading to great success. Its part of the learning process and being human.
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        • #5
          Man oh man! You really are a failure dude!

          I don't know how you can look in the mirror or sleep at night.

          Oh that's right, you work at night.


          • #6
            flog yourself with a stick of butter and pray Goddess Paula forgives you
            yeah you are

            Baby if you time travel back far enough you can avoid that work because the dust won't be there. You're too pretty to be working that hard.


            • #7
              I know what it's like to need to get that kind of thing off your chest. Maybe start a journal thread in the journal part of the forum for such things.... I don't mean for it to sound like it'll happen again, but it's a good place to just jot down how you're feeling and progressing.

              Great job getting back to it - you're not a hypocrite, you're just human!
              >> Current Stats: 90% Primal / 143 lbs / ~25% BF
              >> Goal (by 1 Jan 2014): 90% Primal / 135-ish pounds / 20-22% BF

              >> Upcoming Fitness Feats: Tough Mudder, June 2013
              >> Check out my super-exciting journal by clicking these words.

              Weight does NOT equal health -- ditch the scale, don't be a slave to it!


              • #8
                I agree. Start yourself a daily journal to log foods, exercise etc. That's where I put my failures. Like MJ said, it gives you a place to get it off your chest. Don't be so hard on yourself. Today is a new day.


                • #9
                  In reading "It Starts With Food", I was encouraged by the section where the authors talk about wandering away from Paleo, and then coming back, and how quickly our bodies will recover, once the initial healing has taken place.

                  Everyone wanders. You've come back. That's pretty much it. Today, eat well. Get some good sleep. Play. In a year, it will have made little/no difference.


                  • #10
                    Epic failure seems a bit harsh- it seems more like drift but some times we need to jolt ourselves...

                    I've been there myself just recently. I also travel a lot and that makes it difficult to maintain a proper eating style. Take what happened as a blip on your radar and put it behind you.
                    Just get back to things and you'll be fine


                    • #11
                      dont get back on the wagon, its not a primal means of transportation, just eat the horse
                      "The mountains are calling me, I must go"

                      "don't let school get in the way of your education"

                      Shameless Everest/Himalaya hiking company plug


                      • #12
                        I agree with everyone else. We are human, and sometimes we do things that aren't good for us. You didn't "fail", you can't "fail", you just made a foray back into SAD.

                        Do journal. It's a great way to look back at how you felt, what you ate, and helping to get you back on the "Primal" track.

                        Good luck!


                        • #13
                          Originally posted by Grokdaddy View Post
                          I don't know how much swithcing shifts (from days to graves) can affect your eating, excercise, etc. Most of this time I was eating 50% primal until last week.
                          Your biggest FAIL is your thinking. Primal is not only about diet and food, it's about sleep, breathing, playing, seasonality, and making good choices. Eating 50% primal while on rotating shifts is a recipe for disaster. If you are a shift worker and can't change that, then you should be eating 100% primal and doing everything in your power to minimize problems caused by your circadian mismatches, like wearing blueblocker sunglasses, taking melatonin if appropriate, getting a good set of labs to determine deficiencies and hormone status. Eating a couple steaks and then a loaf of bread and 3 Cokes is not 50% PB--it's ZERO %.


                          • #14
                            I sympathise. Blame the environment..... by that I mean that we are unconsciously predisposed to harmonise with our environment, and when all that surrounds us is SAD, then it takes constant effort, vigilance and practically, lots of planning ahead to be able to remain on track. Working nights will take so much of your energy and screw up your body clock, one of the first casualties will be your ability to uphold your 'differentness' from the world around you.
                            watching TV tonight, bombarded with adverts, EVERY one of the food related ones, SAD SAD ....... be proud that you ever achieve anything Primal - you are one of only a few who have woken up to the mutation of the modern world.... and a few steps backwards only serve to remind us how fabulous it is to eat as our bodies would like us to.

                            WW :-)


                            • #15
                              Of course- am in the UK - it just occurred to me, rather hilariously, that the highly appropriate 'SAD' abbreviation, is quite nicely partnered by our version across the pond of 'SUCKD' - hahahahaha!!!

                              WW :-D