I'm in my room listening to ethnic tribal music.
Lately I have been craving this kind of music a lot, it helps me to relax and to look inside myself.
I have been reading of this 40 year old guy, overweight, sick, living a meaningless rat-race life and surrounded by idiots whole only interest in life is football and beer, who suddenly got tired of all this nonsense and got lean and healthy. What I'd like to ask him is what he's doing with hiw new found health and courage to react, now that his old life feels certainly too narrow.
You see, the more I get healthier, the more I realize what our mind and creativity can really do, the more I get in tune with my body and a more wild-spiritual side (not talking about religion) of myself, the more I get sick of the banal existence people around me accept as the "normality" and would like me to accept as the normality as well.
Really I can't stand this nonsense anymore: I can't stand waking up and listening the news just to find out what other retarded things our politicians have done, I can't stand trying to communicate with others just to find out that the only thing they want to talk about is fashion; reality shows; television; gossip or talk behind the back of others, I can't stand how our society is becoming more and more traditionalist (bad narrow minded traditionalism, I know even primitive tribes have their traditions) the more global it becomes and I can't stand how people around me can call their nonsense existence of waking up; doing something unexciting the whole day; watching TV all night and going to bed waiting for the same nonsense to repeat itself the next day... living. It's not. Not even an animal would accept such obscenity, they know better and rebel or let themselves starve when they feel themselves entrapped, caged and without hope for something better.
I'm just realizing that modern society for the most part is nothing but a bunch of human animals in captivity and they are trading their insight, smartness, instincts, fredoom and dreams for the illusion of being protected and well served by a stupid government. People are becoming like hamsters, mindlessly spinning their wheels leading nowhere.
The point is when what do you do, when you wake up, when you realize you're an hamster and your wheel is fixed firmly in place and your effort is useless, when you realize you're in a cage and suddenly want more?