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  • Day Eighty

    First of all I'm very sorry for no pictures.. I deleted them somehow. Second - I have really no time to post a long msg. Only foods here.

    Breakfast: mango + cc + berries + honey
    School lunch: dates + almonds
    Dinner: veal hearts with peppers, onions, carrot and brussels sprouts
    Supper: Chicken leg + 3 apples

    Workout : 30 min. kettlebell circut.
    Tommorow I'll have more time to write longer msg : /
    God damn it, maybe I'll recover my pics. I hope so.. CC looked wonderful.
    Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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    • Its okay adrain I could imagine ur foods very clearly and hey have u thought of changing ur KB workout .? Just sayin or do u do different ones every once in a while?

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      • Its okay adrain I could imagine ur foods very clearly and hey have u thought of changing ur KB workout .? Just sayin or do u do different ones every once in a while?
        Naah, I don't mind changing my kb circuts, as I use them as sprints, which are recommended : )

        Day Eighty One

        Hi there : )

        I had short lessons today - from 8:30 till 12:50 : 3 I got good mark in chemistry (exam was on Monday). Also I'm afraid about Polish... Tommorow teacher might want to "talk to me" about ancient theathre etc. I really don't like it.. I prefer writing to speaking : P

        Today I hit the gym! : 3

        I'm doing Ice Cream fitness ! I really enjoy this routine - it develops all parts of my body and I can feel my muscles growing...

        Workout:
        Squat: 5 x 5 x 60 kg
        Deadlift: 1 x 5 x 85 kg
        OHP: 5 x 5 x 30 kg
        Barabell row: 5 x 5 x 42,5 kg
        Close grip bench press: 3 x 8 x 30 kg
        Incline bicep curls: 8 x 35 kg ; 2 x 8 x 30 kg
        Cable crunches: 3 x 10 x 40 kg
        Crunches: 2 x 30

        Foods today:

        Breakfast:

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        cc with banana, berries, honey and cinnammon

        Pre-gym lunch:

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        almonds, apple, dates, gelatine-cocoa coffee

        Dinner:

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        chicken thigs, onions and chilli curry with rice noodles

        Supper:

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        So I had whole honeydew melon with cc and honey, also while watching Champions League I ate around 10 raw carrots (lol a lot).

        Thank you for reading : 3! Have a great night
        Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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        • Jason Blaha's Ice Cream Fitness 5x5 Novice Program | Muscle & Strength here u can see my routines : 3

          I think almost everyone prefer wiritng to speaking, as you can think about your words for a longer time and cross out smth stupid etc. : ) Tommorow I'll start at 9:20 and finish at 3:00.. I'll have to survive somehow

          10 carrots is nothing.. When you watch football match your hands stuff them into mouth without any thinking xd

          Have a great night too <3
          Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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          • Originally posted by ebrady98
            Thanks! I'll start this tomorrow! <3



            True. However, some people feel like their concentration flows best when talking through their point; they gain energy this way. I feel like this sometimes...I go on epic rants ;D
            I would prefer to act. I HATE WRITING !! :P (no offense shadownight , I love reading and would really love to read ur story ! )
            Originally posted by ebrady98

            Dude, 9:00 - 3:00 is my average day ;D
            I know right , damn man u should be thankful Id love to have ur schedule :3


            Originally posted by ebrady98
            Good point :P I (and I imagine most people) can consume an XL bag of popcorn at the cinema :P
            Yup I could totally eat like 2 XL :P bt I totally hate raw carrots love them boiled though

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            • Day Eighty Two

              Hello dear followers

              Today I had a strange day - I was reminding strange memories, which were truly bringing me down.. Idk why.. I was sleepy and tired, aslo I had terrible DOMS after yesterday cable crunches... My abdominals hurt like hell when I do faster move.

              In school I was stressed during Polish, but she said she will check our knowledge tommorow. More stress, more bullshit !
              During English we were discussing some stupid things like social message in photography etc. I will not learn anything new in English during lessons in school. Thanks god I signed up for this CAE exam, as I have lessons with this lovely guy from Wales
              During PE we were playing volleyball - I liked it! : 3 Then Economy -another boooring lesson. Equations on Maths - this was pretty useful ; 3 I'm starting to like counting etc... It scares me : O

              When I got home I made myself quick and tasty dinner. Then some Chemistry and Polish : / I had to learn about food additions (Chemistry) and Ancient Tragedy (Polish).. First one is a lot more interesting...

              Tommorow I'll hit the gym! I'd like to make my bench press a little hard - I think about adding 2 or 2,5 kg ; 3 Also bicep curls should go up a bit. Wish me luck!

              Foods today:


              breakfast:

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              cc with mango, berries and honey <3

              school lunch:

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              dates + almonds

              dinner:

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              beef with whild mushrooms in thyme and brussels sprouts!

              supper:

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              chicken leg with whole grain mustard, grapefruit

              Workout:

              30 minutes kettlebell circut (EG - I WON'T CHANGE IT !)

              Have a great night!
              Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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              • lolz grapefruit --> WP_20131024_008.jpg

                small one, but so sweet. It had green skin and was grown in Israel..
                Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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                • I hope you feel better soon! I guess I can agree, though; some days you just generally feel like crap. You should get yerself to bed early :P

                  Mind you - there is something beautiful about being able to feel strong sad emotions while still having that security of consistent happiness. Maybe you just needed the release of emotions?
                  I felt better today, but still upset. I think you are right - I need a damn release of my feelings.. But I don't have anyone close to tell them about reasons... : /

                  Don't stress Polish, you'll be fine :3 most people cheer when a teacher moves the test back - idk why, they don't even revise anyway :')

                  Lol, algerbra is fun; shapes are shit :P
                  Yay! Nothing happened today ; 3 Such a peaceful day in school. More ones like today please!

                  I don't think they'd teach anything like that in my school, unless it was a specified course at A-Level...too much CW, y'know? In chemistry we had to learn the unequivocal benefits of vegetable oils -.-
                  Ehh my Chemistry teacher has finished student's book with us in 3 months. Authors planned it to be teached for at least 10 months.. LOLZ. Anyway you're right. I've just read that saturated fats are evil and there is nothing wrong in wheat consumption. Bread contains NECESSARY NUTRIENTS! HAVE A SLICE BRO! ...

                  Day Eighty Two

                  Hello dear friends! : 3

                  My Friday was pretty good : 3 I woke up around 6.30 and had nice breakfast. Then I was in hurry - my lessons started at 8.25 and I had to visit library before they started. During first hour I had Religious Education - we were talking about different religions etc. Then English - nothing new, only some vocab connected with theathre... Later Chemistry - we started new chapter about medicines. Today we had aspirine and medicinal charcoal explained. Very interesting stuff : 3 Later Polish.. Horatio's poems ; 3 They are really beautiful, but not with THIS TEACHER.. Arghh... During Safety Education we were talking about things we should do during war.. Scary & I hope not useful in the future. Then Culture... I slept during it

                  When I got home I had some dates, almonds and protein loaded coffee - with flax meal and gelatine. Mmm.. Flax meal adds creamy structure to all drinks/sauces. It's great thickener !

                  Later gym : 3 I'm very happy because my lifts are getting heavier!

                  Squat: 5x5 x 60 kg
                  Bench Press: 5x5 x 40 kg (+5 kg)
                  Barabell row: 5x5 x 42,5 kg
                  Barabell Shrugs: 3x8 x 42,5 kg (+2,5 kg)
                  Tricep extensions: 3x8 x 30 kg (+5 kg)
                  Incline bicep curls: 3x8 x 35 kg (+5 kg)
                  Hyperextensions: 2x10 x 20 kg (+10 kg)
                  Cable crunches: 3x10 x 40 kg

                  Foods:

                  breakfast:




                  cottage cheese with banana, honey and berries, tinned salmon with onion

                  lunch:

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                  dates, almonds + gelatine/milk/cocoa/flax meal coffee

                  dinner:

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                  shrimpy spaghettti + 1/2 cauliflower head + 2 fried eggs

                  Supper will be posted later ; 3 Enjoy ur evening!
                  Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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                  • supper: melon + cc + berries + maple syrup and apple and green grapefruit.

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                    Ehh it would be another long & boring story that would make you sleep. I'm really in bad situation if it's about my friends...

                    We are two months behind for History ; /

                    Gym was genious! ;3 I felt really great today.. But my mood sucks again..

                    Have a good night ebrady! <3 Thank you for your support!
                    Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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                    • sorry man for ur sadness, i hope by nw its okay y dont u talk to that girl u liked to talk to? i think female in these situations wat u need, bec they r very emotional their self not being sexist or anything :P

                      and im impressed by ur strength gains( wat did i tell u :P )
                      and dude i only meant change it once in a while bec repeating the same workout over again and again u kind of plateau and u either change moves or weights or reps anything u know

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                      • Don't be silly! I wouldn't find it boring at all. I understand if you don't want to tell me, though the offer is there

                        I'm only a couple of lessons behind in history. We're starting Nazi Germany soon. I can't wait ;D what are you doing atm?

                        Good work on the gym :3 hope your mood improves soon...just remember, there will always be the good days and the bad days; as long as the latter doesn't outweigh the former on the grand scale of things, by any discernible mark...it's good.

                        no problem; and you too <3
                        We've just finished 1st WW, so now 20 years between 1st and 2nd : )

                        I hope better days will come soon. But now the time change is coming.. I hate it. It's getting dark earlier and everything becomes just simply dead...

                        sorry man for ur sadness, i hope by nw its okay y dont u talk to that girl u liked to talk to? i think female in these situations wat u need, bec they r very emotional their self not being sexist or anything :P

                        and im impressed by ur strength gains( wat did i tell u :P )
                        and dude i only meant change it once in a while bec repeating the same workout over again and again u kind of plateau and u either change moves or weights or reps anything u know
                        Idk why don't I talk to her.. I just don't feel like.. Maybe it's about trust ; /
                        Thanks : 3 Tommorow I'll add smth to my deads maybe. About kb I gave it up today. Some stomach problems... : /

                        Day Eighty Three

                        I had to wake up as early as during Mon-Fri : / It's because of my English classes from 8:30 till 12. But tbh I enjoy them! Today we were preparing for speaking and reading parts of CAE. I think reading will be much easier. Also I like use of English, but I'm sure I'll mess up grammar. However, I have a lot of time to practise it - I will try to pass CAE in May/June 2014.

                        I had terrible stomach problems today (a.k.a. constipation). That's why I gave up KB circut today. I feel like a baloon. Really.

                        Foods today:

                        breakfast:

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                        cc with banana, berries and maple syrup

                        snack:

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                        turkey head cheese and grapes. too much grapes. I ate too much today and didn't workout.

                        dinner:

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                        5 chicken thighs, 4 wings, potatoes and button mushrooms. Too much wings. And one head of broccoli. Omg my stomach wants to explode, I can feel fat storing in my body : /

                        supper:

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                        cc with honeydew melon, berries and honey, some raw carrots + two apples.

                        I ate too much : / I feel terrible ...

                        Have a good night. Tommorow I'm gonna hit the gym again. Results will be posted : 3

                        Thanks for reading!
                        Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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                        • Originally posted by Adrian View Post
                          Day Eighty Three

                          I had to wake up as early as during Mon-Fri : / It's because of my English classes from 8:30 till 12. But tbh I enjoy them! Today we were preparing for speaking and reading parts of CAE. I think reading will be much easier. Also I like use of English, but I'm sure I'll mess up grammar. However, I have a lot of time to practise it - I will try to pass CAE in May/June 2014.

                          I had terrible stomach problems today (a.k.a. constipation). That's why I gave up KB circut today. I feel like a baloon. Really.
                          Hey, Adrian! How you going?

                          IMHO the bloating/bowel issues is due to too much fibrous and watery foods - I'd advice getting rid of some of those carrots and apples. I get the same thing. :/

                          Originally posted by Adrian View Post
                          snack:

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                          turkey head cheese and grapes. too much grapes. I ate too much today and didn't workout.

                          dinner:

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                          5 chicken thighs, 4 wings, potatoes and button mushrooms. Too much wings. And one head of broccoli. Omg my stomach wants to explode, I can feel fat storing in my body : /

                          supper:

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                          cc with honeydew melon, berries and honey, some raw carrots + two apples.

                          I ate too much : / I feel terrible ...

                          Have a good night. Tommorow I'm gonna hit the gym again. Results will be posted : 3

                          Thanks for reading!
                          No. No. No no no. No.

                          You did not eat too much, stop thinking that. Stop thinking that right now. You're being ridiculous. IMHO, the only thing ou overdid today was your veggies consumption - a whole head of brocolli and all those carrots? That's a crapton of fibre, my friend, and a crapton of fibre can very well mean a crapton of crap. Just sayin'

                          So what if you took a day off gym. Seriously. One day in however many days you're going to be a live, who really cares? In ten years - no, one year, or even a month - will you be thinking "Oh, I wish I went to the gym that day!". I find it unlikely.

                          You're not "storing fat". That's insane, goes against science and trust me when I say it's all in your head.


                          Originally posted by Adrian View Post
                          Idk why don't I talk to her.. I just don't feel like.. Maybe it's about trust ; /
                          I strongly agree with EGrok about focusing on this girl.

                          Make her your priority to be happy. Take her out, chill with her, invite her over, please her. Eat meals with her, get your mind off food and having to workout and just enjoy her - whether your relationship flourishes into anything or not, enjoy her company.

                          Think about it: what are you trying to achieve from all this?. Your training. Your food intake. Who really cares?

                          I don't mean this in a negative way, Adrian, because I enjoy readingt your log and like you, but I think you need to remember what it is you're actually trying to do here.
                          Trying to bulk up? Why? For aesthetics? For strength? For girls? What use is it all if your mind is constantly on food and working out, and you're too tired to use your built strength outside of the gym, and you don't spend time with the girl/s because you're concentrating of food/exercise related things.
                          What I am trying to say, Adrian, is that you need to remember what it is you're fighting for.
                          What do you want out of life? Is what you're doing making you happy?


                          Chat to the girl. Spend some time with her. I can honestly say that having someone who you know cares about you despite your flaws - whether it be anorexia or coeliacs, any kind of extreme restriction - is the single greatest feeling in this world.

                          /endrant, We're all gonna make it brah
                          Dark chocolate and coffee, running through my veins...

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                          • Everything that shadownight said seriously spot on dude

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                            • Day Eighty Four

                              First of all, thanks for your suppor. I had a brain storm today. And I didn't come to any good conclusion about my feelings. I only saw that my life doesn't really make a lot of sense. Why? I try to be healthy, strong and to look good.. but.. who for? My parents don't really care, I have almost no close friends and no gf or smth. But I'm not outgoing enough to find new people.. I'm stuck : / Anyway I need to go out with some and have some fun, relax, stress out and forget about food. I see that I'm a little obsessed now. But who cares... I think none in my closest envirnoment.

                              I need some changes. But can't do any step forward. I stopped to count calories, now I think more about workouts - it's like one step and two steps back.

                              Also I didn't learn enough through this weekend. Thanks to my goddamn bad mood. I noticed that when I'm stressed, I eat more and do less. I should care for my future, but for last few days I feel like crying and shouting. Jesus.. Idk what's happening. I miss my old life, when I had more friends and didn't care about school etc. It was long time ago, but I feel so baaad when I think about it. I can't consider learning more as bad thing, but there is something missing now. I think it's lack of social contact and just simply FUN.

                              Anyway, I had to hit the gym today. It helped a bit as I could lift some iron and let my pain go out for a while. I could focus on something different.

                              Workout:

                              Squat: 5x5 x 60 kg
                              Deadlift: 1x5 x 87 kg
                              OHP: 1x5 x 35 kg ; 4x5 x 32 kg
                              Barabell row: 5x5 x 45 kg
                              Close grip bench press: 3x8 x 35 kg
                              Incline bicep curls w/ barabell: 3x8 x 35 kg
                              Cable crunches: 3x10 x 40 kg

                              Foods today:

                              breakfast:

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                              cc with honey, mango and berries

                              post workout lunch:

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                              pic shows only a small part of 3 apples, pistachios and 4 or 5 small plums


                              dinner:

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                              2 chicken breasts with skin on + boiled carrots

                              supper:

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                              a huge block of cc with maple syrup, apple and two grapefruits


                              I also cycled for around 45 minutes on my fixie <3 Weather was straaaaange today - almost 25C...

                              I made some green tea jello today, tommorow I'll post pics and tell you smth about it's taste.

                              To ebrady, EG and Shadowknight - I'm very sorry, but I feel exhausted and I'll reply tommorow to your journals : / I'm really sorry friends... Have a good night! I appericate your help really much! I just don't feel like doing anything now. I'm gonna go to bed and listen to some relaxing drum and bass..... Maybe I'll read a book. It's not my day..

                              Thank you for reading and best wishes for entire week!

                              Hardgainer trying to gain - my primal journal : http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread91644.html

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                              • Adrian,
                                I am sorry to read you are so stressed.
                                Try to do the gym max 3 times per week, it will give you more time for socializing and will be better for you muscles as well. Can you find a good group sport to do once a week like football or capoeira again? Maybe a cycling group. The gym is very individual and with group activities you will meet, and interest with, others. It could be something different than sports of course.
                                And please stop stressing over your schoolwork so much, you are getting great grades and need to relax more in stead of only studying. At least take the saterdays off and do something fun.
                                Being healthy and getting some muscles is something you do for yourself not for anyone else. And in consequence your confidence will go up and it shows. Focussing to much on it, like every extreme, is not so good. Try some balance, you are managing great with your weight and anorexia you can do this to.
                                Hope next week will be better for you.

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